hi everyone!

I hope all is well, it doesnt seem to be too busy in here, im surprised! im having one of those crappy days where everything seems to stand still and you feel stuck and like you will never get to see those 2 lines. I have nothing to do but wait until my gp returns from leave and for our first urology appointment in feb, im waiting for AF in the next 3 or 4 days and Im hating that xmas is around becuase we were supposed to have a 2 week old precious baby right now. I find myself crying all the time feeling like im getting nowhere and i dont know how to relax i feel its destroying our relationship as my DP often cries and is always texting me through the day saying he wish he could get me pregnant and cant wait to have a baby and I wish i could give him one soooo much how do you all do it? this will be our 9th month trying since my miscarriage and over 2 years now in total and DP is going away interstate for army training for 6 months next year and It is going to drive me insane not being able to TTC as I have to finish my last 6 months of my degree. we already have 2 grand saved for fees and such and just cant seem to get anyone to listen that we are ready. Im sorry to be so down but I dont like to burden my wonderful partner all the time.

TTC#1 for 2 years
ME-21
DP-21 89% abnormal sperm
urology appointment-FEB 19
1 blighted ovum May 08