Thanks guys for the support, I am still reeling a little from the new FS, but I guess he cares. He spoke about being here to see my son grow up and to see him have children so he is not the big Ogre really. Anyway have eaten my way through a years worth of crap this weekend and start both the drugs and the new diet and exercise tomorrow. My aim is to lose 20kg in the next 6 months which will bring my BMI below 30. 16kg will put me back to the weight I was when I fell preg with DS. Should have an april start now but may put it off to May as I am going to Melb to see Billy Elliot with some girls from work in april so very excited about that. Anyway What I was really doing on here was to tell everyone I am ok, It is all worth it and Thankyou so very much for the support.