N2L, my nails could use help! I've been so stressed I've destroyed them...
Miss.B, let us know how you go. I'll be interested to hear what he has to say.
me4ever, GL with the wedding preparations. I left everything to the last minute and then hired a wedding planner (friend of a friend). Some of her choices were less than ideal, but at least it was close to what I wanted. Lol, I even bought my dress off the rack! It fit almost perfectly, so seemed like fate.
myturn, he he, you've got your dates as 2012. But, wow! 14 weeks! I had almost 18 months (and waited 9 months to get started)!
Larry - CD20 1dp 1 x 5 day embryo BT: 07/08/2012
N2L – CD25 3dpo
myturn – CD26 7dp 1 x 2 day embryo BT: 2/8/12
PlanetSasha – CD38 BT: 27/7/12
Andie – CD40 Got Their in July
ReeRee 2/7/12
Jane 2/7/12
Rach82 13/7/12
Last edited by myturn; July 26th, 2012 at 09:37 PM.
Hi Ladies, sorry for the all me post but am feeling very down today. I got only Facebook this morning when I got I work and there is a photo of a old friend of mine from school announcing that she is preggers with her second baby and it has hit me like a bullet train. I have been doing great since the FET failed but today I am sitting here at work and trying to hold back the tears after reading that announcement. I am really starting to wonder if I will ever get to do that (announce that I'm pregenant) and just really wish that I had no emotions so this wouldn't effect me so much. Why couldn't I have been one of those women that never really wanted kids, it would have made my life do much easier. We are good people and this is what we get, a life of struggle and heart ache instead of sharing the love we have. Also didn't help that my mum tells me how she was hoping she could come for a holiday and go shopping for baby things after I told her the FET failed. Just feeling so so down today and want to go home and cry my eyes out. So sorry for bringing everyone down but really needed to get it all out before I completely lost it at work. XOXO.
Could the clomid I'm taking be making me feel like this? Wondering if I'm just really hormonal from the drugs.
Look after yourself lovely... yes the clomid can make you more emotional, but at the same time it's an emotional journey. I started seeing a psych a couple of months ago and it has really helped, just to have someone to say everything to who doesn't judge, who I cannot hurt and who tells me I am allowed to feel this way sometimes. that I DO have a lot going on, and it is traumatic.... it has been really helpful, although it took me a long time to admit I needed to go.
Do you have some sick leave to tell the boss you need to go home??? You can't work efficiently when you feel like this...
I wish I could give you a big hug and make it all better xxx
Mrs Mac - I know exactly how you feel. I did get to finally make the big announcement only to have the joy quickly taken from us. I too feel like its never going to happen for us. Mostly when people have a m/c they say "your young, there will be other babies". But for me its so scary to think that we have had our only chance and its now done, especially being 41.
I cant remember if you have any more frosties left?
Thanks for the support Ladies, I feel much better for being able to get it all out, thinking I might start a journal so I can write it all down. Unfortunately myturn I wasn't able to chuck a sickie and go home today, my boss is away so I am playing boss today and one of the other ladies in the office had her father pass away so I sent her home as I can't fathom the pain she is going through. I have manage to hold it together so far but am sure I will let it all out when I get home.
Vic you are an amazingly strong person to be getting through what you have had to endure and I can only imagine your pain and how heartbroken you must feel. Knowing how it feels to not be able to get a BFP i cant even believe what It must feel like to finally get it and then have it taken away. I guess it's hats off to all of us ladies for just getting through each day. I am very lucky to still have 2 blast, one was really good and the other was ok but quite slow to develop, FX we are sitting on a jackpot with one of them.
Thanks again ladies, knowing you are here for me makes it so much easier.
journal is a good idea... and when you finally DO get a sticky BFP.... it can be the beginning of your baby journal
i've got one... was really good at writing ALL the time when I started IVF.... but now I'm a bit slacker... in fact I guess I should write in it today
should update on the OHSS drama I guess...
on that.... I am feeling much better emotionally today, I think the pain is the same, but am hoping with the change to crinone, things will start slowing down and it will start getting better soon..... was quite sore last night, and I do notice a difference in the morning compared to evening, but I am sleeping better I think, and that helps.....
Mrs Mac - I too have 2 blasts. One from the batch where I got my BFP and another one from my Feb harvest. That one has a briding in it which the embryologist said at the time said may lead to identical twins. So I am not out of the race yet. Actually we are not sure what to do. Whether to put both back in and aim for another stim in this medicare safety net year or do one at a time and hope for the best.
Myturn - I am glad your feeling better emotionally today. Any symptoms yet? I never had anything.
it's hard to tell if I am feeling anything because of all the bloating.... I didn't have any cramping in my lower abdomen (even though lots of bloating), until tuesday this week, and then a little yesterday, which doesn't seem to be there now, so I wondered whether that was implantation or something...??? but everything else feels the same pretty much... I'm just sore from all the bloating... it certainly feels different to all the other cycles I have had, but I suspect that's just the OHSS... and I won't know until next week if the witch arrives...
weird, how you felt different, but had no symptoms... what was different then??
although I'm sore and sorry for myself, I'm not hating this one in the same way as all the others... I think the forced time off is fantastic! and I'm just so focused on bloating, I'm not obsessing like usual.... also I think I've done so many now, that I'm like... yeah.... whatever happens.... it's going to happen, so I will just wait and see...
I was not as bloated as the other times. I too was on my 5th transfer and I cant explain it, it just felt different. The 1st TWW I was so excited then the novelty runs out quickly and the 4th transfer was spent in denial trying to forget it was even happening.
I know what you mean....! denial is a crappy thing...
I'm a bit scared to admit whether I feel the same or different... but.... it wouldn't surprise me if it was a +.... but then... wouldn't surprise me if it was a - either...
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