hi Kotare - chin up girl i know your a strong woman...i know what you mean with the emotional struggle of what if another BFN? scenario. your situation is so much more involved than mine though. i am very lucky to have four snowbubs but i am so scared that none will survive the thaw or only one will and i get another BFN... i know in my heart i want to keep on going until i am pregnant but i also know DH wont want to. i am blessed with 2 beautiful boys but have an empty ache in me as i really want another. i thought in my first cycle if i got a BFN i would be able to cope, but after such an ordeal with low response etc etc when i got that -ve result i was devastated. i was angry at everything and didnt want to speak to anyone, i didnt visit anyone for over a week and i was sooo depressed! i am scared of how i will react if i get another BFN but at the same time i dont want to stop trying... now just waiting on AF, have a bad feeling she is going to be extra late for the first time in my life... whats the next stage for you when you get AF? are you back to Synarel followed by injections?
All the stats etc would say we are both going to get pg soon, but it's hard to stay 'up' sometimes.
Yep, I've already started Synarel, so i just have to take my last few BCPs, then AF will arrive hopefully not too late (Synarel makes her v late!), then start the jabs again.
My GP started talking about donor eggs the other day when i went to renew my referral - I told her she was being a bit hasty, but i can't deny that all that is playing on my mind. I should take one day at a time, but after taking the last 1,000+ days at a time, i am beginning to wonder what my future might hold.
I think if it scares you to stop trying - then you should definitely keep trying. I think you must get to a point where you know when to stop, and only you can tell. I think sometimes our DHs just want the ups and downs, and the pain etc, to stop for us and that's why they don't want to keep trying. But the joy in the end is going to be so very sweet that it will all be worth it.
I've been doing the 'why me' thing a bit much lately (and then hating myself for it) and i'm not sure how to get out of it this time.
I'm sure that your snowbubs will survive the thaw - BW's made it, and she had a blasty too. I think blastys have higher %'s so June could be a good month for blastys!! And then bring on July for me
Thanks for the support - it's really appreciated
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