Hi Rols - just remembered one more thing about the varicocele. I'm told it feels like a bag of worms. I've never seen DH's, nor felt it that I'm aware of - I don't really think he wants me checking it out! Just remember that if it's a smaller one, you'll only feel it while straining. If it's small enough to only be found with an ultrasound scan, then it's unlikely to cause problems. Even the GP commented to me a when I was next in after DH's appointment that it was particularly large and could be found really easily.

Lou, I don't think we were given any reasons as to why ICSI gives a better result with PCOS. Our clinic doesn't charge extra for it, and the FS (who was actually a little annoyed with us at this stage because we were questioning his "varicocele repair does nothing" line) just said that we need it because of DH's sperm, but they'd do it for me anyway because I have PCOS so don't worry about it. One thing I did think of... and this could very well be me adding 2 and 2 and getting 5... I have an aunt with very severe PCOS and every time she conceived a boy, she would miscarry. She has two girls (now in theire 20s!) but had a lot of trouble getting there. I've also been told that ICSI increases the likelihood of a girl... so perhaps it's because of the situation with my aunt, but I really have no idea at all. I'll try to remember to ask the FS about it next time I'm there.

Feeling much, much calmer about things today... I spoke to a friend last night who had an 18month TTC journey with clomid and two miscarriages, and just to be able to say some of the crazy things I'm feeling and here someone say "I understand how you feel, I've been there" has done wonders for my state of mind! I feel much more at peace with things now, I think I'll even be able to get some work done!

BW