Thank you sushee and sammi for your replies.

Sammi, sometimes i think i am strong and then some days i am not.

Yesterday and today are 1st anniversary of the loss of our twin girls Chantelle 4/7 and Shale on 5/7 and tomorrow i have BT (fingers crossed). The last couple days have been supported by MIL and DH which has been great,otherwise not sure how would have coped and DH was also dealing with the loss of his dad 3/7 so we have 3 consecutive days of anniversaries.

Great news for Baby~Amore (trish) on her birth of 2 baby boys - WTG!!!.

Chris