It was definitely NOT something you did. It was NOT your fault. It hurts because you wanted it so much, you worked so hard to get it and you loved that baby long before it ever existed.
Me4 ever- I had a chemical pregnancy in January and took it really hard. It was devastating and felt like I had lost a baby. I felt guilty for feeling that way and like it wasn;t justified. I mean I was only pregnant for about 5 days, but emotionally it was REALLY hard. When I had my 12 week miscarriage, physically yes it was a lot different, and everyone knew I was pregnant so that was different, but emotionally it felt the same- a loss like the first. It almost helped me deal with the first one because I stopped feeling gulty about how I looked at it. Maybe a chemical pregnancy is not a big deal to someone who hasn;t been trying and just sees it as a late period, but when you've been trying for months and months and put yourself through all the crap that we do and have HOPED and HOPED for it- it's a loss like any other. Juniper put it beautifully- you loved that baby before it even existed. be kind to yourself, and grieve like you should. hugs xxxx
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