Can someone explain how if synarel puts you into a menopausal state, you still get a period??! Is that normal?? (It was due). I think somewhere in the literature it says it is. Seems odd to me if the point of synarel is to be menopausal-like.

I am so emotional at the moment (I guess because i have AF), I was watching Neighbours last night ( ) and a long termer on the show (well, badly prortrayed and written but thats a whole other vent) - discovered she was pregnant and heard the heartbeat. I burst into tears. I was so embarrassed. My husband looked at me like I was a bit strange...

I am really struggling to come to terms with this stage of treatment, even though its actually not a big thing compared to what others do. I didnt think it would get this far, and I cant help feeling I am forking out dollars for a child that may never exist. How does one reconcile these frustrations and grief with oneself? I try to tell myself that I am only feeling this way because after 2.5 years with #1 and now another 20 months of trying, I am just exhausted and used to disappointment, so its natural to feel this wont work either.

Then I see people who have been through far more, and many more times, and I get angry at myself for being so self indulgent and sorry for myself. I need to snap out of it, get positive and get on with it. But how?!?