I too have started writing down some thoughts - it helps getting them out of my head and on to paper.

One of the gorgeous girls I supervise asked why I seemed so sad lately so I gave her the 60 second humourous version of the situation (people seem to cope better if you can see the lighter side of things - you don't laugh, you'll cry, right?)...she left a little gift on my desk last night...a beautiful notebook with the mesage "hope the blank pages of this journal inspire you to start writing about your "Turkey Baster Times and Trials and Tribulations"...bless her.

I'm a little way into a poem, which I thought I'd share with you guys...it's not finished, but neither's my journey, hey?! It's about the rollercoaster of emotions that goes with pregnancy, miscarriage and long term unfertility...


Rollercoaster

The sight of two pink lines on a pregnancy test
Month after month of just one

The butterfly flicker of your baby's heartbeat on the ultrasound
The sound of the doctor's voice as they tell you it's gone

The look on your husband's face when you find out you're pregnant
The anguish in his eyes when it's all over

The secret joy you hold within yourself as you spread your hands over your still-flat belly
The private pain of every failed attempt