Thank-you everyone for your warm welcomes, im not sure why i was too chicken to not join earlier...! Im not a facebooker/twitter person, so i think the online chat thing is just foreign to me, but im sure ill get the hang of it and be hassling you all in no time.
saffy - i hope your transfer went smoothly today. i was on clexane for my last transfer in december, they are a bit stingy but im sure it wont bother you after 4 stim cycles. im still a bit of a sook with the needles, but i have progressed to letting my husband do them now instead of going down to local gp's, or getting work colleagues to do them...! (i used to work in an office that had MCH nurses around). i was on the 40 dose, which i think is an average-ish dose? i am hearing you about the trying to stay positive thing, its really hard after so many years/transfers.
mich8 - i am waiting for my FS to get back from hol's to start a FET, have an appt with her next wednesday, feb 15th. i think i overdosed on stim cycles towards the end of last year (one in aug, oct & dec!) and have since had a couple of long cycles which is unusually for me (usually they are 29-32 days). one i waited for 47 days with no sign of it arriving, so FS gave me primolut (spelling?) to bring it on. the next was 37 days, and came natually. anyway, i have been happy to wait for FS and cycles to get back to normal before doing a FET. also, the credit card has appreciated the 2 months off too... happy to go on a list - but not sure if i qualify yet as not doing a cycle just yet?! ill let you decide.
afm - not much really! just waiting for FS appt next wed. will be good too catch up with FS as when i switched clinics was around when she left for hol's, so i had the initial scan with her, then saw another FS for further scans & epu, then another different FS for transfer - so will be good to review the stim cycle i have just done, find out embryo results (how many cells, fragmentation etc - i need to know all those little details...!). also this is the first cycle i have done where i split the fertalisation between IVF & ICSI. so will be good to find out how the IVF ones faired. i had 11 eggs collected (massive haul for me, highest previously was 6), 5 out of 5 fertalised with ICSI, and 2 out of 6 fertalised with IVF. so i guess it may be a sperm & egg issue for me? who knows.
hope you have all had a lovely day. thanks again for making me feel welcome, hope this post hasn't been too long. i will try and keep it short & sweet next time...!
Hi girls, thanks for your thoughts,
the transfer was a saga ( the long essay about it is in the llttc/assisted conception thread) but to sum up it was postponed twice involving a lot of waiting and full and empty bladders, transfer went well of a 3 or 4 cell day 2 embie, probably no frostys unless one makes it to day 5, the other was chromosomally abnormal. And I am very depressed. Appreciate any positive thoughts as I can't find any from within xx
( so suinbeam you may have been right, the transfer was at 3.20 vic time!)
saffy, sorry to hear the transfer was less than comfortable for you. i can sympathise - at my last transfer the FS on duty (it was a weekend), went through 3 different sized/shaped speculums before he found one that 'fit'. it was embarrassing, not to mention uncomfortable. he even tried a children's one... like having 1 put in there is not humiliating and awkward enough! as for the positive thoughts - i will not say it just takes one, but the second time i got pregnant i was in a less than positive mindframe. i had just had my first miscarriage the month before and had no hope for the FET at all. no symptoms during the TWW either, and that FET resulted in a pregnancy. unfortunately lost at 7 weeks, but a pregnancy. so i guess if you are feeling negative, dont worry about it. you feel what you feel. and to be honest i believe feeling negative or positive does not affect the result in any way. yes, we would all love to be positive and happy with each cycle/FET - but thats just not realistic.
Saffy - I'm glad you are PUPO but so sorry it was such a stressful and difficult day As for the being positive thing I'm with Andie, I've been positive and negative and totally apathetic and none of it makes any difference, but yes probably my most negative cycle ever I did conceive. Hoping and praying your other little embie does well too. Huge hugs
- Saffy you must be exhausted, physically and emotionally! I'm so sad to hear you're depressed I think Andie and Sunbeam are right tho, our little embies couldn't care less if we're feeling positive or negative, joyful or depressed, they just do their thing or they don't either way!
-Minnie, you are so right! I'm sure I'll panic when they mention chicken pox and sound like an idiot! I will pledge to keep it simple! Any sign of AF?
-Andie, that's 3 of us with appointments on Tues and Wed next week (you're lucky you dodged Valentine's day ). I really hope this one leaves you feeling positive, you've been through so much! You'll have to go on the list somewhere, will work something out!
-Sunbeam - sick of juice yet? Ha ha. I think the universe is helping me on my health kick - I went to the tav at work with a friend today and was thinking f*** it, I'm having a beer, but the beer taps all had a "mechanical failure". Then I arrived home and my partner's sister had brought over her x-trainer for me to borrow. It's right in front of the tv so I have to use it
- Joeve - any OPK action yet?
- Tasha - 5 days til appointment Are you still using OPKs or have you thrown in the towel?
Saffy happy PUPO sorry you aren't feeling it x
Sunbeam maybe its like the dish and spoon my egg and your lining..."and the dish ran away with the spoon!
Mich I couldn't be bothered with the opks today...i just went nahhhh yesterday had nothing of a second line...i feel nothing except hot from the clomid!!!
Hope your stay is short and sweet!
I think Andie and Sunbeam are right tho, our little embies couldn't care less if we're feeling positive or negative, joyful or depressed, they just do their thing or they don't either way! 
I'm sure I'll panic when they mention chicken pox and sound like an idiot! I will pledge to keep it simple! 
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