LT TTC after Miscarriage and Loss #2

Hi Ladies

Saffy - The sniffing is easy. I haven't had any leakage so to speak lol. But sneezing is abit tricky. If you sneeze within 5 mins you have to do it all over again. Lucky I haven't sneezed as yet.

hi all , ferrals-did they ring?..porshe-i found sniffing at the exact time a challenge,& towards the end of the sniffing regime my nostrils started to get a bit sore,all for a good cause though..

:lol:Hello Ladies

Ferrals so sorry you are still awaiting your egg pick up seems that lead folly wants all the attention I wonder if you were trying naturally this month if that would be your lucky egg ? just a thought as it seems so determined. good luck on your next scan hope the results are what you want and you get your 1/2 doz basket full.
Sunbeam I am with ferrals when the bub is happy and settled in nothing will move it not even a dildo cam, remember what I said about being sick for me anyway the more sick I felt and tired too then I had a good pregnancy so try not to worry, I think most of us on here are not going to be upset with any updates you can give us as we all know how hard you have tried and how many losses you have been through so I think you can tell us how your doing !
Alice I know your EDD is approaching and its a real hard few weeks but with me I found the lead upto it worse than the actual day, I for one found peace on the day and was able to draw a line in the sand and say well thats it I will always remember what should have been but its now time to move onto my next bub ! and for me the actual date once passed was a bit comforting in a way a bit like out with the old and on with the new so to speak IYKWIM
I have many dates I still remember but gradually the pain does ease a little ! hope that helps
mildez so glad your back and looking forward to your ivf journey but even these journeys seem to have additional worries so I guesss I would have mixed feelings about going on one of those journeys !!!!

Well afm bdancing has begun so every few days and I have the added bonus of kids being on holidays so can rest up in bed a bit longer in the mornings atm so hopefully my relaxed not really botherd aproach will bring me some good news ! if not well on to August and try try again !

Mathewsmum-havn't heard anything so it must be ok.

Crafty-thanks i am having my u/s at 8am so will be home by 11am and i will let you know how i go.

AFM- off to work wish me luck for tomorrow.

Hi lovelies,

Ferrals - Super huge good luck for tomorrow, come on Ferral's follies :cheer: get a move on.

Crafty - Thank you for the support. I am feeling better about the dildo cam now (though I will be telling mum it was just an abdo one to keep her calm). Tiredness and nausea still going strong. I managed to not throw up this morning as I had a muesli bar and ms tablet before I got out of bed. Not sure how I would have managed it if I'd had to as I could not lean forward and my back would have killed. Glad you are having a nice relaxed bd time :D

Alice - I found the same as Crafty the lead up to my EDD was much worse than the actual day somehow. I had far more tears the day before. We are here for you babe. :grouphug:

All those doing IVF wishing you truck loads of luck and babydust :goodluck::pink-babydust::bluedust:

AFM - Well my back is getting better slowly, I no longer have to crawl from the bed to the bathroom! Managed to have a bath just before, doesn't sound so hard but it was. I have work to do but no motivation at all, I feel like I haven't worked in weeks. Feels like I've been in bed for days, I'm really feeling sorry for women who get put on bed rest, so boring.

Hi ladies,

Not sure whether I really qualify yet but had my 7 wk ultrasound today, and FS said it was too small and the heartbeat was too weak. He said it would stop beating over the next week. Not sure where else to turn. I have been a waterworks all afternoon. just can't seem to understand or know how to deal with this ...

Hoping you girls can help.

mum-2 -be ,-welcome to the thread,sorry for your previous loss,hope this little one proves fs wrong,do you need to go for another scan next week?i've found bb very supportive since my loss,it was one of the things that helped me get out of bed in the early days & i was just reading.Take it one day at a time,sometimes you need to take it one hour at a time,what your going through isn't fair,let the tears flow,it's what your body needs to do now.Be kind to yourself & hope you've got lots of people surrounding you with love & support.Take what you can from them

Hey ladies,

Mum-2-be I'm so sorry to hear about your scan. I completely understand how desperate and helpless you must be feeling. There's nothing that I (or anyone) can say to take away that awful feeling, but, for me, it helps just knowing that there are other people who really do understand. Let it out

Just a quick one from me because I'm so so tired and nauseas(sp?) thanks to my (still rising) hcg - getting all the annoying pg symptoms without the bonus of a baby. Had a bt today and hcg was over 600 - they assured me, once again, that the chances of there being an embryo in there were still less than 5% though. I've started asking myself over the last few days at what point I will draw a line and call it quits. Does anyone else ever get to the point where they just can't deal with trying to cope anymore?

Ferrals - good luck for tomorrow - hope those follies surprise you!

Hi Lovely ladies,

Kayee- I can't believe you are still in limbo, thats shocking. I guess you just have to hang in there, its so hard though isn't it? I always feel like i am at the end of my rope, esp everytime AF comes, and I haven't been through half of what other people have, so I suppose humans are designed to manage whatever we get thrown at us, I hope you get a resolution (either way) soon so you can move on xxx

mum-2-be-so sorry to hear abut your scan, it is such a shock to be told that :hug: to you and be kind to yourself through this. Like matthews mum says, it does help to be speaking to people who have unfortunately been through the same thing, I have only been posting for a few months but was reading for almost a year before. xxx

Matthews mum-good luck w BT tomorrow xx

Ferals-did you get your results?

Sunbeam- hope the back is geting better, is it a new problem or an ongoing one?

Crafty-:bd: your little heart out!

mildez, alice , porsche, thopes, -hi guys, how are you?

AFM- started spotting yesterday, so expecting the witch in a few days time- BOO HOO! So disappointed but have to get on with it, feeling teary and have to go out for dinner with friends on Sat night, I am paranoid that the girl organising it is going to announce she is UTD, I will be on edge all night and already dreading it.
xxxx

Hello Everyone
I think I have caught up with you all.

Mum-2-be & Kaybe So sorry you are both going through this. Hope that little % works in your favour.

Ferals FX for your scan and hope your follices have grown. I hope it all goes well today and you get your EPU on Friday.

Saffy I know exactly how you feel. When I got my AF a couple of weeks ago I was really teary and depressed. I had to cancel going to visit a friend's newborn.

Sunbeam I'm glad you're feeling well and don't think about leaving. I used to look up my due date if I got UTD but I don't even bother now. Just focus on one hurdle at a time and we will be here to see you through into the pg thread.

Matt's Mum Best of luck with the BT's for your FET. Very likely I will be following you next month and would love to hear about your experience with it.

Mildez Have you had your aptmnt yet? Hope it went well. I had pain on the left side and I've been a bit scared that the endo is growing back. It's frustrating that we worry about our bodies so much when TTC.

Porche Good luck with this cycle and hope you don't have to sniff for too long. I remember it started giving me a headache.

THopes So sorry AF has come along late, she can be really cruel.

Crafty Happy B'ding, hope you catch the egg.

AFM I'm due to O Thurs/Fri so have been bding. I've decided this is the last month of trying naturally and if AF comes along I'll organise the FET for August. I have the tablets I was meant to start in Jan. Hopefully it will work this month like it did in December. That was our break month before trying a FET and we got a nice surprise. I've started looking into acupunture for this FET cycle too. I've read that it helps a lot of people get UTD. Has anyone tried it?

Bye for now
Happy thoughts and wishes to everyone.
:grouphug: HappyBaby

Morning ladies,

Sunbeam-glad you are feeling good about the u/s and hope your back settles down real quick.

Mum2be-sorry you have found your way here i hope the doctors are wrong and it all turns out for the best but if not we are all here for you.

kaybee-what a nightmare to be pregnant but not and just waiting and waiting so you cant greive and move on or celebrate the impending arrival it must be very hard i hope that like mum2be the doctors are wrong and the little bub was just sneaky and taking to long to show up.

AFM-Got my BT results from monday E2 was 7500 so really good and todays u/s showed 23 follices 13 of which are dominate and of those they said 6 are ready now for EPU and 2 more might be ready by friday so they extra dose has done the trick.
The nurse said they will try for the 8 eggs but it will more likely be 5 or 6 so i am happy with that EPU is scheduled for 8am friday morning so i have to take my trigger at 8pm tonight my E2 will be getting up there but it is much better than last cycle so no concerns there.
So thank F#CK i have made it this far and that was the easy part:o

hello everyone! Sorry I have been only popping in - had a busy week and a bit but things are a bit quieter now. Bit worried about Dory from the other thread - she went for a check up at her Ob on Monday because she had some fluid leaking and no news yet. I'm hoping she's resting up in bed and will post soon. Back soon with a catch up post x

:confetti: Ferrals!! That's terrific news - thank f*&k!!! So pleased the extra dose did the trick and you'll get six or more on Friday. I hope the fact that the first half has been so stressful that the TWW goes super fast with a BIG FAT POSITIVE for you at the end:clap::crossfingers::goodluck:

Oh Kaybee :( that's so tough - I'm so sorry you are going through this awful time. I'm hoping that you're one of those lucky 3-5%ers...I hope we can help you through this awful time :hug: Don't give up yet - a friend of mine always had very slow rising hcg and in fact my SIL was the same and she has a healthy bub so fingers crossed. We're here for you no matter what - keep posting as often as you need to x

T-hopes - I hope this is the last Day 1 you'll see in a good long while - fingers crossed for you x Vitex is meant to be very good, so hope it does the trick, along with a tonic for the little guys :)

Porsche - hoping the sniffing is going OK! How hard must it be not to sneeze when you are spraying things up your nose! Hope you'll be past this stage soon

Saffy - boo to AF!! Damn witch, why can't she leave us alone? I'm so sorry lovely and maybe you don't need to go to the dinner on Saturday night - maybe tell them you are sick? I used to make myself do things like that all the time because I didn't want to be a 'bad person' (which is how I phrased it to myself) but after some counseling and more time, I just decided that it's OK to feel like that and it is about protecting yourself from hurt. You can be happy for your girlfriend when the time is right for you, so don't beat yourself up if you don't feel like going. Maybe stay home and watch a DVD and have some treats (mmm chocolate..). You can always have lunch with her another time xx

MatthewsMum - thanks and I hope you're bt today gives you the all clear for a new cycle to start. I hope they found the vein quickly!

Sunbeam - is your back any better? Hope you're getting lots of rest. When is your scan?

Crafty - thanks for your kind words about my EDD. I think I'm dreading it passing because it takes me further away from that special time and the more time that passes, the harder it is to remember what it all felt like IYKWIM? Anyway, life goes on and hopefully more good things will come our way. It will be my in-laws 50th wedding anniversary that weekend so at least there will be a distraction of sorts.

mum-2-be - I'm so sorry you had to hear that at your us this week...it's crushing news and I hope we can help you through the pain of that journey. Sadly, we all understand what it is to loose a baby and all the dreams that come with them. :hug: take care, let yourself grieve and know that it will take time to start to heal. xx

HappyBaby - hope this is another lucky month for you - I've been doing acupuncture and have had it with IVF cycles in the past and if nothing else, it is very relaxing so definitely worth a shot if you are interested and I've read lots that says it is very beneficial (I'll be doing it too this cycle).

Well I think that is everyone....no, hang on Mildez - how are you? Sevie? - haven't heard from you in the last few pages - hope all is well x Mildez, weren't you having an appointment? How did it go??

AFM, well FINALLY I have some good news!! My chart is an absolute beauty this month - she is very pleased with how quickly I've improved and it is amazing - I've never had a chart like this before - nice and steady on all phases, a good sharp rise and now my temp 20 dpo is 36.9 so that's great! So...I will do one more month to make sure it all stays good then onto IVF mid August! Trying not to get super excited - just because I've done all of this doesn't mean it will work but she reckons it will improve my chances by 80%, and given that they are around 8-15%, I need all the help I can get! DH still shows no signs of smoking - I'm gobsmacked to be honest 'cause I can't smell it on him and he seems to have gone cold-Turkey with no obvious mood swings. I can't help being suspicious - but am also proud of him and so relieved - I worry so much for his future health already that this just feels like a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, never mind how it might affect a pg. On the sperm front, DH's results, along with me having the one ovary opposite a stuck down and blocked tube mean that we can never fall pg naturally so I think that really hit DH - he 's always had this optimism that we'll be right and now he has to face the facts that it's IVF or nothing and that's a lot of money to blow when you can make some simple changes to improve your chances. Only took 9 1/2 years to get that message through! Anyway, onwards and upwards x

Hi ladies,

Ferrals - Whoo for Ferrals follies :cheer: that is awesome news I knew they could do it. Hoping and praying you get heaps of lovely fat healthy eggies on friday. Your EPU is about the same time as my scan. I don't understand why they trigger you if they are going to go in and get the eggs?

Mum-to-be - I'm so sorry for what you are going through. We can all sympathise. I really hope your little bub proves them wrong and picks up. Either way we are here for you. :comfort:

Kaybee - I was in your position back in feb. Slow Hcg and nothing on the scan. I googled heaps and did find evidence that some bub's hcg is just very slow to start with and also one lady whose bub did not show on a scan till 9weeks. I know the waiting is horrible, my heart goes out to you.

Saffy - sorry nasty old AF is coming to visit, it sucks. I'm with Alice, this journey is hard and we have to do whatever we can to keep our strength and protect ourselves if you are not up to it don't go and don't feel bad. My back prob is an ongoing issue and basically my core muscles get weak if I'm not walking regularly and then anything little can make it go. Of course I have not felt like walking recently and that with the hormones relaxing my muscles just made it go.

Happybaby - I really hope you catch this months eggie and don't have to go back to IVF good luck babe.:goodluck:

Alice - that is awesome news about your chart, so glad it has sorted out quickly for you. Good on DH for quitting cold turkey. My dad smoked 60 a day till I was 6 weeks old then quit and has never smoked since, he recons cold turkey's the only way to do it. It must be a great relief for you.

AFM - I can get about the house now but still can't bend and getting onto the loo is tricky (sorry TMI). I'm going to try and drive this arvo just to get out the house for a while as I have cabin fever. At least I'm getting heaps of rest. Only 2 more sleeps till my scan, I'm trying hard not to think about it because I'm terrified it will be bad news and I keep thinking how this is my last chance because if I loose this one I won't be trying again.

Sunbeam-your body naturally releases the LH surge just before ovulation so when you are on an ivf cycle the orgalutran supresses that LH surge so when you have the trigger injection it gives you that surge so the eggs go through the last stage of maturing ready for collection and it also means it is timed right so they don't ovulate to early and are missed be the doctor because it take roughly 36-38 hrs after that surge for the eggs to be ovulated.
Try not to worry about your scan you have some m/s so that is a good sign you will do fine.

Alice- you just reminded me, I had read that about Dory yesterday too, and was feeling worried for her, hopefully everything will be ok, she has been through a lot. I know she has a cervical stitch in so they will be montoring her closely I guess. Its dificult in cyberland because we rely on people posting in here for news, fingers crossed for her.
Good news on your chart too! Funny how things like that make you feel so good!! August here we come xxx
I'm not so panicked about the dinner now, I just bumped into a girl down the street who is going too and ended up telling her about my future ivf plans (she did IVF for about 10yrs and now has a little baby) and she was very supportive and I think will watch out for me on the night. Also I have no real evidence that this other friend is UTD, just a hunch I guess, probably overreacting!!!

Oh I just checked and Dory is fine, PHEW x