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    Saffy - we are seeing Dr Haider Najjer. REally happy with him, he is very proactive, thorough and compassionate! Highly recommend him. No havent seen that movie?? Is it out at the movies atm?? PS I LOVE green tea! Used to hate it but have been drinking it for about 18mths and really enjoy! Mandura is the nicest brand!!

    Porsche - oh its all happening atm for you!!! Good luck for your u/s!! Keep us posted!!



    I have been a little worried about IUI just in case I grow too many follicles and they cancel the cycle (as they cancel if i have more than 3 follicles) but my doc told me last night that if that happens, and we do have more than 3 follicles, we can switch straight to IVF and they will up my puregon and try to get even more follicles! Does that make sense?? Anyway hopefully we have nothing to lose!

    Ferrals - we miss you too!! We'll get there soon!!
    Night everyone!!

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    Thanks for asking about me. What a week its been. My cycle has been cancelled but its all good. At the last minute I was changed from the long cycle to the antagonist which threw a spanner in the works then my BTs showed some HCG higher then not pregnant but not enough to confirm I was pregnant so thats why it was cancelled. I asked them to do it as a POAS was faint but 3 tests showed the faintest of all faint lines when the light was on and it was held up at a certain angle. It wasn't even 10 but higher then the 5. Now DH thinks we can do it on our own. So I am waiting for more BTs and I run out of HPTs and promised DH I wouldn't buy anymore (after using 20 of them lol literally no lie) I flew into a panick to begin with and wrote a post then deleted it as it was so mumbo jumbo. I wanted a definate answer but still no. Need to have more BTs today and wont get the results til next week (as patholiogy shuts for the weekend) So waiting waiting. Just hope its either really high or none at all as if its lower then it should be we are having methotrexate and the IVF clinic said they don't like to start an IVF cycle until 6 maybe 12months post methotrexate. Thats just my luck that will happen. They were fabulous however and went on about my age and how 1yr really is nothing. Really helped me put everything into perspective so that helped surprisingly. Its so true for me and I just need to get over this time limit I have put on myself as really we potentially have about 15years left give or take a few years. As a middy I should know that shouldn't I?

    Porsche I have everything crossed for you that you get some lovely mature eggs at EPU that divide, divide and grow and become your little babies.

    Ferrals when do you have a scan to have a head count?

    Alice I have absolutely everything crossed that this new cycle coming brings you your forever baby.

    My stupid computer wont let me go back so sorry for the lack of personals. I was trying to keep to myself until I had a definate answer as to if its a yes, a no or a disaster. I am so tempted to go buy a POAS. I have an appointment with my specialist next week so I guess I'll have more news then.

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    Hi Ladies

    T-Hopes - Yes it seems to be moving along now. Not quite quick enough for me though lol. I hate that our FS want to cancell us all the time. I've spent the whole week expecting to be cancelled because that's what FS was expecting grrr.

    Mildez - I really hope it is a true + for you and it's a really icky sticky one! I can understand yur hesitation in replying. But we are here when you need us .

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    Hi Ladies

    Mildez FX be patient my dear and try to relax time will tell if its a genuine BFP then we can all dance and shout with you !!!!

    Porsche nearly there don't think the worst all the time have some faith beleive in yourself and your body you can do it just needs some fine tuning to get the good eggies !!! FX all goes well for you,

    T-hopes glad your evening was informative I remember going to one many years ago before my IUI with donor journey began and it made us feel so much more positive and look what we got as
    bonus a whole house full !! lol so you never know what will happen in the future !!

    Ferrals as always your in my thoughts and prayers and I hope to join you soon ( I only want the one though but DH is a TWIN and so is my DAD

    Well this may be my last day to be able to talk to you ladies as I will be moving over the weekend and its gonna be around 2 wks before we get the internet sorted don't know why it takes them so long to flick a few switches anyway what am I gonna do in the TWW with no belly belly OMG how will I get through !!!

    Anyhow keep well and I know I am going to miss out on so much exciting news but know that I am thinking of you all and will be back ASAP !!!

    Bye for now !

    FX I get a BFP to come back with !!!

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    Good luck with the move Crafty, we're going to miss you! Yes, come back with your BFP so we can celebrate x
    Porsche, I can't see why they would cancel now - you've got minimum 6 so that's really good. Good luck for tomorrow's scan.
    Mildez!!! Well, wouldn't you know it - as soon as the IVF train gets rolling. I hope this is a true BFP for you, that would be wonderful news. I hope you don't have to go down the path of methotrexate. Glad it has helped put things in perspective for you though - it's not surprising that you loose that a bit being around newborns every day, that makes sense to me. Fingers crossed for you - keep in touch x
    T-hopes, have a pic of you running after that woman and her boots! Very funny. That's great that you have the option for IVF if you get too many follies - it's always good to have a back-up plan. I hope you don't need it and that this IUI does the trick.
    Ferrals, miss you too! Only a week to go until your next scan!
    Sunbeam, thinking of you lovely, every day. I hope you are taking good care of yourself.
    Saffy, how are you?
    HappyBaby, are you still with us? Who are we missing? Feels like someone is missing...

    AFM well decided to brace myself against the cold and go for a good long brisk walk yesterday..and woke up this morning with a head full of snot (sorry) and glands all swollen in my throat. It could have been from seeing my god children on Tuesday night - they were coughing so maybe it's just taken a few days to hit home. I hope I can fight it off - been doing well this winter so far compared to most. Obviously helps to not be working and being able to rest as much as I need. Feeling very teary today - my little angel would be born in a few weeks if all had gone well. We're going to be away on the weekend before (EDD is 30 August) for my in-laws 50th wedding anniversary. Feel a bit dejected but have to go. For some reason feel like we should cancel this cycle maybe I'm just too scared to face the possibility that it is all over for us. Sorry for being down in the dumps, I appreciate all your positive thoughts and encouragement. Will try to keep my chin up. You're a wonderful bunch in here and I'm so glad we have this thread. Have a good weekend everyone xx

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    Hi Alice well been packing and packing again all morning boy I am so fed up of this now ! I was really brave and opened up all my baby boxs ( stuff I can't throw out incase of a BFP ) well I went through it all and
    managed to throw out a whole black bag full of stuff thats not that nice ! milk stains can be seen anyhow It was surprisingly easy really for me I have avoided it so long for fear of the old tears coming back with avengance ! so I gave myself a pat on the back for being so brave its gonna be my Mc anniversary in a months time sept 3rd so I feel I have now turned a corner and managed to grieve enough with the help of all you lovely ladies on here I can now move forward and pray I get my BFP real soon along with all of you !
    Well thats my lunch break over with best get back to packing ( will it ever end )

    Alice I just wanted to say that the lead upto your EDD is far worse than the actual day beleive me you get some kind of closure on the actual day a bit like well crossing the line and saying well thats that onwards and upwards and never give up hope !!!!

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    THopes-I know him! He used to work at the last hospital I was at in Melbourne before I moved, he's very nice, I didn't remember he did IVF so I am glad you have a nice doc.

    Mildez- wow what a week you have had, I really hope you don't have to have methotrexate! Even if you do as they said, time is definately on your side, I am glad something is happening for you anyway, since my miscarriage I have never even got a hint of a bfp, so you still can do it naturally if you had to wait ( do they let you try natuerally after methotrexate or do you need to use contraception?) Good luck with BT next week, how annoying having to wait all weekend, any symptoms??

    Alice- I am good, just a bit boring, still waiting another week to start sniffing, I don't want to wish my life away ( god knows the years go quick enough) but Iam SO impatient to get started, once I start the hormones and turn feral I will be taking back that statement no doubt. Was just getting my nails done and reading a trashy mag and there was a story about an actress from hey dad who did ivf saying how she would lie on the couch all day sobbing, then get anxious then irritable then angry.....oh dear wish I hadn't read it really. Anyway, the good news is she is 41 and she had a baby in the end, so take heart in that, it is going to happen for you xx
    P.S. I was overseas on my EDD last year, I chose to not really acknowledge it and to tell the truth can't even remember where I was that day, I hope you have get through it OK, don't cancel your cycle, I need you to hold my hand through it as I am a naive IVF virgin!

    Crafty- good luck with packing, i don't envy you at all poor love, should take your mind off the TWW tho!!!

    Hi Porsche- try and think positive! You will be fantastic!

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    Mildez-wouldnt it be wonderful if it is a positive and the BT was just early so the level was low and for a hpt to show a line then something is going on in there i cant wait to find out your results.
    My scan for head count is thursday i am leaning towards one in there but sometimes when my boobs are excruciating and i am running to the loo to dribble every 20 minutes it makes me wonder if there is more than one.

    porsche-i was looking like i was going to get cancelled but it turned out in the end.

    Crafty-good luck with the move and we will catch up in 2 weeks.

    Alice- sorry to hear you are not well rest up and take it easy and it is ok to be teary about what should have been and please dont give up you deserve to have your dream come true.

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    Thanks for the support ladies. Warning this is a me me post coming up. I just can't stop crying and I am so over it. It feels like such a tease to get a BFP and then no its going to fail. What is wrong with me? So I got a call this morning to say HCG 2days ago was 80. So I couldn't resist and just got a FR and again a faint line. By now the HCG should be 250 plus they told me. My last pregnancy 12months ago my line was more convincing when the HCG was 71 so clearly its not a viable pregnancy and most likely another ectopic.I know people say don't compare lines but really after 3 pregnancies that have failed and the lines have done the exact same I do believe what it is telling me. I am so pee'd of my body just can't do it. I can't even see why IVF would be any different. I mean clearly something is going on for my body to kill the last 4 pregnancies. Its been 12months since I get the hint of a pregnancy only for it to appear to not continue. Will it be another 12months before the next hint or will my last tube be removed so then there is no chance? I have absolutely no symptoms I am pregnant except the +HPT And then if I wanted to do IVF all I can think of is why would it be any different. And now I have to wait until Wednesday to get more results. And they tell me its a tubal problem. I can't help but think its more then that and they just wont investigate further. I just wish I could give up wanting another baby but I can't get rid of those feelings. So sad right now. Why did it have to happen at all if it couldn't stay around? It seems to have stuffed up all our plans with the IVF, put them on a hold and make me doubt my body even more. And DH doesn't know yet as he is away and he is going to flip that I even tested again when I told him I wouldn't. Boo hoo.

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    Hi Ladies

    Mildez - I'm so sorry it doesn't seem to be working for you.

    AFm had our scan this morning and great news 12 follies looks to be 6 in each YAY! So EPU is definate for Tuesday.

    ET is looking like Friday the 13th ooohhhhhh Black Friday. I hope that's not a bad omen.

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    Mildez- sorry you are having such a hard time, its must be so frustrating xxxx

    Porsche- good for you, I'm so glad your fears were unfounded, go fri 13th!

    Hi everyone else, Sunbeam hope you are holding up ok xxx

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    Hello lovelies,

    Mildez - I am so sorry to hear you are where you are right now and I can totally sympathise. I feel the same way, why let us get pg only to take it away again? I also feel IVF will make no difference if it is my body that is rejecting my babies. I have decided that whether my FS believes in NK cells or not I am not going to even try IVF unless he agrees to medicate me for it and also any other conditions whether I've tested positive for them or not. I'm not prepared to just do the same old thing again and just hope for a different result. If he won't do it I will find someone that will. Wish I could pop over for a coffee and give you a big hug.

    Got to do something with mum now back later.

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    I am so up and down I do not know how I am going to manage back at work on tuesday. It has been good having mum here but like I said she is not good with tears so I have just tried to hide it when I have felt down or gone to bed for a while to cry. We went to the shops for a little while this morning and just seeing baby clothes on the rack made me so upset, I just wanted to burst into tears there and then. My housemate is away till thursady and I am missing her so much because I know she would just hold me and let me cry.

    I have decided to go and see the counsellor at the clinic next week because I need to know how to cope with the various possibilities that are just around the corner, the worst of which would be no baby of my own, ever.

    My bt on thursday still showed HCG so they want to do another one next week. I've had no bleeding and only the slightest brown when I wipe, it was all over so fast it sometimes feels like I imagined the whole pg, but then the emptiness hits and I know it was real.

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    Mildez, if it is a tubal problem there IS something you can do. At SIVF the doctors put you on anti-biotics to reduce any possible infection that might be present in the tube that can effect implantation. Also, in the US, it is common for doctors to remove the blocked tube to increase success with IVF. So don't despair - you don't have to have the tube removed, you can try antibiotics with your IVF cycle and if it does have to be removed you will be increasing your chances of success (as I understand it). I'm sorry you are going through this again, and I'm sorry you are feeling so sad but don't give up - there are options left to explore especially as this has recurred. to you x

    Porsche, great news re your scan! 12 follies!! Good luck for Tuesday and don't be worried re Friday 13th - everything will be fine xx

    Sunbeam, I'm so sorry, I wish I could help. I know that exact feeling of it being over so fast it feels like you imagined the whole thing (you didn't lovely, it was real and it is a real loss and you need to grieve) and the fear of never having a bub of your own. The fact you can fall pg is really positive (even though I know it feels like it's pointless if you are only going to loose them) and like I've said to Mildez, I think IVF can only increase your chances and I agree with you to do what you can to get the treatment you need to know you have covered every possibility. I hope your FS is supportive. hope the counselling helps and good luck for Tuesday x

    Sorry to rush = will be back later for more persies

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    Thank you much ladies. I am so sorry to vent the way I did. I was in such a terrible way yesterday. Last night I started to get really bad pain. I hardly slept and just lay there thinking I was going to have to phone an ambulance. I was convinced I was having a ruptured ectopic. Anyway I saw my GP this morning who transferred me to the ED where I spent a few hrs having IV fluids and a scan and blood tests. Apparently my HCG has risen well although they can't rule out ectopic but also said there was still a chance its a progressing pregnancy. The most concerning thing is I have free fluid floating around my ovaries. Right is much worse then the left although the left side is the one I ovulated from and have the tube for. Apparently to a degree its normal but I have more then normal. The said it can be suggestive of a ruptured ectopic but seeing as I would only be 4weeks pregnant it would be virtually impossible to have a pregnancy that early rupture the tube. I have another scan in 10days as it is to early to see where the pregnancy is but at this stage it is growing. They didn't tell me the HCG so I don't know what it is but they said it has more then doubled in 3days. Only thing is they tested it at a different lab. Hopefully that wont make a big difference to the accuracy. So I am still waiting for answers. Trying to be positive but not set myself up for disappointment. Pain is getting worse at the moment. I want a hot bath and some analgesia but scared to do either. The Dr I saw was so lovely so that really helped. I also experienced my first missed cannular. Gee doesn't that hurt? I foolishly said I have good veins so I think they sent someone inexperienced in. He did get it on the 2nd go but I am now nursing two brusied wrists.

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    Mildez, just wondering about that fluid...was it you that had the right side pain recently? If so, perhaps you had an ovarian cyst that burst - it would explain the extra fluid and would fit with where you have the pain now too. Gosh this must be so difficult that you can't just get a clear answer yet. I'm hoping it is a normal pregnancy (not in your tube) and that it is progressing steadily and you get some good news soon. If you need to take pain killers, it is safe to have paracetemol I believe and you could try a heat bag instead of a bath (as the heat bag isn't too hot, that should be OK - maybe just heat it a little less that usual). Hoping you can rest up - sorry about your bruised wrists Take care xx

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    Hi Ladies,

    Hope all the people who have been having a hard time feel a bit better this week....

    Mildez- sounds like a god awful nightmare what you have been through, there is a ray of hope though that your numbers are great and it may just be early days I agree with alice, definately have some panadol, it doesn't go through and its too early anyway even if i did, hot pack is a good suggestion too. Please don't apologise for venting we are here for that, god knows you had more than enough reason!!

    Sunbeam- you poor thing, its hard with mums because you probably feel like you want to protect her from your tears, hope your flatmate comes home v soon. But definately go to the counsellor, you need someone who can just let you let it out and give you some strategies. It must be difficult to go back to work, I hope it is ok

    Porsche- best of luck for tomorrow, you must be so excited xxx

    ALice- Hi , i know I ask you this every day but when do you start the BCP?

    Howdy to Ferals, Matthewsmum, Crafty, THopes and anyone else??

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    Thanks for the suggestion Alice. Maybe thats what has caused the fluid. They did say it could have come from the opposite side as it does tend to move from side to side. If a cyst had ruptured they wouldn't be ablt to see it now could they? I guess I'll find out more tomorrow.

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