LT TTC after Miscarriage or Loss #4

Alice-:rofl: about you looking for the birth announcements, too funny.

Now get on the couch and DON'T GET OFF!!! make your DH get you cups of tea etc

Sunbeam!!! What a fab result!!!!!!!!!! Yay for you lovey!!!! And yes - Go Titans!!

oh saffy - im sorry, didnt mean to bully you into testing :cry: i feel so awful - sorry love :(

Reet - thank you so much for stopping by and telling me that!! i appreciate it so much, i feel so much better now you have said that! i was getting so down and negative about it! Hope your well love and great to hear from you xx

alice, Sunbeam - thanks guys!!! YOur so ace!!

anyway im off to bed, gotta a big grand final day tomorrow and need a good snooze! :asleep: xx

thopes- I was only joking!! Sorry to scare u luv, have a great day at the granny xx ps have you poas yet??

Fantastic result Sunbeam. I'm so pleased your eggs are living up to there reputation lol. Woohoo. Sending you and them loads of fertilize and divide, grow vibes.

Alice rest up and we are all sending your follies love vibes.

I have to say I feel completely bummed out! Of the 20 eggs 17 were lovely and mature. The sperm count again was less than 1 million! Of the 17 they injected with sperm only 6 have fertilized! I know 6 is not none but I was really hoping for more and what if these 6 don't do so well. This is all too hard.:crying:

oh Sunbeam :( I'm sorry you feel so let down :( It's so hard when you do everything you can and then things outside your control effect the result like this. I don't want to minimise how you feel by saying six is still great when you feel this way but try to stay positive and see how these ones go. Let's hope these six eggs have met with good strong sperm and are busy dividing and growing into beautiful embies right now. :hug: one day at a time :hug: hang in there xx

Thanks everyone, I'm resting now (just got home from our big trip). Well, I have taken a leaf from Audax's book and given a name to yesterday's meltdown: The Sydney Soup Debacle. The whole reason for the trip was to take down some chicken soup to a friend who is going through a hard time and then leave early so I didn't get caught in traffic coming home. Well I got stuck big time with two accidents - one in Sydney and one in Penrith and all up the trip back took over two hours. I was so exhausted I felt like crying! So getting up this morning was hard and poor DH copped it again. We named that incident the Bedroom Blaspheming Meltdown 'cause when he came in to make the bed I lost it and called him every name under the sun [insert red face here]. Thank God he has a thick skin and loves me 'cause we managed to have a laugh about it on the way to the us/bt (after I'd had a big cry). Good lord, not how you want to start your weekend!

On the up side, my little follies are growing nicely - they are all between 16-13 with EPU probably not until the middle or end of next week. Going by that I'm hoping to have two good eggs to work with and hopefully a beauty to put back. Felt a big buoyed by the result so trying to stay positive.

Sorry for the me post, hope everyone has a great weekend and T-hopes, enjoy the game!

Alice x

hey girlies-

Alice- that trip sounds like something I would do, I would have been hysterical on the way home if I was you, what a disaster, don't do it again please!!! its normal to cry and be grumpy when you are so tired. On a brighter note- good work with your scan result :dance: can't wait to see how many you get!

Sunbeam- sorry about the disappointment but try and stay positive, I'm sure it will work out :hug: when do you get another update?

Damprye- I didn't realise you were still lurking (its addictive isn't it) or I would have said hi to you before. How are things going?

Toomanyshoes- welcome, nice you could join us (IYKWIM). Sorry if this is innappropriate but is there any chance you could go to see the FS by yourself, just to discuss your situation, without having to commit to any treatments etc, then discuss with DH what the Dr says? Seeing a FS doesn't always mean having IVF, and I think I recall from your signature (I can't see it at the moment so sorry if I am wrong) that you have had a few m/c, maybe you could have some testing or something? My DH picked a massive fight once before our FS appt, I was SO annoyed with him, they let their stress out in mysterious ways these guys :doh:

Intheslowlane- sorry AF came for you, what a disappointment. Thanks for your wishes and have a relaxing holiday if possible xx

Hi THopes, Mildez,Porsche, Crafty, Ferals, Matthewsmum, Reet, anyone else :grouphug:

AFM- still no af, but feeling a bit more pre-AFish (sorer nipps, grumpy) and i hate to say it but I think I am getting another cold :wall: couch and tv for me tonight!
Hope everyone is having a good weekend :D

Thanks lovlies. I'm feeling a bit more positive now and just resorting to the 'well it's out of my hands and therefore not worth stressing over' thought. Realistically I will be will be so happy with 2 to transfer and 2 two freeze but trying not to set myself up for more disappointment if that's not what we get. I have decided that if this cycle does not yield a BFP I am still going on my cruise and taking a month off because I am sick of putting my life on hold. I have also decided that if we do another stim cycle I will be seriously considering and discussing using Donor daddy's partner's sperm if it tests better because I really feel donor daddy and I have given it all we can after nearly 3 years of trying and that either way the 3 of us will hopefully still be parents as planned. I am still confused as to how Donor daddy's sperm count has gotten progressively lower and lower despite the increase in supplements!?

Alice- Glad your follies are growing well. Sounds like the IVF roller coaster and hormones are really affecting you poor thing. Good job DH is a big boy and not too fazed by it.

Saffy - I'm glad AF is still not here I hope she is far far away. Sorry you are feeling like you are getting a cold again take it easy babe.

Just think sunbeam the IVF has weeded out all the bad chromosonal ones that you could have had another m/c from so they will grow the six and the strongest will be put back and that one is your best chance.
The older we are the more likely our eggs are not as good quality so 6 is good you only need one look at me excellent eggs 1st ivf all fertilised and last cycle was a mess from the ovarian cyst i had and we had 3 at day 3 but one clear winner and look where i am now so you will do fine.

Alice-not much longer now.

AFM-again more counting down the days until another scan to see if bub is normal or not i just want an answer is that to much to ask healthy or not healthy i need to know.

Know how you feel Sunbeam. Last collection we harvested 24 and ended up with 10. It does seem like alot doesn't it. FS described it as a high number but not a high percentage as really they are only looking to grow a much smaller amount. Hope this helps, it did a bit for me.

Thanks for everyone's thoughts and wishes. Really looking forward to the holiday and finding some inner peace.

hi everyone ,happybaby-so sorry ...sammyp-sorry to read of the hard times your family is having...damprye-hope things get sorted soon..sunbeam-here's hoping youve got 6 strong little embies ...saffy-still sending no af vibes...alice-wishing you all the best for epu..possummagic-how the new job?..best of luck to all the ladies in the tww ...welcome to all the new ladies,hope it is not long before you can move over to the pregnancy threads ,taking us with you...afm-had 2 appointments with an oesteopath ,she feels she can help me,so we're giving that a go at the moment,she has suggested not doing another fet for another 2 cycles but still try naturally while having the treatments with her.Going by some 'o' pain & cm,i'm in the tww..

ferrals-sorry they couldn't tell anything from the cvs,hope the scan goes well..

Sunbeam I am glad you are feeling abit better after the initial disappointment. FX these embies are fantastic and grow beautifully and you have lots of them to transfer.

I just wanted to pop in and let you know Crafty I was fileing at work last night and found a scan report for a lady born in 1963 having a baby. Hope it gives you hope that it happens naturally. It was very unplanned from what I gather.

Egg update.

All 6 are still growing 3 looking really good and 3 so so. The 3 good ones are all nice 4 cells now and of the 3 not so good one is 6 cells which is apparently a bit fast (not sure why that's bad) and 2 are somewhat fragmented.

Come on my embies grow strong.

sunbeam-fingers crossed for your little embies,thanks for the update...

Hi Girls

Sunbeam - sorry to hear you are disappointed and worried withe the number of eggs. Personally I still think it sounds as though it's all going really well.

Saffy - did you end up with that cold or did a night on the couch make it better?

AFM - I am now day 24. We are still BD'ing every second day as I got pregnant around day 23 last time so don't want to miss an opportunity. Last night my uterus just ached for hours on end. It wasn't really like AF cramps, just a dull ongoing ache. Don't quite know what to make of that.

Sunbeam- 3 strong embies is great! I got none! Hope they continue being super embies for you xx

Matthewsmum- nice to hear from you, good luck with your tww!

SammyP- wow you are good to dtd every 2 days for a month- hope it works and that the ache is a little baby getting cosy! I didn't get a full on cold- just have a bad chest but spent the day in the garden in the sun so that always makes you feel better doesn't it, just woken up from my nanna nap and am a bit sunburnt- whoops.