Still lurking here. Thank you very much everybody for your kind words, you made me feel a bit better, so I am not giving up yet...

possum - a tiny speck of blod around O time is normal and can be a good sign. It may be blood released after the egg bursts out of the follicle, so probably a sign that you ovulated. I hope you did your homework girl!

I just wanted to share this little warning with you ladies. Perhaps it is nothing, but better safe than sorry I guess. So I am trying to figure out the cause for my ectopic because I do not have any risk factors, other than age. Around 3-4 days past ovulation I had really bad stomach virus and I took anti-diaharreal medication. Those medications slow down the smooth muscles contractions so your intestines can calm down. But smooth muscles contractions is what moves the fertilized egg from the tube to the uterus, so if you slow them down, I guess the egg goes nowhere. I asked a doctor if it is possible that the medication caused my ectopic, and he said that the theory makes sense, but there is not enough data, so it is impossible to prove. You will make your own decision of course, but if I am ever again in this situation, I think I'd rather spend a week on the toilet than take a risk.

1+2 - I know it is not impossible, my own grandmother had a second child at 44 and I know that she could not have been trying more than just a couple of months (jugding by the time betwein my grandpa's return home from the hitler-stalin inferno and my uncle's birth). I am just not sure if I will be this lucky too. Unlike my grandma, I smoked cigarettes in my 20-ties for a couple of years and now I am thinking I destroyed my own eggs with my own hands. You have no idea how much I regret it.

Saffy - you are my best bet for the cheer-me-up happy story now. With 6 eggs successfully fertilized, I think the odds are pretty good. I will be waiting for good news then.

Alice - how are you doing? I cannot believe you picked up a RAT. They did not want to give you a rabies shot?