Saffy - Posh Spice grrrrrrrrr!. I can't stand hearing about pregnant celebrities now! I used to read the entertainment news on the net but I avoid it now as it just makes me depressed to see photos of them with their lovely big tummies.

This week I would have had the last baby that I lost. The due date was Jan 21st but as I required a CS the OB said he would deliver at 39 weeks. It really seems to be hitting me hard at the moment. I just feel so flat and detached and the slightest inconvenience makes me grumpy and abrupt. NO idea what is going on with my cycle. I think we are still around day 19 but I am having terrible back cramps as though AF is imminent. And I HATE TTC sex. Last night we were supposed to do the deed but DH (who was hot and tired) was so irritable I said don't bother we'll wait until tomorrow. I wish I could get excited about the trip to Bali in March but nothing seems to interest me at the moment.