LT TTC and Assisted Conception Apr-May 2011

I'm sorry Saffy, so hard to gear yourself up for a cycle and then have such a let down. Be good to yourself :hug:

Coral, GL for BT tomorrow.

Teire, only 3 more days.... ;)

Loops, wonderful to hear that you have a new cycle set up to go. Let's hope the taxman is kind in his refund to help with your next cycle. Don't forget that you can claim 20% of your Out of Pocket expenses once you reach a certain threshhold. I am waaaaay over the OOP threshhold this year with my medical so can't do my return fast enough!

AFM - am still trying to weigh up the pros and cons of going through it all again. I feel like I need to get more information re clotting issues but don't know where to turn. FS does not appear to be overly concerned and think that 12 weeks of clexane will assist, but I am worried about what happens after that time. (I think too he is starting to think I am a bit of a freaky stress head!:redface:)
My mum died of a cerebral aneaurism when she was 36. She would have had the same gene defect as me (as I have a double whammy of having a dodgy gene from each parent) and I am terrified that pregnancy will put too much stress on my body. I feel like I need to understand a bit more before I can go on to make a decision as to push forward. Aaaaargh, as if this wasn't hard enough already!!!!!!!
Sorry for tmi, but I am changing my mind about 30 times a day as to what to do and just need to vent a bit:rolleyes:!!

Hi to everyone else :hello:

Saffy ~ NOOO!!!! oh hunny *biggest hugs in the world* That sucks! So disapointing for you. =(. sorry I cant offer anything else to help.

Tantee ~ all I ever hear about OPK is people going what does this mean? is it +ve? I dont think i've actually heard of someone going, POAS and the OPK was deff positive and never questioned. so when i got it on my first one ever thats one of the reasons I questioned it so much, was cause I wasn't expecting it to work! What a big decision you have to make. Take your time. Dont rush either way and go with whatever makes you feel more comfortable. best of luck with it! I don't know much about clotting issues when conceiving etc.. so sorry I dont have more to offer.

Coral ~ Hope your bloods have improved =)

Loops ~ Yea my FS gave me a little graph diagram thing about what the OPK's test and how they work. they test LH levels in your urine, which start to rise and peak the day before you ovulate, and then drop off. so you can get a line at anystage while its rising and droping, but the peak is what gives you the time of ovulation. It's all my hubby's fault that we are doing IVF! but he hasnt gotten to the guilty phase yet...not that I want him to!

Hi Jayejaye Melissa N2L HappyBaby (did I miss anyone?)

AFM ~ I had a little bit of a freak out yesterday. I only realised it was Friday and that the clinic was meant to call me to let me know what time on Monday to be there, at 5.30. by time I found their number and went oh ****! it was too late and they were closed. So I was worried I wouldnt get to t/f on Monday cause I missed the time, (us living 2 hrs away as well doesnt help). Fortuantly I phoned the afterhrs emergency number and she didnt mind even though it probably wasnt an emergency. but said it would happen at 1230. but she would also call me Monday morning to confirm it when she is looking at the actual book in the office, not her on call sheet. So its all good. Soon I will be going crazy in that damn TWW!!

Morning I hope the weekend is going well. I've been awake for ages just going over things in my mind. Not just about ttc as this cycle is just one thing that is going on in my life right now but then maybe it's good to have other things to think/stress about.

I'm scheduled for the transfer on Tuesday. My nurse rang to say all 7 eggs had fertilised. We only ever get 2 embryos that make it to 5/6 days so that's all I'm expecting.

Saffy I'm so sorry to hear about your cycle being cancelled. I've only ever had medicated FET. My FS thought this was a good idea because of my irregular cycles. I hope your DH is back soon.

Tantee You poor thing with so much to worry about. I can understand your reluctance to start ttc while you don't have any answers. I hope you get them soon.

Teirae Good luck for your transfer on Monday and see you in the TWW.

Hi to everyone else. Enjoy the rest of the weekend

xxHB

I am going to be pregnant today!
Our twins are going to be put inside me and I am going to be pregnant!!
They are going to stick so tight and hold on and grow and I will have my babies!!!!
Whoever out of: XT RR JG or OY wants to join us I can't wait to feel you and meet you and get to know you. I love you all so much already and I can't wait to show you!!!


TODAY I AM GOING TO GET PREGNANT!!!

happybaby ~ I hope things have calmed down for you. Hope some things make more sense and your not to stressed *hugs* We are here if you need to talk about anything or vent =) All the best tomorrow and I will see you on the other side =)

Good Luck for today Teirae - I hope your little ones snuggle in tightly.

Teirae - Sending you lots and lots of :pink-babydust: and :stickyvibesboy:!!

GOOD LUCK for today hun, oxxo

happybaby - Great news about all seven of your embryo's fertilising - yay!!! :crossfingers: that you get a nice surprise and have the majority reach blastocyst stage. So exciting... transfer tomorrow! Hope you are feeling a little better about things (life can be so overwhelming at times :hug:).

tantee: Oh tantee... I'm sorry to hear that you are facing such a difficult situation. I don't know anything about clotting issues personally but will mention it to one of my FS nurses next time I'm in to see them - they might know of a good information source I could pass onto you. ART is hard enough to do on it's own without added complexities... I hope you are able to find the information you need soon so you can make a decision that you are comfortable and at peace with :hug:.

Loops - Has DH had an acupuncture yet? I bet he ends up loving it, he, he!

Saffy - So sorry to hear that the BT confirmed missed ovulation :hug:. Like you said... at least you managed to DTD at the right time.... small consolation but it is better than nothing. :pray:'ing for a natural miracle for you!

Hello to all the other lovely ladies (MelissaI, N2L & Jayejaye.. sorry if I missed anyone)

AFM - Had a BT on Saturday (estrogen rose to 313) and another one this morning... I think today's BT will confirm ovulation has occurred as I had pains on Saturday night and noticeable CM (sorry for TMI). Just waiting on the phone call from nurse this arvo to hopefully :pray: book in a transfer date - yay!! Othewise, another BT tomorrow or Wednesday...

Teirae - sending you the stickiest of :stickyvibesboy: for your little twinnies and YAY for today being the day you get preggers!

Saffy - big :hug: to you hun. That sucks. Were you on a natural FET? Hoping you are feeling a bit happier now and your DH is home to give you lots of cuddles.

Happybaby and Coral - woohoo for your transfers being so close. Wow, the 2ww thread is gonna be a busy place soon. Good luck girls :pray:

Tantee - God what a dilemma for you, chick :hug:. I don't know huge amounts about treating clotting disorders in pregnancy but I do know that if this cycle is successful for us, I will be on aspirin until week 34, going by colorado so 12 weeks on Clexane doesn't seem that long. I am guessing you will have seen a dr about your dodgy genes - would they be able to point you in the right direction? Sucks that your FS is so unconcerned about it - I have found the same with mine, she doesn't seem to want to relinquish any control or accept that talking to an expert in that particular field is a good thing and by no means, an admission that she doesn't know the best thing to do. Frustrating. Even if the gene dr can reassure you that you will be safe would be a step in the right direction?

AFM I am having a little seesaw myself, wondering what in hell we are doing going ahead with this cycle. So, my sister and I finally have a diagnosis for our bleeding problem (hypodysfibrinogenaemia), so basically if we do get pregnant, instead of an implantation bleed, we kinda have an implantation mini haemorrhage which makes it very difficult for the poor little embie to attach properly. And it keeps bleeding, meaning a v high rate of miscarriage. My sister is 6 weeks pg now, she has already had one blood transfusion and our haematologist is expecting that she will need another one before too long. Combine bleeding problem with being on aspirin for high ana which MIGHT cause clotting = more bleeding. It sucks. Especially googling it and reading the odd article that crops up because someone has managed a successful pregnancy. This SUCKS. ART is hard enough without this $h!t.
On a brighter note, I had my first jab this morning. While I have been chowing down on plenty of chocolate to make sure there are plenty of nice rolls for the needle to go into, it was real ouchy one. And the piddling little amount of Buserelin hardly seemed worth the ouch factor!!!! Ah well, all for a good cause :)

MelissaI - Oh hun... that is so full on and what a situation to have to deal with :hug:. Life is totally unfair sometimes... like you said, ART is hard enough as it is let alone having to deal with any added complications :shakehead:. Hopefully now that you have a confirmed diagnosis your FS will be able to give you the best chance possible of achieving your BFP :crossfingers:.

Yay, for having started another cycle though (I've said a little :pray: for you in the hope that this will be the lucky one)!!!

Sending lots and lots of ::stickyvibesgirl: :stickyvibesboy: to your sister as well.

Teirae - I hope the transfer went well today (was thinking of you)! :bluedust:

AFM - Got a call from the nurse and she said that my estrogen has risen from 313 to 513 so I am at the early stage of ovulation... I am having mild period like cramps as I am writing this so I am 99.9% certain it is happening right now :)!

Having another BT tomorrow morning so am sure this will confirm and then will be able to book in a transfer (hopefully!).

If ovulation occurs today and I have a blastie to put back does that mean it would be put back on Saturday? Does anyone know how it works?

Coral- you add 5 days after your o day, some blastys are 6 days so then obviously you would add 6 days. If you O'd tomorrow, it would be Sunday for a day 5 blasty, depends whether your clinic does transfers on Sun or not, if they don't they will do it a day earlier. Good luck!!

Melissa- big hugs hun, you must be so frustrated, its so complicated for you, that is so unfair. I hope your jabs go ok, and your FS is able to see you through to a great pregnancy xx

Tei- woohoo, congrats for being PUPO with twins :clap: don't go mad in the tww!

happybaby- sorry to hear you are under stress, it doesn't make IVF any easier thats for sure, but wohoo for transfer, hope all went well, best of luck

hi everyone else- Loops, N2L, tantee, jayejaye, hope all is well xx

afm- feeling ok now, had a big night Sat night to relieve my stress lol, now I think AF is due in a week or so, then starting the next cycle so not too long to wait.

Oh poo. I jus typed a massive reply and lost it!

Teirae - congrats on your transfer and good luck in the TWW.
Coral - if you o'd today, they would transfer on sat, or at least thats what happened with my three FET's at Monash. Good luck!
Happybaby - good luck with your transfer tomorrow - the TWW sure is going to be busy!!
Saffy - glad you let off some steam and feeling better! Best of best of luck for your next cycle.

Hi to everyone else - loops, n2l, melissa, and anyone i have missed.

AFM, had scan today and saw lovely sack with little peanut with beautiful heartbeat, measuring 6w and 3d. This is 3d ahead of what i thought. According to the OPK i o'd on day 17, but according to bloods and scan it was day 14, so i dont have any faith in those things anymore - and i never had a test line that was as dark as the control line so was always second guessing it anyway.

So anyway girls, i will love you and leave you, wish you all joy and happiness and follow with interest your stories to see your dreams come true in the near future. You have been wonderful support in times of need. Love to you all, bless. J.

Hi Ladies
I just typed a whole heap and then lost it all by accidently pressing something on the key board :doh:
So have to do a shorter one

Tei ~ LOVE YOUR ATTITUDE, GL in TWW :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:
HB ~ GL today with your transfer :crossfingers:
Tantee and Mel ~ sorry about your other little issues you have to deal with on top of TTC, I guess it all makes us stronger and there to challenge us. Wishing you both all the best!
Saffy ~ glad you enjoyed your weekend and you can do another cycle so soon, :goodluck:
Coral ~ all the best with your transfer!
JayeJaye ~ how exciting - all the best for the rest of your PG! Thanks for all your support, will miss having you around but will check in how you are going. Much love to you. GL in TWW ladies
AFM ~ O'ing pretty much now - so lots of BD'ing to be done!

Afternoon Ladies :hello:

Loops & jayejaye - Oh, that is so annyoying when that happens :computer: ! PS: Thank u for the good luck vibes!

Loops: Yay, for ovulation and happy BD'ing ;), he, he! I hope :crossfingers: you get another + test this month with a really, really sticky little embie!

jayejaye: Oh jayjaye.. how exciting for you!!! Congrats hun on the scan and what a wonderful day for you :dance:! Good Luck for the rest of the pregnancy and I hope you avoid the dreaded morning sickness!

Saffy: A night out always helps I think... you need time to get away from TTC especially after a disappointment. I hope AF arrives early or on time for you so you can start your next FET as soon as possible :). Thanks for the info on the FET too.

Teirae: Still sending you lots and lots of :pink-babydust:

tantee: I forgot to ask the nurses this morning if they had any resources on clotting issues - sorry :doh:... I will try and remember to ask next time I'm there. Hope you are doing ok.

AFM : Had another BT this morning and surge has been detected so ovulation to occur tomorrow sometime - yay! My FET has been booked in for Monday at 11:20am.... now I just gotta be patient til then, he, he!

Coral ~ thanks heaps hun - hugs! Yay for O'ing for you too - bring on Monday, hope time goes fast!

Thankyou everyone for your wishes =) All went good. Both our little embryos survived being thawed, one was 92% one was 95% which they said was excellent. The doctor then went on to say how perfect my bits were down there (not in a creepy way) but saying my cervix and mainly my mucous was perfect, the most fertile he has ever seen and scored it 10/10. and was even more impressed when i said this was a natural cycle cause he wanted to know what drugs i took to get it like that. all me baby!!! so hopefully these litttle ones are just as perfect (im sure they are) and have lapped up all that perfect fertile mucous and are snug in their warm bed growing away!!

Ive been getting ahead of myself and looking at tickers etc...tyring to stay level headed, but very hard.

We met our puppy last night. I'm worried about taking it cause as of next week i'm going to be working 1 1/2 hrs away for 8 months.. so will be back on days off, but i'm worried about having a new puppy and me being away. DH will be here, (when not at work) and he would be doing a majority of the training etc cause i havent done it before.. but yea making me a little nervous. but he was cute. and I do want a dog. (and a baby!)

Tantee ~ *hugs*

Coral ~ All the best for Monday!! will be thinking about you!

Mel ~ Good to hear you have a diagnosis! I've never heard of it unfortuantly. I hope now you have the dx you can use that and work out ways around it.

Saffy ~ *hugs* how are you going hun? next cycle are you going to use OPK or blood tests? you going to start early so you dont miss it? i really hope you catch it!

JayeJaye ~ congrats on your little peanut! hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months!

Loops ~ Hope your getting down and jiggy with it lots!!!

HappyBaby ~ HI!! how did you go yesterday??

sending everyone bucketloads of :bluedust::pink-babydust: and :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy:

Tei - :dance: for your perfect FET!!! Go your little twins - sending loads of sticky vibes and baby dust to you, chick

Coral - woohoo for heading back into the 2ww on Monday. Hoping your lil embie thaws out beautifully and its a sticky :)

Loops - :pray: for a natural little miracle for you this month so you don't need that September ivf at all

Jayejaye - yay for a great scan - wishing you an awesome and healthy 8 or so months

Saffy - glad you are feeling a tad chirpier now. Will you be going for another natural FET or going with a medicated one next time? Hope AF comes asap so you can get going again.

Me - day 2 of Puregon today - woohoo!! I can never remember from cycle to cycle when I actually start feeling the effects of it all. I think I am just so scared of having a cycle from hell like last time that paranoia has hit super early. I have a blood test on Monday to see how things are going so will be on tenterhooks until then. Appointment with the haematologist tomorrow so hoping he will agree to me having prophylactic stuff so I don't bleed like a stuck pig again :p

Thanks lovely ladies - mwah
We've BD'd a little bit over the last couple of days but unfortunately Ive had a little bit of an irritation problem downstairs ;) which doesnt really put me in the mood too well, also I've done something to my neck and I dont know how but its killing me, I can hardly move it from side to side. Have heat packs on trying to recover so that we can have another go. We both had our acupuncture on Wed, which was great - DH went well and we have some Chinese herbs coming. She also gave DH some needles for smoking cravings :) Hope they work.

Tei ~ excellent news - good on you!! All the best in TWW!
Mel ~ good luck today and with your cycle!
:bluedust::stickyvibesgirl: for us all! :pray:

quiet in here at the moment - hope that means everyone is enjoying their weekends. I'm unfotunately working and also have the flu - bluhh :cold: Think that is why I got the very sore neck - now my glands are swollen.
Think I'm O'ing today too, little later than I first thought - hope I feel like DTD when I get home. My temp only went up today - last night it was very low. Havent really had a chance to do an OPT but pretty sure this would be time.

Hi Loops! *sends you some cyber chicken soup and warmth* hope you feel better soon and get some BD on!!!

Mel ~ How did your appointment go? all the best on monday. sucks all the blood tests! but hopefully you will get some answers

I felt nausea this morning!! who would have though i would get excited about that! I do feel different...but last time i was sure it worked...so FX atleast one of these little ones has held on. I have been so good had warm showers (not my normal boiling hot ones) havent had a bath in 2 weeks!! (a bath is my one favourite thing in the world), havent had an energy drink! have only had a coffee every 2nd day or so (which for me is maddness). havent drunk! despite me and DH having time off work and going to the pub i've been DD. its all about sacrifices, but the only thing that would make it worth while is getting pg. thats all i'm focusing on atm really...not having a baby...just getting pg cause i've never even gotten that far!then once i am pg i can then focus on having a baby =)

Hi all,
I haven't been in here much as I am having a break until July/August. Trying to lose weight :(

I hope your cold doesn't last long Loops! I guess it's the season for it but I seem to know heaps of people who have a cold at the moment...Hope you get that BD in!!!

Tei, sounds promising. I have my fingers (but not my legs!) crossed for you. I know how hard it is to not get your hopes up and dwell on every little twinge.

Coral - good luck in your 2ww!!! I shall be stalking you in the other thread along with Tei!

Mel - Looking forward to reading how your cycle progresses. Hopefully, this is the ONE!

Saffy - You and I have something very special waiting for us in the form of a special little baby each...Our turn will come :) Take care x

Happybaby - I will be stalking you in the 2ww thread as well. Fingers crossed this is YOUR month!

Hi to anyone I have missed :wave:

AFM - Detoxing from carbs at the moment. Almost a week down and I have lost just over a kilo. Hard to be exact as I have AF. Another nine days to go before I start to slowly reintroduce complex, low GI carbs one at a time....Life without carbs is difficult. No flours, no starch vegetables (potato, carrot, corn, peas, pumpkin, etc), no bread, pasta, rice, wheat, sugar, fruit, juice, and no saturated fat either (not that they are carbs but that is part of the plan I am on). Ah well....*sighs*
I posted in another thread that I checked my online Medicare Tax Statement and worked out that last financial year just gone I spent over $33,000 on medical expenses :o Un-fricken-believable.... Infertility costs big bucks apparently.... :rolleyes:

Anyway, hope everyone is well.

Take care xxx

Hi! Feel nausea again today!! fx

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Tei - GO the nausea!!! How long do you think you can hold out before you dig out the peesticks? Lots of stickyvibes to you, chick

N2L - holy cow, that is a LOT of money to have spent on treatments. Hoping the next one will have a fab ending so you don't have to spend more. Well done you for losing 1kg. Its amazing how much of a difference cutting out breads and pastas etc does make. I found out I was coeliac a year ago, so cut out all that stuff and didn't really replace it and the weight fell off. Trust me, that it not something that happens to me so I was stoked.

HI Loops, Coral (GL for transfer tomorrow hun), HB, Tantee, Saffy and anyone else I missed.

Appointment went really well on Friday. If this cycle doesn't work, it sure won't be through lack of trying. So in addition to all the usual ivf drugs and yummy progesterone, I am having aspirin, antibiotics, steroids and progynova as part of colorado for my ana, then for my bleeding thing, I will most likely be having a type of blood transfusion twice a week to try and curb that. I had hoped like mad that transfusions would be suggested but I really didn't think it would happen. The haem said that we'd try it at EPU in a few cycles time (only using it this time if I was pg) but when I said that this cycle is the last, he agreed instantly to EPU transfusion which s awesome. We have NOTHING more to throw at this cycle. Bloods tomorrow, day 5 of stims and I have the BLOAT. Hope it means good stuff.

Hi just a quick one from me cause im on my phone. not as nauseous today but still a little. I have a strange taste in my mouth which is getting worse...feels gross and i want to scrub my teeth constantly cause my mouth feels yuck. had minor tiny bit of cramping the other day. all good signs. i might try to poas tomorrow but still might be too early. ill post more tonight girls. Hope everyone is ok!!!!

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So I had my E2 done today. Stupid f-ing body. Last cycle, very little response. This cycle, after 5 days stims, my E2 is 7100 :o. I go back to the clinic tomorrow for a scan and more bloods but I am very scared that this will be cancelled. I know that if it is, it is for my own safety but don't know about you girls, but ivf takes SO much mental preparation for me and the thought of that being for nothing again is freaking me out. Does anyone know at what point/E2/no.follies a clinic will cancel or agree to a freeze all?

Hi Melissa,

Sorry you are having a tough time of it. Not too sure about E2 but mine was over 15,000 on my first ever stim cycle and transfer was not cancelled then (all though there was a bit of umming and arring on my behalf, there was none really with the Dr) I hope they level out for you, how many days in are you?

Teire, it all sounds very promising. Fingers crossed for you chick.

Loops, hope you're feeling better soon.

N2L - Wow, you have lots of willpower. GL with your dieting, it's amazing how even losing a few kg's makes you feel so much better. I too have spent about $34k this year, $20k OOP, so will hopefully get some back at tax time. I still owe the surgeon $$$$'s for my hand surgery for which I am $9k OOP!!!

Hi Saffy, Happybaby and all you other strong, amazing women. I hope you are all taking care of yourselves. Babydust......

Hi Ladies :hello:

I'm still here :) Just a really quick one this morning as at work and things hectic as I wasn't in yesterday! Been MIA as DS been quite sick & we had a trip to the hospital on Sunday night (very upsetting but he has been given the all clear with a virus named as the culprit). Mum has him today :-)

Had FET yesterday - all went well so now I wait and c... will post more in 2WW thread when I get a chance.

Hope u are all doing well, xoxox

Coral - glad your DS is ok, must've been really scary for you guys :( Yay for having had your FET - sending you many, many sticky vibes

Tantee - ouch re the $9K for your hand - hope it is healing nicely after that. My E2 that was 7100 was only a day 5 one, hence the concern. I had more yesterday, after 6 days stims and it is up to 11000 but once more, I am special. It is getting old! I had a scan yesterday and there are loads and loads of little follies, but after only 6 days, 12 that are almost ready to go???? WTF? My FS says that in all the time he has been doing this, he has NEVER seen follicles grow so much, so soon. SO, the plan is, I coasted yesterday, more bloods today and if they remain under 15000, they will do an EPU on Friday. However, as the clinic has never seen this before, we have no idea if there will be mature eggs so we are going into the EPU not expecting much. If it works, great. If not, the clinic has said that we won't be out of pocket in any way so this will be a freebie. It was that or cancellation and at least this way, we have nothing to lose and who knows We might get lucky. Interestingly, the nurses said that a day 5 E2 over 3000 on a microflare protocol is the limit before they normally pull the pin. Given mine was 7100, don't know why they have let me go on. I think my FS is really curious as to what is happening and offering a freebie was enough of a carrot for us to go through with it :D

Hi Lovely ladies
Just a super short one as I actually have tonsillitis :( Have been in agony for last 4 days with killer sore throat - so much so I haven't been able to eat anything solid or hot its all been cold and frozen things. Feeling a fair bit better today but still no where near 100%. Oh well at least I'll be losing weight but I'm dying to eat a descent meal and I guess this month I def wont be expecting a BFP - there is no way an embryo would stick through all of what my body has thrown at me.

Hope everyone is doing well over in TWW - :stickyvibesboy::stickyvibesgirl:

N2L ~ good luck with the weight loss!

Mel ~ wow a freebie - thats pretty cool. will be crossing fingers and toes for you on Friday :goodluck:

Hope everyone is well! :grouphug:

Loops ~ You just can't seem to catch a break can you!!! you poor thing!! here is some nice hot tea with honey to sooth that throat and a back rub cause you desearve it girl. I really hope you get better soon, take care of yourself!!

Mel ~ Wow a freebie, thats pretty exciting, sure beats not doing anything at all, even if it doesnt work atleast you know you tried!! I've never had the blood tests to check levels, they have only just checked the follies themselves. so no idea about any of the numbers, but hey, take what you can eh =) GL on Friday!! I hope there is something in there for you =).

Coral ~ Hope your DS is feeling better and not stressing you too much! how scary having to go to the hospital! Hope your not going to too crazy in the TWW!!! sending you sticky vibes!

Tantee ~ What are you up to?

N2L ~ How are you going with the no carbs?? it would kill me I live off pasta and DH would have 3 different types of potatos with every meal if he could eg... mash and chips (i dont let him, and say only 1 is enough.. ). Thats crazy about the money. I guess during the year you see the numbers but not till its all added up in one big number do you realise how much this actually costs!!

As for little ol' me.. I am on the home stretch. BT is on Friday. I'm too scared to POAS... I dont know how to take it if its neg. I still have that bad mouth taste..and mild nausea....like really mild now... I do feel full in the tummy I guess, but thats about it. Have had some really really mild cramping every now and again over the last week. Normally I only get erally really bad cramps D1 of AF and then im fine...none of this niggly stuff, so maybe??
On Monday I started a new job. I'm doing an 8 week contract at a hosptial 1 1/2 hrs away from home. I'm staying in the nurses quarters and bored out of my brain!!! I'm surprised i have been able to not focus on TWW aswell...(well it feels like i havent). My only net is through my phone, so thats why i'm not active as usual. But I'm missing DH like crazy =( and he is missing me.... but we worked out that no matter what I do, if I get pg this year I wont get maternity leave (as i havent got a permant job i just do contracts), so we need to get as much money as possible now, and me working away gives us about double what i would get at home. FX I am pg then I dont have to work again! *sigh* sorry to bring it down..Im just bored and lonley =(

Hi everyone :)

Just wanted to poke my head in and give a BIG GOOD LUCK to Tei for your BT today! Fingers crossed that this one is the one! (or two!!!)

Looking forward to hearing some good news from you later today!

back later....

xxx

Tei ~ aww thanks so much for the cyber tea and back rub hon! I'm not 100% better but so much better than I was. I can actually eat again.
Hope you have had good news today, :pray:

Also turns out that last night I got a smiley face on a clear blue OPK - pretty late but I'm happy with that because now that I'm pretty much better - I feel like DTD again and may be in with a chance this month after all!

Hope everyone is well - enjoy the weekend!!
:grouphug:

Hi everyone. I posted my results in the TWW thread.. but yea my bt came back neg...

In saying that (and posting this will jinx it..) But DH and I are playing the denial card. We think its wrong. I know I know...its a bloodtest how can it be.. But I feel different, even DH said I look different, I am different. Little things I didnt even notice like where Im holding my fat atm (weird i know) but he said when my period is coming I normally get a little soft in this spot, but i'm currently just a little soft in a different spot. (its very sweet he is noticing things like that). but yea...I can't explain it...but I do feel diffferent. and my hoo haa feels different...I dont know. Basically AF still hasn't turned up, and im not feeling like she is...I thought for a second a few days ago maybe she was coming, but that feeling disapeared and she isnt here.

so until she comes DH and I are in denial it is negitive. I'm even thinking of still POAS...

I guess its my way of still thinking there is hope. We dont know what we are going to do next. Cause I'm now working away from home for the next 8 months.. its going to be really hard to get down to appointments (now 3+ hrs away from the clinic)... and I still dont feel right skipping out on work...but I think I will have to, cause i cant wait that long. Its going to be tough.

*sits back in her boat and just floats peacefully down the "River Denile" =)

Hi Teire,

Big hugs to you, this is tough. How many days past transfer were you at testing time?
Unfortunately our bodies send us all kinds of mixed signals and with IVF, we are so sensitive to looking for signs, (I know I am a huge culprit) that it plays with your mind. Were you taking any support meds? (they can mimick similar signs to pregnancy and take a while to ebb off).
Saying that, I have read stories online where a BT has been neg and resulted in pg, but unfortunately I would say that they are in the minority when you know your exact dates as with IVF. I don't mean to be harsh or discount what you are feeling, because there is always that possibility, can you go to a local GP in a day or so and request another test perhaps?
It is hard when you have a forced break from TTC due to other circumstances. Is there any way in which your clinic can accommodate your working away, like having an associate dr/clinic closer to work run your bt's and scans and then only having to make the trip for pickup and transfer? I know of a few ladies in the country who have used this approach.
I hope so much that the result was incorrect but hope that you know either way, we are all here to support you. :-)

Tei - giant big :hug: to you, sweetie. It hurts so damn much. And I have to say that I totally know where you are coming from. Last cycle, despite the bfn, I was and still am absolutely convinced that something tried to happen but didn't work for whatever reason. Look after yourself hun xxx

Just a short one for me. We learnt that follicles do not grow good eggs after only 6 days of stims and needless to say, no viable embryos for transfer. I don't know if I have just toughened up loads or if I am just so jaded by the whole process that I feel nothing. Nada. Just emptiness and bitterness.

Melissa, I am so sorry. It is so bloody unfair. IVF becomes a blur after awhile and you have both moments of numbness and moments of raw emotion, maybe it's nature's way of protecting us from complete madness (we have to be at least a bit mad to enable us to keep putting ourselves through this time and time again)
Hopefully this will be a big learning curve for your FS and you will find the perfect protocol next time. It is so very hard to gear up for a cycle, especially knowing that there are further obstacles to conquer once/if a pg is acheived. I admire your strength and tenacity. Please take care of yourself.. I so hope that after you have taken the time to process it all, you will be able to move forward again soon and that you will acheive your dream next time round.

Mel and Tei ~ (((GBH))), know those feelings you are both having all too well. Mel ~ I hope you can have another try soon, just because the stim may not have really worked this time, doesnt mean it will be the same next - stay pos!
Tei ~ :SAAF::noaf: hope the BT was wrong or if not then 3rd time lucky!

AFM ~ I guess I'm in a normal everyday TWW after O'ing very late. So yeh just waiting waiting at the moment...

Hope everyone is well xx

...well you can completely disregard my last post...I knew writing it down would jinx it...
Instead I will leave all you beautiful women with this:

In the red tent, the truth is known. In the red tent, where days pass like a gentle stream, as the gift of Innana courses through us, cleansing the body of last month's death, preparing the body to receive the new month's life, women give thanks-for repose and restoration, for the knowledge that life comes from between our legs, and that life costs blood.

New thread time.