LT TTC and Assisted Conception Feb-Mar 2012

Kerbear - I am so sorry hunni, that your not progressing as well as you had hoped. Let the tears come, feel the frustration and when your done crying, summon the strength to keep going. Its all we can do, unfortunately. Sometime a really good hard cry is all we need to release the pressure and frustrations. No one ever tells you about how hard it is. Its always, ooh, you have to inject yourself. Big woop. Thats nothing compared to the emotional side of things. Its the soaring highs and the sad, sad lows. Having said that, its not done until they have to cancel you again. So we will all be here for you, :pray: that between now and Sunday they grow with all their mights. Rant away in here, its what we are all here for xxx

Saffy- Good luck again with your transfer today. Its always the best stage I think. Walking out of the clinic/ hospital, knowing you have live embies in you. The following TWW will drive you insane soon enough, enjoy the buzz of being PUPO!!

Janie - I guess we dont need to tell you that we are all :pray: that you have great news tomorrow. We are all here for you either way.

Myturn - I didn't forget about you :hello: I know your still driving yourself crazy lol. I am all good here. Really hungry, but thats about all the side effects yet. Still, only jabbed 3 times. Busy trying to book accommodation in Adelaide. Decided to take your advice and try to hire a car and hopefully stay one less night to cover the cost. It would be much easier with a car.

Mia - Good luck jabbing. Its fun to start a new cycle. Its definately a hopeful stage.

RhiChiChi - 7 good size follies is a good result. Well done!

Big Hi to everyone else.

AFM - Still not much going on. Just jabbing away...trying not to eat everything in sight...I didn't get this hungry last time. Maybe because they upped my meds. I think its more emotional eating more than the meds. Silly as I am supposed to loose weight to help conception :wall:

Awww - thanks Vik - it is great to know that you will either all be cheering for me (if a BFP) or holding my hand while I have a cry if not.

Thanks you lovely ladies - I really hope that I can start a roll of BFP's!

Janie xxx

Janie we are all here for you :grouphug: I hope you're the next BFP! :goodluck:

Vic - I feel the same way re eating, maybe its all the meds! OR maybe its that d@mn lolly machine at work calling me!

AFM - 1st jab down 2nd one tonight. I think I hit a little vessel cos it bled a little and it hurts. Not sure if its cos its quite a bit of puregon I have to inject 300?? Anyone else on that dose??
Just wondering if when you ladies experienced your EC did any of the ladies in the waiting room chat to each other or was it every women for herself? My nurse said to bring a book cos most girls dont chat but they do look at each others hands afterwards to see what each got re eggies! Just wondering for when its my turn which should hopefully be in another week and a half (around the 20th) :pray:

Hi girls,

mia- last time I was on 375 of puregon, I'm sure you'll be fne with 300. In my experience, everyone ignores each other and pretends they are not there, I have never had a conversation with anyone else I think. I tried to smile at a girl in the waiting room after i came out of my transfer- she has an epu the same day as me- but she gave me nothing, so its every woman for herself obviously!!

kerbear- nothing I can say to you- it just plain sucks you poor thing :hug:

vic- put that chocolate down! (only joking mate) whatever it takes to get through the cycle, don't stress.

sorry thats all the persies I can manage, good luck to everyone else :D

afm- officially pupo now so will meander into the tww thread. Feeling really flat, the transfer was a bit of a saga, it was postponed twice timewise, so as I was an hour from home, I had to wait around for ages , lucky i brought a book, Also had to empty and refill my bladder 3 times!!! By the end I was bursting and lying on the bed still waiting for the FS for another 20mins trying not to wet myself, I was so over it by that point I just wanted to get up and leave or burst into tears or both. Emby-wise, a good quality day 2, the photo was a 2 cell but they said it had since divided which was good apprently, the others not so good, one was abnormal ( too many chromosomes or something) and the other ok, they are waiting to see if it gets to day5 to freeze, otherwise I am looking at another stim cycle if this doesn't work.
Sorry for the essay, I just feel really depressed and had to come home to inject myself with clexane and pregnyl, both of which hurt :wall:
On that depressing note I will see most of you in the tww thread soon hopefully!

Saffy :hug: SO sorry to hear your experience was delayed and not pleasant at all, I hope though that the little embie is now comfy and growing :stickyvibesgirl:
I thought it would be the case re no one talking but I wonder why? We're all in the same boat, I guess I'll be very nervous on the day aswell and who knows what my feeling will be or if I'd be up for a chat but I'd be too embarrassed to start a convo unless someone else did and maybe thats the issue, as in everyone waits for someone else?! Either way I'll be like you and bring a book along.
Again sorry to hear about today but look after yourself and take it easy ok :hug: :stickyvibesboy:

Hi Ladies!

Saffy - Sorry to hear about the delays today, I hope you are feeling ok and are taking it easy:D

Kerbear - I hope you are doing ok sending you hugs!

Mia – I hope your jabbing gets easier, when I start my injections I will be on 300 as well.

MissB – I hope you a travelling along well, it's nice to see you pop in every now & then!

Kashby – I hope you are ok & are recovering ok. It was nice to hear DH was looking after you, they can be so sweet;)

Strawberry55 – Welcome:D the lovely ladies in here are very helpful, I haven't been on here for very long but I did read the thread for awhile before joining in & have seen that you will get alot of support here:D


Janie71, Blossom73, Missren, Amy_jellybean, Keta & Myturn - I hope you are all coping with the tww, I have my fingers crossed for you all.

AFM - I started Synarel on Monday, YUCK is all I can say! Thanks for the tips on having a drink on hand. I have a blood test on the 16th & then will find out when to start the injections (not too keen on that but, hey, if I can cope with sniffing something, I will learn to cope with the jabs!)

Hello to anyone I have missed I hope you are all going well!

xx

Planetsasha - i know what you mean re yuk synorel. I was lucky to get the drink tip aswell so i always have something onhand. Glad to hear im not the only one on 300 puregon :dance: you arent too far behind me. I dont have a bt until nect week tho, wonder why you get one prior to starting the injections?? I guess every fc is different. Where are you gettin treated?

Hello lovelies,

Mia - I was on 250 of Puregon each day. I go to a very busy clinic and most people dont talk in the waiting room. I've spoken to about 2 women in the whole time we have been there. My clinic dont write your eggs on your hand, you have to ask the nurse how many you got :(

Kerbear - You poor love, we are all hear for you to vent :hug:

Vic - Im eating myself out of house and home here as well, just got back from the shops and realised that I bought $85 worth of crap!!! Eat away, its one of the only things we have control over at the moment :p

Saffy - Sorry you didnt have a good run today honey :( Sometimes I really wonder whether the people that work at the clinic really understand how sh**ty we already feel. On the upside, yay for being PUPO :dance: Looking forward to having you over in the TWW thread with us xxx

Kashby - Good to hear your DH is taking good care of you!

Blossom - So sorry to hear about you BFN honey :( So unfair!

Planet Sasha - Syneral is horrible stuff isnt it?! I was on it last time but thankfully this cycle they didnt make me have it. I always thought I would really struggle with the needles but I guess you just do what you have to do when the time comes.

Hi to everyone else, hope you are all travelling ok out there?

AFM - Dropped DH at the airport today to go back to work. Bought my self a nice exxy piece of steak for dinner :) The only thing missing is a glass of nice wine!!! Going to lay on the lounge tonight and watch tele and do nothing. I treated myself to a nice pedicure today. I have had a few crampy feelings in my tummy today, 6 days until BT :pray:

Mia01 - It does seem I will be running along just behind you;) The nurse mentioned it was just to check the Synarel had done it's job (at least I think that's what he said). I have to be treated for elevated NK cells so I also need to take some tablets and intralipids (just for something different:) I am being treated and Monash IVF Clayton. Where are you?

Thanks ladies you are all lovely and are a great support for me. I am glad you all don't mind the venting and rambling, it's the only place to get things out of my system.
I am trying to be positive but I keep telling my little kittens that they are my babies and might always be the only ones, when they meow back and talk to me it makes me feel so much better :-)

Kerbear, dont worry. Those little buggers can grow. They may just need a couple of extra days stimming. Don't forget they can grow 2-3mm a day.

Thinking of you x

Thanks n2l I am so hoping they do, they haven't been growing that much so far but I am hoping for a growth spurt :-)
How are you doing, I often think about you and hope you are doing ok.

Kerbear - sorry to hear today is such a down-day. I understand what you mean about no hope then no disappointment. I will also take 450 Gonal F and Leuveris as well when I start injecting tomorrow. I think I will soon truly understand how you feel, until then I say biggest of big hugs, thinking of you, and GROW follies :)

Kimbe - Lots of good wishes for you :) Hope your injuries are healing and DH stays the beautiful carer he has been.

Saffy - PUPO!!!!! Wahoo!!!!!! Sorry the experience was not what it good have been but PUPO!!!!!!!!!!!!! Little congrats....will look forward to giving you the big one :)

PlanetSasha - I am so pathetic I asked to do anything that DID NOT involve BT's and was happily told it was not a problem .......... never fear - your guys know what they are up to, BT or not. I find if I get distracted I dont even taste the Synarel anymore (have had it for 12 days now).

MissB - I hope you are enjoying the feeling of your little one beautifully growing. Am probably not allowed to say that here, but just wanted to :)

Blossom - big hug, no words to say:comfort:

AmyJB - sorry husband away and you are missing him. Hope all your aches and pains have settled.

AFM: Scan tomorrow and start jabbing - a step I guess, but am expecting this not to work so one step closer to knowing. GL for tomorrow everyone with exciting events. K.

Thanks kashby good luck with your jabbing :-)

10 February 2012

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI or just something to happen!

Mia01 - CD4
Kashby - CD4
Meg76 - CD6
Vic261 - CD 6 US & BT 13.02.12
Kerbear - CD9 Possible EPU 15.02.12
RhiChiChi CD11 EPU 11.02.12
Strawberry - FS appt 22.02.12

Waiting for Transfer

Kimbe - CD16 EPU 07.02.12 ET 12.02.12


Hanging out in the TWW (stalk them here: https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ml )

Janie71 - CD31 13 day post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo BT 10.01.12
Blossom73 - CD 13 day post transfer 1 x day 4 embryo BT 10.01.12
Missren - CD 12 day post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo BT 13.02.12
Amy_jellybean - CD22 6 days post transfer 1 x day 3 embryo BT 15.02.12
Keta - CD31 BT 15.02.12
Myturn - CD27 6 days post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo BT 17.02.12
Saffy - CD16 1 day post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo

Hi Girls,

Just a super quick one...

Kerbear: I just wanted to say not to stress too much about the follies being a bit slow. I've had two stim cycles and the first two ultrasounds in each cycle didn't reveal much but by the third I had caught up. My first cycle I was on 150 micrograms of Gonal f and ended up with 8 eggs, all of which fertilised and ended up with 6 day 3 embryos. My second cycle I was on 225 micrograms and had 13 eggs, 10 of which fertilised and we ended up with 3 perfect hatching blasts at day 5. While none of these have resulted in a pregnancy this seems to be due to other issues (NK cell ad clotting issues) and not egg/embryo quality. So hang in there! Your body might just be taking it's time. xxx

Janie: Good luck today!!!!!

Saffy: Hope you're feeling better today, Honey!

Also just wanted to share a quick story from yesterday. Had a girlfriend from interstate who knows what we have gone through announced her pregnancy to me via a picture message of her bump and an ultrasound pic... Where does that rate on the insensitivity scale?! Obviously I am happy for her but wow, seriously?? Going into yet another FET this month, I have been doing everything I can to stay positive and focused and that made me feel really sucky. I haven't responded. Not sure whether to be gracious, tell her how out of line she is, or do nothing at all. Thoughts??

Love to all!

M. x

Oh meg I personally given you a call to tell you knowing how hard it might be for you. Seeing things like that can be hard but then on the other side doing it that way means you can process it in you own time and way when they aren't on the other end of phone or in front of you. Hope you are ok hun I know how hard it is with 3 of my close friends announcing theirs lately,
Sending you a huge hug xo

Just wanted to let all you lovely ladies who have been such a great support to me that...................

I got a BFP! HCG is 233 at 4 weeks 1 day.

Sooooooooooooooo excited and hoping there will be many more BFP's to come from this thread.

Janie xxx

:leap: OMG! Janie71 :happyforyou:

That is such amazing news. You must be sooooo very happy. I will update the list right now. Enjoy a happy, healthy, safe pregnancy.

10 February 2012

Got their BFP!!!!!!

Janie71 - 10.02.12

Waiting for EPU/O/IUI or just something to happen!

Mia01 - CD4
Kashby - CD4
Meg76 - CD6
Vic261 - CD 6 US & BT 13.02.12
Kerbear - CD9 Possible EPU 15.02.12
RhiChiChi CD11 EPU 11.02.12
nothingtolose - CD17
Strawberry - FS appt 22.02.12

Waiting for Transfer

Kimbe - CD16 EPU 07.02.12 ET 12.02.12


Hanging out in the TWW (stalk them here: https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...ml )

Blossom73 - CD 13 day post transfer 1 x day 4 embryo BT 10.01.12
Missren - CD 12 day post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo BT 13.02.12
Amy_jellybean - CD22 6 days post transfer 1 x day 3 embryo BT 15.02.12
Keta - CD31 BT 15.02.12
Myturn - CD27 6 days post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo BT 17.02.12
Saffy - CD16 1 day post transfer 1 x day 2 embryo

Kashby, thanks so much sweetie for thinking of me. I am going well, hope you can join me soon! All the best with your jabs hun xoxoxox

Meg, all I can say in your friend's defense is that she has no idea what IVF involves and the emotions that go with it, let alone how a woman feels when she has to go through cycle after cycle with no success. I know I can't say I know what that's like, as I have been very lucky in that respect, but I know what all the drugs can do to your body and the emotions that come with it all. In all honesty, your friend probably thinks that you'll get pg straight away with no problems (of course we all all hoping for that) but the reality of it is that more often than not it doesn't work the first time. So she is very naive about it all. Big hugs sweetie xoxox

Vic, I haven't posted an update about my FS appointment on Tuesday but, in a nutshell, I am waiting for my next appointment on April 26 and I am trying to lose 10kg before then to go on a research/drug trial. I am cd17 today and waiting for ovulation.

Massive congrats Janie!! :happyforyou: I already knew that you were! haha. Great levels hun :) All the best hunni xoxoxox

Happy happy joy joy Janie :-))))))) that' a wonderful thing to find out enjoy you pregnancy babe so happy for you!!!!

N2L - Did you want me to add you to the list? Is that what your asking??
April must seem like forever away hun.

Yeah, put me on :)

I'm ok with having a little break. I am having some BT on cd 2 next month to retest my amh, fsh and a couple of other things. The real test will be losing weight :lol:

Janie :loveshower::pink-babydust: :dance: CONGRATS!!!!!!
Again just a recap of:
What amount of puregon (or other injectable) you were on?
What day embie you got transfered? How many did you get transfered?
Symptoms whilst you were waiting for your BFP??
Appreciate this cos I'm close to EC and ET and am hoping for the same result 1st time ;) :pray:

CONGRATULATIONS!

Meg - I would take the high road, some ppl are just insensitive but some dont realise how insensitive they're being cos they're SO happy.
I've been there many times and its SO disheartning but we have to all stick together and know that we wouldnt be like that to anyone especially having gone through all this :hug:

Janie- That'a amazing news hun, huge congratulations :happyforyou:

Ugh! I hear you on the whole weight issue. Its a never ending constant battle for me. I am finding it really hard with all the meds too. Its good that your ok with having a little break. Your really, really brave for continuing with it all, but I know how much the desire to have a child can push us, even when we feel like giving in. We are all here if you need us. Good luck with all your tests. Enjoy the break.

Hi lovelies,

Janie - I said it in the other thread but I'll say it again. CONGRATULATIONS!!!! :loveshower:

Meg - I feel your pain love. I have a friend that is pregnant at the moment and has been sending me pics of her bump and updates. Whilst I am very happy for her it still hurts seeing it :( she has had 2 miscarriages previously so she hasnt had an easy road either and she is very supportive with our IVF journey but I still feel sad. When my best friend found out she was pregnant she rang me crying to tell me.

xxx

Aww thanks girls - you really all are so wonderful. I so wish that we didn't have to travel down this path, but I am so happy to have met all of you.

Mia to answer your questions:
1. From memory I was on 125 of puregon per day (my stim cycle was back in 2008). It took me a while to get to EPU as I was a little slow responding, but I got there eventually. 12 eggs were collected and 8 fertilised. 1 transferred at that time and resulted in a BFN. When I did my FET in 2008 that resulted in my daughter - it was HRT (so a medicated FET). I still only had one transferred, but they had to defrost 2 as the first one did not survive defrost.
2. Each time I have had a day 2 embie transferred and only one at a time. This time I did a natural FET but did have Progesterone Pessaries in the 2 week wait. Waiting to find out if I need to continue these or not.
3. I have had some symptoms - but they come and go. A lot of stretching and cramping on and off in my uterus. My BB's aren't really sore, but heavier and sort of tingling. I have been having reflux on and off also and a metallic taste in my mouth. A small aversion to some smells but nothing major. Some pain in the ovary that I know I ovulated from. Some mild feeling of being a little off - not really nauseous - just not quite normal.

I hope that helps.

Janie xxx

Congratulations Janie! That is great news! :clap::happyforyou::clap:

Thanks Janie :hug: its soo helpful! Sorry about d 101 q's but its truly nice of u to have answered, thanks again soo very much n ALL d best of luck hun!!!

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Hi Girls,
Also just wanted to share a quick story from yesterday. Had a girlfriend from interstate who knows what we have gone through announced her pregnancy to me via a picture message of her bump and an ultrasound pic... Where does that rate on the insensitivity scale?! Obviously I am happy for her but wow, seriously?? Going into yet another FET this month, I have been doing everything I can to stay positive and focused and that made me feel really sucky. I haven't responded. Not sure whether to be gracious, tell her how out of line she is, or do nothing at all. Thoughts??

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Aw meg, i know exactly how you feel i have been going through this with one of my friends in particular (she has her little boy now) and like the other girls have said she is completely oblivious to others around her & their feelings, people like us who are struggling with fertility. .. even though she knows the situation i am in! when i got my msgs, i waited to respond till i cooled down a little and i was probably a little more blunt than i needed to be, but i felt like crap reading them and really couldnt muster up much more than a congrats etc..i feel ya pain. hang in there :-) x

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Just wanted to let all you lovely ladies who have been such a great support to me that...................

I got a BFP! HCG is 233 at 4 weeks 1 day.

Sooooooooooooooo excited and hoping there will be many more BFP's to come from this thread.

Janie xxx

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ooops dont know how i missed this !! YAY congrats to you Janie, great levels - i had such a good feeling bout you and am not at all surprised to see your BFP.
I really really really am truly happy for the girls in this thread who have gone through so much to have such a positive and wanted outcome....
its a really good start to the month, lets hope theres more BFp's around the corner girls!!! :pray:

ill be drinking a pretend wine tonight to celebrate for ya ;) god knows i could do with a drink right now, way too long a tww, 3 more days till BT for me...

have a good weekend girls & luck to all the stabbers, jabbers, snorters, epu's, et's and BT's & whatever else there is that we do.xx

:hooray:Thats 2 :bfp: since I've been in this thread Miss B and Janie :happyforyou:
Hopefully more around the corner!!!

:pray: :pray: :pray:

Been off for what? 36hrs and there's a BFP in here - YAY JANIE!!!! Congratulations That is just so very awesome and exciting for you :dance:
Saffy - yay for PUPO, hope emby is starting to find that sticky niche
Vic - you're a legend on the table of progress, honestly, i know we all say it but it is a mammoth task you are undertaking just doing that and it is so very much apreciated by us all.

AFM - The "elephant man" purpling of my bruised eye and head is slowly decreasing in size. DH took me to the movies today to get out of the house and it felt like every second person was staring at my face and then giving DH daggers. I wanted to scream from the roof tops that they are way off target! Poor DH.
My belly is absolutely bloated and looks like i'm about to explode too. It is totally distended and very uncomfortable, i wasn't prepared for this physical reaction so it's thrown me completely. Any tricks on hiding it so they still do the ET on Sunday?? I know if they think there's a risk of OHSS they wont proceed with ET. I started Crinone yesterday, forgot how delightful that gunk is lol. Oh,and got an sms from the FC telling me that the emby's are still growing well which is great given my paranoia about them reaching day 5 blasts. Less than 48hrs to go little emby's and then one of you get's to come home to mumma ;)

Have a great weekend everyone. Sorry no real personals as there's been way too much chatter in here for me to follow, let alone comment on sincerely just now, but know, you are all in my thoughts. xx

:goodluck: Kimbe for sunday, Im on my first round of IVF so I dont have any tricks re hiding bloating for ET SORRY :( I hope you feel better soon. Glad embies are doing well, keep us updated!

I agree with Kimbe, Vic you deserve a :clap: and :grouphug: for the list and how updated you keep it THANK YOU!

Quick question ladies, with the trigger injection is that just given in your tummy like the puregon jabs?? I've seen on you tube some ppl give them in the b*TT but I'm not sure if thats an american thing

Mia - Mine is done in my tummy. I too have seen it on American shows in the butt, or top of the thigh. Ouch!

Kimbe - Good luck for Sunday. My tummy was huge too last time. And the wind was not great either :)

Have a great weekend girls. Janie enjoy tonight xx

Thanks Vic I thought so but just wanted to make sure LOL ;) Thanks heaps!

Have a great weekend all!! I'm watching some youtube diaries of women who have gone through the IVF process, one lady is from oz she's mega nice Kath193 dont know if she ended being successful but I hope so she was SO positive throughout it was awesome to watch