welcome back Jane and Blossom Hope your return is short and sweet.....

N2L you will be pleased to hear I made the FS appointment for the 30th May - it's the week DH gets home, and AF is due that week, so if we want to start something we can (hopefully!!) I've been keeping note of suggestions and messages and trying to 'become knowledgeable' so I can ask the right questions - but I feel a bit like that's why I go to them... IYKWIM? They are supposed to tell me what I don't know... that's why I pay them... right???

I also went to the psychologist on friday which was a bit weight off my shoulders, going back on 25th, and who knows how long I will keep going for.... but for now, it's just nice to have someone to share objectively.... thankyou to everyone for your encouragement and helping me keep my head straight when I am in the pits of despair in here... I really am a positive person usually.

Each cycle, more and more people leave us, and while (of course!) I am more than excited for everyone.... I am starting to feel a bit left behind.... I want to ask those long termers how do you do it.... but I know the answer is that you just keep putting one foot in front of the other, and keep going.... because you have to know that you have tried everything....

Anyway... still frustrated at the nice EWCM mucus that has been around over the weekend... it's definitely getting thinner now... on the plus side... it's good to know that I produce it!!! I wonder if losing the 4kg's since christmas has started to help my body get back in rhythm??? I am the lightest I have been since 2007 at the moment... so??? maybe that will help next time... (or maybe not....) but at least I am slowly but surely getting healthy, and of course, that will be a good thing which ever way it goes