Clinic just rang. Hcg now negative (no surprise there) and they definitely think it began to implant but stopped. I wonder if PGD would prevent that?? Iykwim....
We are doing a FET this cycle. I wasn't sure but DP wants to give it a go...
AFM, I'm taking a month off after a very full-on time with surgery, stim cycle and FET without a break. FS called on Monday night and answered a few of my questions. She is still confident that she can get us pregnant and said that the fact we make (what appear to be) such good embryos is a big factor in our favour. She is sending me for a whole lot more testing so hopefully that sheds some light on what is going on. From what I can tell the testing is for all the clotting issues- prothrombin gene, factor V leider gene, MTHFR, etc.
Im so sorry n2l. I know nothing anyone can say can make this right I hope things go well for you for your FET.
I also got my BFN this week. Had a BT on Wed which my FS rang me to give me the results at work! Which left me totally unprepared!! I think I knew it was coming, but it didn't make it any easier. I still bawled like a baby
(thankfully in my office) in front of my work mates who happened to walk in when I was talking to my FS. So he wants me to have a month off to recover. Has anyone else had to do this after a stimulation cycle? We are thinking of having Dec off also so we can enjoy christmas without the stress of money, appointment etc. Which rules me out for the rest of the year!!!! We are gutted.
I'm just so emotionally rung out. I know this is only my first IVF failure, but I still feel as though I lost a potential baby. Stupid I know.
Oh well. Af has arrived today, so I guess I just need to hope the next few months go super quick!
I totally understand that feeling and I'm sorry Honey, but in my experience it only gets worse... And of course it's the loss of a potential baby! People talk about miscarriage as being an unacknowledged loss but so is this. As far as I'm concerned, it is alive when they transfer the embryo and all of your hopes and dreams amp up at that very moment.
As for the break, I think it is standard practice after a stim cycle to have a month off. When you consider what your body has been through, it makes sense that you should let everything get back on track. When the fresh transfer after our last stim (our second) failed, my FS advised I move straight into an FET without a break because I had just had surgery to remove endometriosis scarring so we need to take advantage of the cleaned up environment. But I think that's quite unusual.
My best advice to you would be look after yourself every step of the way and allow yourswelf to feel this pain, otherwise it will come back to get you...
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