Well Girls;
Its all over for me. I got up this morning to be greated in full force with Af. Raging like there is no tommorow. I havent cried. I feel kind of numb. My first reaction was astonishe=ment(because i was so sure)then anger at my body for letting me down once again and having wasted all this damn money on fertility treatment.It sounds stupid and i don't mean to be too philosophical but is god trying to tell me to not tempt fate. I have two wonderful adorable healthy kids. Maybe enough is enough. I'm sure i could pickup more hours at work to keep me busy. This just isnt really the plan i had in mind. I see how much all of us would love another child. Even my older kids,11 and 8. In fact especially them, but really do i want to be having a baby at 38. I most certainly didnt want to be carrying a baby over the hottest months of the year and yet that would now seem likely. My fs was lovely and said i can imagine how hurt and disappointed you are and he even said he was sorry. Which i thought was beautiful. I told him i was having second thoughts. He said sleep on it and think it over. I still have a few days up my sleeve to think about things.I also said myself that i'm probably not thinking with the right part of my brain at the moment to go making decisions,so a couple of days should help. you girls know me a little now, what do you think i should do and how should i be feeling or viewing this situation. I really care for you girls you have been a wonderful support and i value your opinions deeply. Please tell me when you get your BFP's i will be so delighted for you and elated and honoured to share in your joy. At least i can drink on the weekend now.Heheheh