Oh Saffy I feel the exact same way today. I'm actually having a moment right now. DH was being an ass last night and also again this morning about me being moody. I know I'm a moody person but he doesn't help the fact that he just annoys me all the time. He's always putting his hands on or in my face always smaking me because he says I've been naughty. Look I know it's in a loving way but when I am moody I snap at him and I'm mean to him.
I know I'm doing this stuff and I really can't help it. I know I'm being mean and moody I don't want to be like that but I really don't know how to stop. I do this stuff before I even think. I feel like such a terrible person because he so doesn't deserve it. He really is very good to me and that's how I behave.
DH goes away in July for about 6-7 weeks. That is really going to dissrupt out TTC chances. Do we even bother to try before or do we wait until he is back. I'm really having doubts today. I'm doing the why me's, it's not fair etc....
I don't want to stop trying. We came sooo close only to fail. I never ever thought I would have a MC. Those things happen to other people not to yourself. And I know logically it was nothing that I did that caused it but you just can't help but think was I not happy enough that I was pregnant, maybe I should have lost this extra 6kgs I've put on.
I thought about writting DH a letter I'm better at expressing myself in writting. I really have no one but you guys to talk to about this stuff. I feel a bit isolated. I did have a best friend but we had a falling out about 9 months ago and I haven't spoken to her since. I have never had heaps of friends well not ones that are close. So I really am in it on my own so to speak.
Any way as I said just having a moment. I'll get over it. It's onwards and upwards from here.
Clamgee - I wouldn't worry about feeling the way you do. I feel exactly the same at the moment.
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