Still negative test on a digital today, still no af, guess Monday BT is the only way I am ever going to get the final answer but I have no doubt it over for me. When I say over I mean over for good, this was it, our last chance :-(
The bank account can't do anymore and I am not sure we can. If we do ever decide to do another round of ivf there will have to be some serious tests done as I can't keep putting us through this to lose our embies at day 3 and no transfers work.
How do I move on from here and not be bitter and twisted that I will never be a mum. This world is so unfair and I hope I can overcome this and not be the bitter and twisted person I am at the moment. I can't be happy for anyone else in my life having babies ATM but I have to suck it up and put the brave face on.
I was meant to be a mum god damn it. How can I finally find my soul mate and best friend a few years ago and now be punished to not be able to have a family with him????????? This sucks and my heart hurts so much :-(