LT TTC Two Week Wait 2012 #8

[kerbear]

Still negative test on a digital today, still no af, guess Monday BT is the only way I am ever going to get the final answer but I have no doubt it over for me. When I say over I mean over for good, this was it, our last chance :-(
The bank account can't do anymore and I am not sure we can. If we do ever decide to do another round of ivf there will have to be some serious tests done as I can't keep putting us through this to lose our embies at day 3 and no transfers work.
How do I move on from here and not be bitter and twisted that I will never be a mum. This world is so unfair and I hope I can overcome this and not be the bitter and twisted person I am at the moment. I can't be happy for anyone else in my life having babies ATM but I have to suck it up and put the brave face on.
I was meant to be a mum god damn it. How can I finally find my soul mate and best friend a few years ago and now be punished to not be able to have a family with him????????? This sucks and my heart hurts so much :-(

[minniemouse]

kerbear: i don't have the answers im afraid, its just not fair

[juniper76]

kerbear, it's so unfair. I hope there's a miracle baby in your future.

[sarah4kurt]

i so understand what you are saying Kerbear BIG HUGS i know it is no constellation but we all wish it so much for you and its just not fair any of this LTTTC .
i beg and plead with the universe every day and every cycle i think like u exactly and wonder how not to be bitter and twisted.

My Turn and N2L i wish i could give u a big hug too!!
This is why i ony pop in and out these days... its hard xoxoxo

[treenie86]

myturn, n2l & kerbear I am so very sorry that you lovely ladies haven't been given a Christmas miracle. nothing but lots and lots of x

[myturn]

Oh beautiful kerbear. So so so so sorry. I guess there's still a chance... But it sucks you have to wait until Monday for BT.

I had mine today - as expected of course the blood dripping outta me was a bit of a give away. Sorry I know it's

i don't know what else to say kerbear except so sorry for both you and n2l would have sacrificed my own BFP for either one of you.... Unfortunatly it appears not a single one of us was in the running. It seems like such a waste

off to the weight loss journey for me now... Bah humbug. Ill pop in and out of here and be stalking. But for now I'm having a break and don't know when I'll be back. good luck everyone xox