LT TTC Two Week Wait 2013 #1

[Greenslw]

Hi All,
I am so unsettled today hope you dont mind a bit of a rant.
I was going to have a really busy day today which would have been great to take my mind off of things but instead I'm stuck in the office and not feeling it today.
I was a sobbing mess last night DF went to be without saying goodnight I'm a big MasterChef fan (sad) and he don't enjoy it so he watches TV in bed and din't even say goodnight before turning in. He was pretty supportive when I was sobbing and just cuddled for ages.
I had a feeling this morning that it was too early for POAS even though it's an "early tester" last time I waited for the day before. I thought about not doing it but with the silly crying I though "I must be" and then the big let down now means I feel worse.
I keep going through the worst case scenario in my head as I normally do to make sure I can handle it. Don't get me wrong I am so greatful for DS he is a joy but when I think about this being it, no more FE no more trying DF feels he's too old and I'm not going to force him, I feel so sad.
I just wish we could know from day dot, yep or nope.
I almost caved and had a coffee to but didn't just in case. Not a good day in my world.

[mummy2tje]

Hi All,
I am so unsettled today hope you dont mind a bit of a rant.
I was going to have a really busy day today which would have been great to take my mind off of things but instead I'm stuck in the office and not feeling it today.
I was a sobbing mess last night DF went to be without saying goodnight I'm a big MasterChef fan (sad) and he don't enjoy it so he watches TV in bed and din't even say goodnight before turning in. He was pretty supportive when I was sobbing and just cuddled for ages.
I had a feeling this morning that it was too early for POAS even though it's an "early tester" last time I waited for the day before. I thought about not doing it but with the silly crying I though "I must be" and then the big let down now means I feel worse.
I keep going through the worst case scenario in my head as I normally do to make sure I can handle it. Don't get me wrong I am so greatful for DS he is a joy but when I think about this being it, no more FE no more trying DF feels he's too old and I'm not going to force him, I feel so sad.
I just wish we could know from day dot, yep or nope.
I almost caved and had a coffee to but didn't just in case. Not a good day in my world.

Oh honey, I am so sorry you have had such a ****ty day. I wish I could give you a big hug. I had a really bad day too, I'm struggling really bad with the last few days of my 2WW. I wish I could say something to make you feel better and while you love DS with all your heart that doesn't stop your heart from wanting another.
Please know that I am thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon xo

[me4ever]

Sending everyone hugs - seems like they're needed! I'm keeping my fingers crossed that there will be some more BFP's in here before the month is over.

Thanks Kerbear and Keta!

I just got the call from the clinic, I'm officially pregnant - HCG is 150, they're a bit worried about the progesterone levels as they're a bit low, I need to go back on pessaries, 1 a day. I'm still very worried that it's not going to last, but time will tell and I will take it day by day. I will be stalking you! Thanks for the company in the last weeks! xx