Hi N2L I hear you and at one stage I felt the same. I went through 2 IUI's 4 stim cycles and 9 frozen transfers and lets no forget every test under the sun. If someone had told me that I would have to go through all that to hold baby "G" I would have taken it in a heart beat. The journey though is tough and not always fair it tests our resolve but it always makes us stronger. I get the feeling from what you wrote that you won't give up. I was pretty much the same I always had faith and I always believed I'd be a mum. Just for my sanity though I also had a plan
B buried deep inside me.
I think you should start this as a discussion thread for the long timers as the thoughts and feelings are quiet different.
I was talking to a friend yesterday and mentioned we are doing ivf the first thing she said was are you excited ? uuumm no because that doesn't mean i'll actually end up with a baby, its not exciting to me, actually its terrifying but the average person doesn't understand that.
I don't know how you give up on the dream and walk away, i know im not there yet, i can only hope when the time comes i will be able to do it, for us the last 7 years have been about ttc, we had fertility problems from the word go and i think it would be very hard to get out of that mentality of knowing where you are in your cycle and maybe just you *could* be in with a chance, i don't know how you switch that off.
Terry: i get what you are saying and for those who get the baby it makes it all worth while but for those who don't it must be very hard to deal with going through all that and ending up with nothing. I don't have a plan B, maybe i should think of one......
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