Hi N2L I hear you and at one stage I felt the same. I went through 2 IUI's 4 stim cycles and 9 frozen transfers and lets no forget every test under the sun. If someone had told me that I would have to go through all that to hold baby "G" I would have taken it in a heart beat. The journey though is tough and not always fair it tests our resolve but it always makes us stronger. I get the feeling from what you wrote that you won't give up. I was pretty much the same I always had faith and I always believed I'd be a mum. Just for my sanity though I also had a plan
B buried deep inside me.

I think you should start this as a discussion thread for the long timers as the thoughts and feelings are quiet different.