Oh my god TRISH! I missed that!!!!!! That is fantastic news sweetheart!

I caved and POAS today. I am 14 DP IUI and it was a clear negative. I will have the beta as matter of going throught the motions, but wont sweat the result. In a way its good to be able to put it to bed and move on for the xmas break.

We will take a break of sorts again now, with an indefinite timeframe, and see how we go. I prepared myself better this cycle I think, and have expected this result all week - have had my usual AF symptoms so was pretty sure of a negative.

It still hurts, but it serves to make me more grateful for the miracle I have, its not fair to grieve for a child that may never exist, if it affects the delight that does. I have a lot to think about. All the best to you all.