Oh Shan...don't you hate that, I had similar at Easter except I got fake positive that disappeared and I was not a happy camper at all

Danni - how did the appointment go today? be interested in how you go as I will be going through mivf at the freemasons when I start

Chookie - how is the new job going?

Cherie, Alex and Janee - still sending lots of

Big Hi to everyone else, I am finding it hard to keep up with everyone lately, imagine if I was in a bigger thread my head wouldn't cope

I am having one of my sick of this days, I am sure you all know the one. I have terrible anxiety and just want to hide under a rock. I think a holiday is in order, I have had absolutely everything on hold waiting to get pg and then waiting to go on IVF and I am really sick of it. To make matters worse I have uni in 20 minutes (virtual class thank goodness) and I just want to sit down and have a good old knit - the sign I am completely stressed out is when the knitting comes out.

I am half tempted to have a vent but its kind of not a vent. I know we all talk about breaking down in tears and having a bad day but does anyone do the opposite and go into denial/disinterest. I went to see a friend and their new baby the other night and didn't even want to hold it, I am at the point where I have lost interest in everything but not to the point where I want to break down just total disinterest. It is very hard to explain. But when I do think about things I don't want to cry, I just feel sick and anxious.

I hope everyone is going along well. I would be interested if you guys get like this, perhaps it is just part of the rollercoaster effect?