Hi there lovely ladies. I am definitely more of a stalker than a poster these days as I wrangle my two beautiful little girls who I am eternally grateful to be mummy to. It took DH and I 8 long years to get our forever babies and, over time, I felt myself getting more and more numb towards the whole process in an effort to protect against disappointment after disappointment and more and more heartbreak. Throughout my pregnancy, I could never let myself believe that there were going to be babies at the end of it because we were just so conditioned to expect the worst, then when our girls did arrive, life was so full-on and chaotic which was to be expected with newborn twins. Now that life is more manageable, I have been reflecting on things a lot lately, and I'm coming to realise that I still carry a lot of this numbness around and have internalised a whole heap of feelings but because a lot of me is still numb, I can't get past them. I'm just wondering if post traumatic stress is possible after long term ttc and if anyone else has experienced anything like this? And how they coped with it. I don't think anger is the word for it but there are just so many repressed feelings that I have and I don't know how to deal with them. Thoughts/experiences, anyone?

TIA