Hugs to all

Miss B your comments are exactly what I feel. Yes I long for a child but more for my DD than for me I too worry that she wont have anyone when we are not around. I make sure she spends as much time as possible with her little cousins as they will be the closets thing she has to a sibling. Don't give up hope I conceived DD at 43 yes I know I went through heaps but sometimes age doesn't matter what matters is finding the right little egg that will stick.

I am seriously thinking of seeing someone to talk about how I feel at this stage apart from this forum I haven't espressed my longing and I just bury it deep down. I don't want to wake up one day and have it hit me like a tonne of bricks