LTTTC Two Week Wait #1

[Kashby]

Hi all. Had ET today, one 2d embie on board. Have been trying to do all the right things. Have been ordered to get on the couch and stay on it while DH makes dinner because 'You are pregnant'! Hehe. Will enjoy it while it lasts

I know this is a clueless question, but how do you figure out when AF due?

[kerbear]

Well done on your embie on board.

I had the same question yesterday and n2l explained it well to me in one of her posts back. I know if I try to re write it I will get it wrong lol.

Missb and marushka- thanks that puts me a bit at ease, I am so hoping that's what it is, I am an emotional wreck this week, burst into tears yesterday and DH asked what's wrong all I could say is I don't know it's just all to much, it came out of no where. Today I just feel like its all over and I am not pregnant :-(

Sorry needed a bit of a vent.

Hope you are all coping a bit better than me in the tww.

[Maruschke]

Hi all. Had ET today, one 2d embie on board. Have been trying to do all the right things. Have been ordered to get on the couch and stay on it while DH makes dinner because 'You are pregnant'! Hehe. Will enjoy it while it lasts

I know this is a clueless question, but how do you figure out when AF due?

AF is due in 13 days (so what would be 15 days past EPU).

[nothing2lose]

Kashby, it actually depends on your usual luteal phase. Simply treat egg pickup as ovulation day, then add your normal luteal phase.

[Kashby]

Thanks N2L, Kerbear and Maruschke.

Kerbear, big hug for each day of this teary week - so hard when nothing is wrong but everything is wrong at the same time Also so hard to stay positive. But, it ain't over til it is over and you are oh so still in the race! And those who know say the cramps are good.....hang in there

[thirdtimelucky77]

Hey Kerbear,

I'm the same as Miss B and M - lots of AF like cramping and lower back pain on my left side, started 2 days post transfer and still have it now, but it seems to have eased a bit this week.

I found it was worse when I was standing on my feet, but was still there when I was sitting down.

Good luck Fx it's a burrowing embie as Miss B says

X

[Meg76]

Congratulation RhiChichi, that is wonderful news. Fingers crossed everything goes smoothly from here. You deserve it. xxx

Hi to everyone else.

AFM- I've tested again this morning and still glaringly negative. I swear, those stupid sticks mock me with how negative they are. AF is due today and I'm going in tomorow for BT. Just want to get it over with so I can get off this Clexane- my stomach is so bruised from those horrendous syringes. We are really unsure as to where to go from here. This is our 7th transfer with 8 embryos transferred in total and we are so frustrated. The whole way along we've been assured that we will get pregnant but guess what? Still not effing pregnant!! We have good quality embryos, I've had the endometriosis cleaned up, I'm only borderline for treatment of NK cells but we're doing it anyway and I'm on Clexane just as an added extra. What on earth is going on?? I'm really starting to think there must be a chromosomal issue. DH has had a gutfull and wants to go back to the FS and demand answers. I understand that this is such an inexact science but we are really starting to struggle and need to know where we stand. I've said this before, but part of me wishes that I could graciously walk away and start focussing on living our lives but I still can't bear the thought of not being a mother. I physically ache to hold my baby.

Sorry for the depressing post, girls but I know that you guys understand what this is like.

Much love,

M.x

[Joeve]

Meg oh no sorry bfn. I hear you about them mocking you.

[nothing2lose]

Meg, I am so sorry

Like you I have had a lot of transfers - nine embryos all up. It's so frustrating. You feel like you are the only one IVF doesn't work for. And it sucks.

But there are a couple of things to remember.

The first might not be comforting in a way but might help in another way. You are not alone. IVF doesn't work for everyone within the first few tries. I recently sat in my FS rooms in tears because I was ready to give up. She said not to even think about giving up before 14 embryos have been transferred. You are a long way off that.

The thing about IVF failure is you don't hear that much about it. People are much more vocal about their success. So, for those of us who struggle with repeated BFNs, it compounds our sense of failure and hopelessness.

I can't say it will happen for you - or me. But I can say, don't give up yet. You are not alone. We will keep fighting this together.

Take care x

[Meg76]

Thanks N2L, I know that now is not the time to make decisions and we need to talk to the FS. I have been wondering what the threshold is for determining repeated IVF failure. If it is 14, do you know if is it at that point that they recommend PGD? I'm with IVF Australia and they offer something they call Advanced Embryo Selection but it is an additional $3000 which isn't covered at all by Medicare or health funds. The financial side of all this is starting to become an issue too. I've gone back to uni and I'm only working part-time and DH works in not-for-profit so isn't on big money. There's only so long we can keep this up.

Thank you for your support- I really do appreciate it. You too, Joeve.

M.x

[Keeks]

RCC- congrats to you and dh on the BFP!!

Meg76- I dont understand wholly what you feel like, but I understand how it feels to be at the crossroads and not knowing which way to go. I guess it all comes down to whether or not you'll have any regrets if you don't try once or twice more. Hang in there.

Afm- I worked up the courage and POAS. Faint BFP. Will test again tmw. Could swear that AF is at the doorstep, but nothing so far. 10dp5dt today

[Keta]

Meg I'm so sorry it wasnt a bfp. That really sucks! Sending you loads of hugs my sweet.

N2L - I tried to give you a rep point because that was such a nice post. I think your great!

[nothing2lose]

I'm with Melbourne IVF. Apparently 14 is when they say you should start thinking about donors, etc. They don't force you to stop or anything, and my FS said there are those who have success after 14.
I asked her about PGD. She said it was a waste of time (for me). But then I am 40, so 90 per cent of my eggs are rubbish anyway Maybe you should ask your clinic???

I know what you mean about the money. I have had five Stims and two FETs with no health insurance. It sure adds up

Eta: naaawww Keta. You just made my day! Thank you x

[Meg76]

Thanks Keta and Keeks. xxx

Keeks- that sounds like a positive to me! When is your blood test?

[Joeve]

Keeks yay!!! A quite yay but nevertheless.
Meg hang in there chick .
N2L you are a wise woman and we all think you are a bit cool x

[kerbear]

Keeks it's looking positive for you hope that line gets darker.

Meg I hear you, I have only had the one ivf but we have done 6 iui's as well and every bfn is crushing. I just wish there wasn't such a financial issue that goes with it because at least then we know we could keep trying until it works.

Well I am a complete mess today AF arrived this morning a week early and has me doubled over in pain. I am so upset, we have no frosties so it is a full cycle again but I am having a couple of months off. Going to hit the gym and try and lose a heap of weight before we try again.
As much as I want a baby and want to keep trying straight away I just emotionally can't do this at the moment.

I am going to have a break from here for a while as well, I need to just have some me time and get my head straight. I will sneak in from time to time to see how you are all doing.

Thank you all so much for all you support and answering my questions, you have all helped me get through with a bit more sanity.

Good luck everyone and sticky vibes for all you wonderful strong ladies xo

[Meg76]

Oh, Kerbear. I am so so sorry. xxx

[Mich8]

Meg and Kerbear - sooooooo sorry.
Good luck with the weight loss Kerbear, we'll miss you til you return