LTTTC Two Week Wait 2010 #2

Trueblue and Ahurani, I'm sorry girls X Huggs X
Don't loose sight of your dream, I know it's a tough long road, but we are all here to help you travel it X

Trueblue and Ahurani....girls I am soooo sorry. You must be feeling that heavy weight in your chest when your pain and disappointment is just so heavy and tangible. I'm thinking about you both and sending a cyberhug.

mumtobe - DH and I are the same. we also like to do stuff together (well you would with your best friend wouldn't you!) so we'll do an HPT too .... just can't decide which day yet.

Kass - I had a +ve and no real symptoms prior to BT or HPT...no sore boobs, nausea, spotting, pains downbelow nothing. I did get constant nausea virtually from when we got result though, but sadly there was no heartbeat at scan.

minime - I'm thinking it's the volume you're having to put in. I'm putting one in morning and night and don't notice too much leakage. I wear a panty liner and that solves any issues. TMI maybe, but I assume you're pushing them relatively far ... (whispered - I go forefinger deep)

AFM - well I have had the usual +ve -ve rollercoaster...the stress kicked in a bit the last couple of days, short tempered with DH. Socialised and played cards with friends last night which was good fun and took my mind off it. Also went to Eumundi markets during the day which was great as usual. Had acupuncture today which is awesome, fell asleep twice on the table, and back to work tomorrow. That's a week down.... one to go.

Sticky dust to everyone, and fingers crossed x

Just a quick one -
Managed to score an ear infection now, certainly keeping my mind of this 2WW!!
Trueblue and Ahurani,
I am so sorry it doesn't appear that this month is your month. I feel for you and hope you are OK

Kass - my one and only BFP, I had to be called into have the BT two days after I was initially due to go in, I was so used to having failures and had no symptoms whatsoever. The hard part of this process is you will find lots of BFP's with lots of cramping and some bleeding, then many more BFP's with no symptoms whatsoever. I am thinking of you and your BT tomorrow - hoping you are the start of our BFP's :)
Thinking of all you lovely ladies and hope to see BFP's in here soon

Trueblue and Ahurani - I'm so sorry for your bad results. Good luck with the next steps in your conception journeys. True, from your symptoms I could have sworn it was your turn... hopefully next time.

Mum-2-Be - Yay, BT buddies!! Yeah, I have to put 2 in the morning and 2 at night. I try to get up an hour early in the morning and then go back to bed for an hour and its not too bad, but I wear a full pad all day. Hope you are enjoying your cruising, try to keep the -ve's to a minimum!

Kass - My nurse said that I wasn't supposed to have any symptoms until at least after the BT. So it could be a good sign!

Airline - lol! I think I am putting them in far enough, but I think I prefer the applicator that comes with crinone, at least I know its getting up there! Hope you don't get too stressed!! It sounds like you have had a calming couple of days.

AFM - Lying down now, trying not to leak. No symptoms... While I was watching my soccer team play today (U13s), I thought I had started bleeding and had a freak out, but it turned out to be nothing. At least stressing out about the crappy referee kept my mind off things for awhile.

Hope you all have a good night!!!

Trueblue and Ahurani - I'm terribly sorry that it didn't work this cycle. Really hope it works for you both soon. As Murraycod said, its not an easy journey, but hopefully we can help each other through it --> :grouphug:

Airline ~ It has been years since I have been to the Eumundi markets!! Probably the last time I went (2 1/2 years ago) I bought our wedding album there - it is a beautiful solid wood album! And your right ~ DH should be our best friend and therefore the one we want to share everything with! I think that's why some relationships thrive and others falter ... Are you in Brissie or the Sunshine Coast?

Minime ~ hope the TWW is treating you well (except for the leakage)!! Only a long weekend is in the way of finding out our future!! Do you have anything planned?

Kass ~ 11 June 2010
Minime ~ 15 June 2010
Mum2be ~ 15 June 2010
Airline ~ 18 June 2010 (HPT on 16th or 17th!!)
Lairdoz ~ 21 June 2010
Terry ~ ???

Morning ladies did a massive post then lost it

Anyway I'll do a few personals again

True so sorry that this was not your month. Glad to hear that you are dealing with it its important to have a good cry before you can move on. Hopefully the next attempt will be the one for you

Kass fingers crossed you get a BFP today and start the ball rolling

Lairdoz looks like you and I are in this together for the next two weeks. Hope your holding up ok

Minime hope you have managed to calm yourself down. Its not enough that we have to deal with trying to have a baby but we also get thrown curve balls along the way

AFM my Bt is scheduled for 22 June have been having a few headaches think its the side effects of the estrogen and progestrone combination other than that am travelling ok. Its always easier for me the first week as all I can do is pray that the little embie is still dividing inside me its the second week that I start to feel the strain

I may be back in here in a few weeks time the nurse called and was definately a bfn :( but looks like we'll be booked in for a july insemination so we might be going straight onto injections and nasal spray she's calling back later with dates and stuff hopefully this time no cysts..
Thanks again girls and goodluck everyone else hope at leats one of you if not all get a bfp

:bfn:


disappointed, but not surprised.

kass oh massive big cyber hug. I am so sorry about your result. I hope you get some decent sleep tonight, so sorry x

Kass - Just wanted to say sorry to hear your news - hope you are OK.

Hope you lovely ladies have a fabulous long weekend and that it goes quickly.
xxx

Trueblue, Kass, Ahurani - so sorry that you missed out this month. :comfort:

MiniMe - had a giggle when I heard you talking about leakage. OMG I hated the prog pessaries, I'd do the morning one at about 4:30am and not get out of bed for 2hrs after that to try to give it the best chance of staying up there! I also found that depending on what I was sitting on (my suede couch for example), even though wearing undies and pants/shorts/skirt I would leave an oily residue behind (gross! so sorry if TMI). I guess panty liners would be the only way to combat the leakage. Good luck!!

Good luck to all you strong ladies with your upcoming BTs, we need more of you in the Preg after LTTTC forum. :crossfingers:

Chrissy xx

Thanks for all of your support, I'm ok, just feeling a bit flat. All going well I'll be back here in a few weeks - eventually it has to work! :wall:
:crossfingers: the bad luck is over and some positives start coming through!

Kass - I'm glad you popped back to let us know how you are...take care.
mum2be - I love all markets and we always take any visitors to Eumundi. I live Brissy, northside, you?
Lairdoz - how's your ear?I had a slight infection last year ... and OMG how sore was that!?
minime - how you travelling this weekend?

It's pretty quiet in here which is a good thing, means hopefully people are doing stuff that will help take their mind off this 2ww.

afm - I've been ok, it always gets harder as time goes on. You wonder just how much time, energy and emotion you're possibly wasting if it's all for nothing, then you push it from your mind get distracted but it creeps back. Had a busy night at work so that certainly stops me from thinking about it. My friend is coming with her twins on Monday, so having talked to DH I suspect that we'll do a HPT on Tue 15th...and even though Fri is 2 weeks, I can't wait over a weekend for a BT result so I'm just going to my GP and getting one done on Thursday, so as to get results on Fri.

I feel the same as my 3 stim cycles. No side effects. I remember clearly last time saying to DH before we got the positive result that 'this could go either way'. .. and I feel that way again. I'm sitting in bed awaiting for pessary to do its thing....but soon I'll have to get up and cook up lamb shanks for dinner and deal with my furbabies too.

take care everyone x

Kass so sorry to hear about your result your so right though your time will come

Airline I hope that you thinking it could go either way is a postive thing for you. I too think I might test next weekend with DH and no wait till my Tuesday BT. Enjoy those lamb shanks

AFM been keeping busy this weekend which is a good thing. Going out with friends tonight then movies tomorrow with DH. Really haven't had any symptoms which is ok cause every other cycle I seem to imagine things happening. I did have some mild cramping really low down on the left side yesterday and my breasts are difinately feeling quite heavy I've put that down to all the medication

well girls..if anyone happens to pop in, i need to vent. i had a bad bad night at work. i've woken up with more spots on my nose so look like i feel which is rubbish. feel very low, maybe pmt??
i have this reoccurring situation at work that all the people that i work alongside find difficult to understand and deal with professionally sometimes, inc myself, but i hold a higher position so have to set example. as my name implies i work for an airline. virtually every flight and i am not exaggerating in any way shape or form because often there's more than one per flight, we have a grandmother who is from another country, generally speaks no english who requires assistance as she is taking back to the home country an infant. the scenario is the same and repeated day after day, the parents are students here, they know it's free to have a baby (aren't they the lucky ones - while the rest of us pay through the nose) and then they say (cos we have asked in a friendly way, 'how can you send your little one away???') 'oh it is too much to study and work and look after the baby.'!!!!!!!! some of these little ones are only 8 weeks old!!!!!!!!!! Even those members of staff I work alongside who are also from this country say to us it's terrible and they are being honest not just playing lip service (trust me the discussion about it happening occurs all the time) they say it's not cultural (normally the whole family helps bring them up INC. the parents) or religious.

sooo for someone in my position who is so desperate to carry, hold and raise my own child and trying to find money to pay for all that and getting to that point in the first place...this is soo difficult to watch play out every night.

ok vent over sorry everyone,but the last 24 hours have been the 2ww slapping me in the face.

Hey airline...
That really sucks. Who would have a child if they couldn't be bothered raising them in the most critical time of their development? I feel for you, having to be exposed to this, especially considering your circumstances. If I had an 8 week old child, I would have great difficulty letting him/her out of my sight even for a minute. It just doesn't make sense.
At the moment, I am feeling really stupid. I played soccer yesterday. Half my team emailed to say they couldn't play and we would have had to play with 7 (against 15) or forfeit. I had to go to the game because I am manager and captain, and so, when I got there I couldn't help but play. I'm trying to justify to myself that people wouldn't know they were pregnant at this stage and would go out and play soccer anyway and they still manage to have children, but I just feel so guilty. I didn't get hit in the stomach (got hit in the hip once as I turned away), but I have been cramping a bit ever since and there was a very very small bit of very light brown discharge on the pad I was wearing. It was also pretty cold because the game was at 3pm so I don't think my body temp got too high (although I was sweating). I don't know, can you guys tell me honestly what you think? Am I really stupid? I guess I was feeling really negative that I was sure the IVF didn't work and so I thought it wouldn't matter if I played, but now, if I have jeopardised my chances, I won't be able to live with it. BT tomorrow morning, I guess at least something will be revealed.
Sorry I don't really feel up for personals this morning, but I really am thinking of all of you and wishing you the best. Don't be as stupid as me!

Airline - I know and understand how hard this LTTC life is and I am sorry you have to go through something which seems so hurtful and selfish at a time we would all give everything to hold our own child in our arms and never let it go. I can entirely appreciate this must seem really selfish, but if it gives you some comfort, I don't imagine for a second that they don't miss their babies every day, but want to give what they perceive the best start in life to be because they are so far away from their families. I am sure they would swap with us the ability to have their family and home life in the same country in a heartbeat. I am so sorry you have to experience this though as that would hurt.
Minime - don't worry for a second. I know it's soooo hard not to, but you are living your life, which is entirely normal. It takes a lot for us ladies to get pregnant, but in reverse, once you are pregnant, it is relatively hard not to be! Try to relax and thinking of you for tomorrow!
xxx

Just wanted to wish you all the best of luck as you get through the wait- so sorry some situations can be so hard to handle.

minime- dont worry...most women have no idea at such an early stage they are pregnant

i am in a natural TWW, which brings so much less pressure

Just dropping by to give Airline, and all the girls here a huge hugg.
I understand how stressfull all this TTC is, there are so many life situations that seem to crop up all of the time to give us a slap in the face. Some days I found it hard to get out of bed, I had been told not to completely revolve my life around having a baby, but how can anyone say that, if they only knew, how impossible that was. To forget, or to relax.
Girls hang in there, you are all being so strong and doing this with more grace and dignity anyone can ask.
Love to you all XXXXX

Hi everyone
thanks for words of support, that's what makes this forum soo great. My day is was fine, the twins cute of course and my friend didn't ask about my situation at present which was good cos only 2 close friends know about this particular FET.

Minime - thanks for your response...I just needed to vent. I'd literally woken up feeling rubbish, popped in gross pessary and tapped away on the laptop in bed. I think it enabled me to get up and get on with the day. As far as your soccor I think you'll be fine. My FS is very matter of fact. He says think of all the mums who have kids already that they're lifting, carrying, playing with etc. He says it's also very difficult to overheat your body and get the core temp too high. He said I could exercise no problem at all.

Lairdoz - you're right of course I know they want to better themselves which in turn will one day impact their kids, but honestly, I've never seen a tear shed not one, and when I say there are probably on average 7 a week leaving on our airline at Bne airport alone....that's crazy numbers! But thank you x

Possoms - hello hello, haven't seen you for a long time. Hope this 2ww is as easy as it can be for you m'dear.

Murraycod - thanks for popping in and right backatya with the cyber hug.

me...I'm off again to work. Wish me luck, and I pray there are no wee infants leaving tonight without their mummy and daddy.
ps anyone really really over the pessarys?? I reckon I could make a candle outta all that stuff that just seems to 'not get absorbed'!!

Airline - I hope you don't see anymore babies tonight without their parents - you deserve a break from that!! I used to think pessaries were OK (I didn't have any side effects apart from the obvious leakage which as you point out is a bit excessive!), but the last cycle and this one they have made me really tired. Last cycle I thought I was pregnant I was so tired, but this time around I know better!

Possums - It would be great to see a natural BFP in here, so I will be thinking of you and hoping this one is the one for you.

Minime - GL and FX tomorrow xxx

Mum-2-be, Kass and Terry (and anyone else I have missed or who is lurking on this 2WW journey) I hope you all had a great long weekend if you were in the East.

AFM - Nothing to report, can't say I have had any cramping (I don't normally) and just been crazy tired which seems to be caused by the pessaries or the fact my body has had enough of all the hormones I have been pumping in month after month.

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ps anyone really really over the pessarys?? I reckon I could make a candle outta all that stuff that just seems to 'not get absorbed'!!

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Airline - I so get this!!! I am really really over them. This afternoon I decided to lie in bed for an hour after taking them, fell asleep and now I have to finish all my marking before I go to bed... grrr.. It just takes so much time out of my day! And I have a cold. When I sneeze, it all comes back out again! Yuk! Not to mention when I stand up I have to rush to the bathroom... which is kind of hard to do as our bathroom is being renovated and the toilet is in the laundry in the backyard... grrr!!!
Hope work is ok for you tonight. I understand the need to vent, I do it ALL the time!! My DH is over me! Thanks also for your kind words.

Lairdoz - Thanks for your supporting words earlier, you really put my mind at ease. You're the best!!

Possums - Good luck with your natural BFP!!

Mum-2-Be - Not long now!!!! Good luck, I'm hoping June 15th is a really lucky day for both of us!!

Terry - hope those mild symptoms are good news!!

As for everyone else waiting... have fun!! Hope it is worth it for all of you!

Hi ladies

Firstly wanted to wish both Minime & Mum2be the best of luck with their blood tests today. Lets hope that the 2 of you get the BFP ball rolling. Minime as everyone lese has said I don't think the soccer game would have made any difference.

Airline I completly understand how you feel when you see little babies without their parents. Somehow it just doesn't seem fair but at least they are trying to keep their kids safe and give them hopefully a better start in life. I know its had to watch when you want a child so much yourself. I too get upset seeing little kids not dressed well or reading articles in the paper about how 2 parents a day bash their children. Just try to hold onto the thoughts of knowing how much you want your child and what you have been through it have it.

Lairdoz hope you have made it through the first week ok and are ready and positive to tackle the countdown.

AFM had a pretty busy weekend and managed not to think about my situation too much. One week down and another to go this is where I normally start to go slightly insane but I have managed to make my weeknights busy so I don't stay home and think apart from tonight DH is home so that's ok. Once again no symptoms to report but hoping that's good cause each other time I've felt things and it hasn't worked.

My hcg is 1160 :leap:

:bfp:!! Oh, all my dreams have come true!!

WOW!! How am I supposed to work now????


BT List

Mum2be ~ 15 June 2010 --> BFP!!
Minime ~ 15 June 2010
Airline ~ 18 June 2010 (HPT on 16th or 17th!!)
Lairdoz ~ 21 June 2010
Terry ~ 22 June 2010

Hi ladies

Mum-2-be ~ excellent news hun! So :happyforyou:. All the best for a H&H pregnancy

I did HPT last night CD34, which was BFN :cry:
Im gunna take a break from BB and even TTC until we do our next IVF/ICSI cycle, probably in Oct. I know its pretty negative but Im not going to TTC naturally gunna give up and just hope that by not thinking about it we may get a surprise natural pg. Hoping I can do it.

GL to you all, :pray: for you all.
I'll pop in and check how everyone is going from time to time.
:pink-babydust::bluedust: for you all xoxo

Congratulation Mum to be so happy for you have a happy & healthy 9 months

:dance::dance::dance::happyforyou:

just popped in for a stalk lol woohoo so glad to finally see a bfp in here I was begining to think we'd never have one congrats hope your the start of many i'll keep lurking but otherwise see you all in a few weeks time Loops: hugs chick I know it'll be hard but you know I am here if you have a down moment and that it will hapen for you guys it was so close last time and next time there won't be the stress of the tractor

Congratulations mum2be!!

mum 2 be - fan bloody tastic news!!! Congratulations m'dear. those no.s are awesome!!!!

Good luck to all the lovely ladies left in here....today was 12 days after FET and DH and I just did an HPT, BFN. Just numb right now. No tears just feel like been punched in tummy. will get BT done but it's just for procedure.

good luck everyone xx

:clap: YAY Well done Mum2Be :clap:

congrats Mum2be. sounds like some really high numbers on the hcg. How many DPO is that?

Airline - what I crave most is the baby, not the toddler or older child, definitely wouldn't be me sending an 8 week old, 6 month old off on a plane. For some reason I'm just longing to do the breast feeding thing. Is that weird? ... lol

Terry - now you are really in to the 2WW. The first week seems to be the easy one. Good luck girl.

Loops - sorry to hear about the BFN. big hugs for you. OOOO Will be looking out for you.

Minime - good on you for doing some exercise, some cardio.... giving me the guilts, been a while since I've got the heart pumping. I'd say you did the right thing, the thing is we never know really how much it all effects the result anyway. Sometimes I think we can wrap ourselves up in cotton wool too much. The body needs some good circulation.

Good luck to all – sorry run out of time for more Persies

AFM - didn't really want to join this forum until 7 days into the 2WW but here I am. Tried to delay thinking about it. Hahaha Who am I kidding? So blood test next Fri. 25/6/2010 after FET 2x embryos

Mum-2-Be - Blood test buddy!! Well done!! Congratulations!!
Guess what?!?!? ME TOO!!!!! BFP!!!

I couldn't believe it!!! I was so dumb struck I didn't even hear my HCG number, she said 1000 and something. I think it was either 1080 or 1800 but she said it was high!!

Airline and loops... good luck with everything... you never know what will happen. My mantra on the way to work this morning after my BT was "miracles happen... miracles happen" and I'm sure yours will happen soon.

Airline - I am so sorry to hear about your BFN, it's such a hard road some of us have to take to get our miracles. I know it won't be much comfort, but we are here for you in spirit, and having felt the pain, I know how hard it can be.

Loops, again to you I wish some peace and break from this LTTC life for a bit. Hoping this gives you the space you need to realise how amazing life can be when you don't have to think about this awfulness all the time xxxx

Mum2be and Minime - congratulations!!:dance::clap::dance::clap::dance: :clap:
That is amazing news!!! I hope you both have a happy and healthy pregnancy. How many DPO are you guys, those are some very high HCG levels so assuming it's either way past 14dpo OR you are having twins!!!!

Hi Lairdoz,

I am 18dpo13dpt. So no twins!! I'm having another progesterone check on Friday (at my request) so I will check the actual number again. I wasn't really listening by the time she got to that point!!

congratulations minime and mum2be!!! woohoo

MiniMe ~ Congrats hun, all the best for the next 9 months.

Airline ~ So sorry hun, couldnt it be too early still though. All the best for now and the future, we'll get our turn! Hugs

Thanks so much ladies, appreciate your care and support. Thanks timeforafamily and GL to you, FX
Lairdoz ~ Means a lot hun, take care and wishing you all the best xo

xoxo Group hugs

Minime ~ Congratulations BT buddie!! That's fabulous news!!:leap: :happyforyou: How many embies did you transfer?

Loops ~ sorry it didn't work for you this month. I definately think that the less stress you put yourself under the more chance you have of conceiving ... GL

Lairdoz ~ Thanks!! I am 18 DPO / 15 DPT. I had 2 embies put back in, so will have to wait for the scan to see if 1 or 2 took!! My hcg is 1160, so it could be 1 or 2!!

Airline ~ I'm sorry it didn't work for you this round. :pray: it works REALLY soon.

timeforafamily ~ Hello and thanks!! I'm 18 dpo! I'll add your BT to the list! Best of luck!

Thanks everyone else for the well wishes!!

AFM ~ haven't done too much at work today at all!! Just sooo excited!! With the great news I went out and bought a lotto ticket - $30 mil tonight!! Thought my luck just may continue!! Otherwise, a few cramps / pains still and every now and then a little nauseous, but otherwise no other symtoms.

BT List

Mum2be ~ 15 June 2010 --> BFP!!
Minime ~ 15 June 2010 --> BFP!!
Lairdoz ~ 21 June 2010
Terry ~ 22 June 2010
timeforafamily ~ 25 June 2010

:dance: Yay for Minime too. :clap:

Maybe you guys are setting a trend

Congratulations Mum2be and Minime!! I'm so thrilled to see two BFPs on one day!! :confetti:

timeforafamily - good luck..it's hard to stay away from here forever!

minime - h u g e congrats on your BFP wonderful wonderful news xx
lairdoz and loops - ladies thanks for walking hand in hand again down this road. i do hope one day i pop back in and the 2ww is empty because everyone is successfully achieving their dreams.
i am gonna have BT on Thursday for closure then I have 2 frozen left....so we may get 1 or 2 or maybe no chances of an FET. Then DH and I would need to sit down and work
out how long and how much we can afford to keep going. I don't want the majority of my wonderful marriage and relationship to be a constant emotional struggle, and so far it's just under half the time we've been together already. I have been ready for about a decade to have children, but the first 3 yrs was with the wrong person. There's always a bit of hope.

Again congrats to those gorgeous ladies who are beaming with excitement...you deserve it girlies xx