thanks keta and everyone

I'm sure I'm out
it sucks totally

GL Keta - I'm with you on the dream drawer issue - I have a couple of things picked up over the years - but usually things that I haven't specifically bought for that purpose. I too worry about the jinxing issue.... clear from my lack of POASing

tomorrow starts my new life - without IVF for now (unless there is some miraculous weird thing going on)
I will still be in the ltttc threads - cause we will still be doing the natural thing - but I just can't keep trying without knowing my health is at the best level it can be - otherwise it just seems like more and more waste of money.....