LTTTC Two Week Wait 2012 # 5

[Miss.B]

Jane, thanks hunni

Kerbear, I hope it's the pain from the ab crunches too! FX hun x

Mrs Mac, don't let me jump over that computer screen and give you a wee slap! lol. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too early to give up hun, it's only been 1 day!!!! Poor little embie is probably just getting into a comfy spot

[thirdtimelucky77]

Sneaking in to say how sorry i am MissB.

Hang in there.... And hoping that just around the corner is the bfp your hoping for and so deserve.

X

[Ree*Ree]

MrsMac - ditto to what MissB said, lol! Fingers and toes tightly crossed for you hun

MissB sending you many gentle hugs sweet lady

[kerbear]

Mrsmac I agree with the others, I know it's hard but...we read into everything. I was told when we did our last one that it can take a couple of days for it to decide what it's doing and imbed. Crossing my fingers for you.

Well I am out AF arrived this morning. DH is finding it all very hard at the moment, 2 very good friends had babies in the last 2 weeks and I think it is going to take some convincing for him to come see them with me, he doesn't even want to look at the pictures of them. He is finally starting to tell me that he hates everyone else has managed to get pregnant and have their babies and we are still trying. Almost 3 yrs for us :-(((
I want to be selfish and not go see them either cause I am starting to not cope with it but I can't do that to my friends cause they will know why. Argh this all just really stinks at the moment.

Hope you are all doing better than me...I will be back in a couple of weeks on another natural cycle, jumping back to other thread now.

[Mrs Mac]

Thanks ladies for slapping some sense into me, was feeling extremely emotional yesterday, started crying because I had to tell DH to take the garbage out, WTF. I think it has just been a tough month and we both have high hopes for it working this time. An for some reason I feel like its all on me to make it work this time, not that DH ever makes me feel that was just my own stupid emotions.

Kerbear, there is nothing worse than having to put on a brave face at such a tough time, it's funny how we all keep the pain of TTC to our selves and feel like it would be rude of us when we are the ones going through a terrible time. I would advise that you push through if you do care about the friends of yours. I almost lost my Best Friend years ago when she fell pregnant and I didn't, we both played a part in not speaking, me bacsue I was struggling with TTC and her becauee she foud a new circle of friends, we didn't speak for 2 years but thanks to DH we met up and made up and she now knows my situation and I am greatfull things worked out in the end.


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[Porsche]

Hi Ladies

Kerbear - It really is so tough being in your position. Pregnancy announcements and births while they are joyous are really painful for us fertility challenged couples. You are very brave going to see your friends and supporting them. I don't think I could. I still get that jelous, angry feeling whenever friends and family announce their pregnancy. It's not fair that we all have to go through this crap when others find it just so easy to get pregnant and keep their babies. Why them and not us? If I sound bitter it is because I am. I'm a very bitter infertile.

Mrs Mac - Big hugs. Eventually our emotions come through. I'm glad you were able to release some. I tend to bottle things up and then explode over nothing.

Mrs B - Big hugs to you too. I want to act like a 5 year old and jump up and down and shout "It's not FAIR!"

[kerbear]

Thanks porsche and mrs Mac, I don't want to lose my friends, it's not their fault, it's no ones fault even though I do blame myself cause it's my stuff that's broken.
I will keep pushing on and try to forget about it. But I swear if I hear the words 'don't think about it, it will happen when it's meant to' from any of my family and friends I think I will lose it. I just want to scream at them and say you try it and see how you cope!!

Ok enough is enough I am done venting...

Thanks for listening ladies you are the best supports ever :-))

[Jane :)]

Hugs all round.

Life sucks sometimes and this whole journey can be so very draining.

Luckily we have each other we can vent to with out judgement and with the knowing that others know what its really like to walk in our shoes.

[Mrs Mac]

Hi ladies, had a much better day today although there were still tears (way too emotional ATM). I am back at work so it really helped keep my mind of googling the hell out of everything. I have had a killer headache all day though and am just about to hit the sack and hope it goes away. So 2dpt I had a little light cramping today and some sharp pains but am trying not to read too much into it, still hoping its a good sign. XOXO.


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[Miss.B]

Hi ladies,

Thirdtimelucky, I appreciate your beautiful message hun, you truly are an amazing lady. Your support means a lot hun, thank you

Kerbear, I'm sorry AF arrived for you hun, will have everything crossed for your next cycle sweets

Mrs Mac, I'm glad you've had a better day today, chin up and stay positive!

Jane, thanks hunni, I hope all is well with you xx

Porsche, that's exactly how I feel, but I also knew my luck was going to run out eventually! lol.

Ree, thanks sweetheart

Hope everyone in here is doing well

AFM, still plodding along, I thought I saw a little pink spot on my undies today, I think the witch is on her way. Have been cramping on and off all day. CD28 today and my cycle is usually 29-30 days, so AF should be here any day. Just want this BT to be over with and then start a new page.

b xxx

[Mrs Mac]

Oh miss B, nothing worse than just waiting for AF although with a new cycle brings new hope.

AFM- cramping continues today but it's a little different, yesterday it hurt quite a bit and today it's just a really annoying continuous niggling pain. As of yesterday I have given myself only 30min each day to obsess on the Internet otherwise I end up spending half the day looking for symptoms and stories LOL.


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[Miss.B]

Hi ladies,

AF arrived today I knew it would, so at least I've prepared myself for it.

GL to everyone in this 2WW, I hope that you all get your BFP very soon

B xxx

[kerbear]

Missb sorry AF arrived, sending you a big hug

[Joeve]

Miss B hugs xx lots of green dots next cycle x

[Andie78]

sorry miss b. xx

[Porsche]

Big hugs MissB

[Softkitty]

Hi all!

So sorry missb.
Mrs Mac I can relate to being emotional and crying at the drop of a hat. Two nights ago when DH went out I just sobbed for about an hour, feeling sorry for myself. One of the many side effects of the medications I guess!!
ATM I have pretty much ruled myself out. The day after I had really sore bb's it practically disappeared. It seemed a bit strange to get sore bb over a week after starting the crinone, as I would have expected it within a few days. This got my hopes up, but was quickly dashed the next day. I stupidly find myself gropping myself to see if they are sore at all, and they are still a little. Has anyone had just random sore bb not related to starting meds?
Feeling some cramping on and off over the last few days, which seems a bit late to be implantation, as my blood test is tomorrow (Friday the 13th aarrgghhhhh!). I'm a bit concerned if it is the start of af, as the crinone should be stopping it from coming
It's stupid. I keep going over in my head how the conversation might go with my fs it my beta is positive, all the while I know what he will say as I have heard it so many times before "I'm sorry sweetie, but it was negative. I know it sucks.... Blah blah blah"
Sorry to post all about me tonight, but I'm going a bit mad.
Whilst I haven't posted much in the last few days, I'm always reading all your posts while DH isnt watching. Good luck to everyone else!!!

[myturn]

... the crinone should be stopping it from coming

I thought the same thing.... but apparantly that's not true.... Crinone doesn't stop it at all..... (I checked with my nurse to make sure...)

on the other hand.... I have personally found that the Pregnyl (when taken instead of Crinone) does hold off AF for a bit longer..... but... the evil witch arrives eventually... just to mess with my head for a few extra days....

hope DH gives you a big hug when he comes home after you have been a bit 'messy'.....