LTTTC Two Week Wait # 7

**Yogi Bear** · July 28th, 2011, 02:42 PM

Hi

Bianeczka

its never ever easy getting a negative result, whether it be your first or last attempt...it just SUCKS!! Take time away from ttc and be extra kind to each other, its amazing how a little time & space can re-energise us to push forward on this crappy journey! Thinking of you & we are here anytime xxx

Sending out big hugs to you all for your kind words & support

I'm feeling a bit better today, but have been having terrible trouble sleeping these last few nights...thoughts going round & round, mainly sad for the years we have 'lost' through all this. I feel like we have just been surviving life and not really living life. Then i worry about the future and the new path we are thinking of embarking on, what if we fail at that too??! Maybe we are better off NOT being parents?
Jeazzz its hard, how do you know what the do? We need to actively make a decision to stop ivf treatment as it is impossible for us to fall naturally...how do we know if its the right decision? So many questions going on in me head at the moment, and yeah i know i know i am still in with a chance with this cycle but i've had just as many positives as negatives and i know my body too well now....i'm pretty sure am not pregnant this time

Saffy, the cramping sounds reallllllyyy promising!!! I hope this is it for you.

kristie, also good signs for you too

have you poas yet? I think i will do the dreaded wee test on saturday morning...i'll be 12dpo and will know for sure by then. THat way i can have some drinky poos on sat night and feel like a 'normal' person again!! my bt is monday.

Look after yourselves everyone
Yogi
xxx

**kristie86** · July 28th, 2011, 03:42 PM

Yogi- No i havent poas yet i am leaving it until 2moro morning which will be the day before my bt so that way i will know the result i get 2moro will more then likley be the correct one. I really hope my body isnt playing a trick on me and that whats going on is for the reason i want it to be.

I hope everyone else is not going to crazy in their 2ww. BRING ON THE BFP'S

**Saffy** · July 28th, 2011, 04:31 PM

kristie- I think you are UTD I hope the poas and the BT confirm my suspicions!! And yes, I have started going crazy unfortunately

yogi- glad you are feeling slightly better ( its the best we can hope for under the circumstances).... I know what you mean when you say you know you are not pregnant

unfortunately we know our bodies so well.....I wish someone would look into the future and tell us what to do so it makes decisions easier...big hugs for you hun xx

bianeczka-how are you going hunny?? xx

afm: starting to go slightly crazy, i am so impatient, I'm feeling it could go either way with me so time will tell, don't want to get my hopes up too much cos I don't want the big letdown, only symptoms are cramping at night and v emotional, but I know its too early anyway....my boobs aren't telling me anything either

**kristie86** · July 29th, 2011, 08:19 AM

Well im out girls, woke up this morning to very familiar cramps that i get when Af is coming or here, And i was right that nasty witch has come. POAS anyways and it was a BFN. So i dont know where to go from here, im thinking of swapping clinics as i wasnt very impressed with the one we went to and they were ment to be one of the best in australia, but from the start of stims things didnt go to well i had 60 follicles but only 1 or 2 a decent size and that is how it stayed, They rang me to do the trigger and i questioned why i was even bothering when there was not enough decent follicles, why did they not cancel when they saw i wasnt responding as good as i should. So egg pickup was done and we got 4 eggs2 which fertilized, and went in for a 2day transfer to be told that the egg was very fragmented and only average, again why did they just cancel and not bother, I feel that they went through with the whole process just to get the money at the end, everything was always either average or not going very well so why not cancel and try again using another protocol instead they made us waste money when they knew that the whole cycle was crap.

Sorry for my rant i just had to get it off my chest, i had doubts about it all before and the doctors and nurses talked me into it when i should have listened to my head and my heart.

Best of luck to everyone else on their 2ww and hope you all get BFP'S because we really need to see some in here.

**Saffy** · July 29th, 2011, 08:41 AM

OH NO Kristie, I am so so sorry to hear that,

, I wish it could have been different for you. I know what you mean about the clinic, I felt like my old one didn't give a sh*t about whether I got utd or not and just wanted the $$, so I swapped. Have a talk with your FS before doing anything drastic and tell him/her that you feel it was a mistake to have gone ahead and see what they say, they might have an answer. Some clinics do antagonist stim cycles which get less eggs but better quality, so you could ask about that.
Take care of yourself honey and do something nice for yourself today even though you will be feeling rotton.

Yogi- how are you?? xx

afm- feeling very pessimistic as I have no more cramping and feel completely normal, I know it is early still but I am resigning myself for the inevitable I think, don't know how I will get through the next few days.....if AF is going to come, she will start appearing Monday I think, going by past experiences, I would love to get to a BT without having started bleeding but that never happens for me...... anyway, need to try and stop being so negative

**nothing2lose** · July 29th, 2011, 10:19 AM

I'm out too...(not that I was ever really in IYKWIM)...AF just arrived. My only (small consolation) is that it was a natural (ie. cost-free) cycle....

*sigh*...

Now to decide whether to do another stim this month or wait a month....

Hugs to everyone who had a BFN and FX to those who are still in it!!!

x

**toomanyshoes** · July 29th, 2011, 10:21 AM

kristie and n2l -

it truly sucks

**Yogi Bear** · August 3rd, 2011, 10:52 AM

Hi
Just got my results and its positive! hCG 160, prog 236. Having another bt on friday...already nervous about that now!!
i know this is a good start but still being cautious not to get hopes up at all. I dont think i will ever truly let myself believe i am having a baby until i'm huffin 'n' puffin through labour!

Thanks ladies for all your support, means so much

Saffy....still have a good feeling for you