Thank you so much for replying nothing2lose! I think the nurses would be more than happy to answer any questions if they had time but I haven't asked. I think I'll ask on my BT day.

I am wondering about taking progesterone which I thought stopped bleeding, I guess if the BT is negative I just stop taking the medication? And then I will bleed. I am pretty worried about the massive mood swings if I have to stop taking the medication.

It's not just me and my darling hubby (we have been together for 21 years!!) but my ED who is attached to this outcome. I feel such a responsibility, because even though I feel and know in my heart this will be my child if it works out; at this stage I feel like I have been delivered a beautiful gift that they made for me and I wish I could have more control over making this work now it's my turn to do something! (Not to take away from my husband the fact that that it wold be "our" child not just mine, but in the context of this statement I'm talking about my feelings....)

Hmmm. Getting pretty deep now, luckily I have a wonderful therapist who I am seeing this afternoon, I perhaps should keep this for my therapy session, but she doesn't know what it's like to experience long term infertility like you guys. Thanks again for the support and for somewhere to put my thoughts during this very intense TWW.