I am posting my confirmation that again i have recieved a BFN.
thank you for everyone's kind words. goodluck to all that are in the TWW and that are continuing with this TTC journey.
i'm going to move on in my life and give 110% to my daughter. i have no more embryos frozen and do not intend on doing anymore IVF.
i may look at trying chinese medicine and natural remedies next year. but for now am not going to let TTC consume my life anymore.
KittyKat - so sorry to hear about your BFN. This journey can be so heartbreaking when our hearts are filled with such high hopes. So glad that you have one little angle to cuddle and I wish you all the best with your more natural remedies next year. x
Jayejaye - also so sorry to hear about your BFN. I wish all the best as you try and recuperate and hope that you find your deserved success at some stage in the future.
kittycat27 - I am sorry to hear that things didn't work out for you. You have put such a positive spin on it and your daughter is one lucky little girl to have such a fantastic mum. All the best with the Chinese Medicine route and we'll always be here if you just want a chat.
jayejaye - Please don't apologise. You do what you have to to get through this difficult time. I am sorry to hear that you didn't get your BFP this month
Airline - Sorry but I haven't experienced what you describe. I am amazed by the way you describe your m/c. I hope your mood has picked up today and you are back on an even keel. Hang in there!
Mitf - I forgot to ask FS about DTD post ET. Maybe another LTTTC'er might be able to shed some light?
Loops12 - It seems so pointless having that BT but if you want to look at it another way, FS explained to me that it is so they can see if you actually were pg and m/c or if there was no implantation. Maybe I'm just stating the obvious but I hadn't thought about it until he said that. Sorry you still had to go through it though.
Loops12, jayejaye & kittycat27, I am so sorry for your BFN. I wish with all my heart that it will happen soon for you girls, and that you don't have to wait long
Kittycat27, it must take so much strength and courage to decide to end the IVF journey, if I didn't get my BFP I wonder how much strength I would have in me to keep going and for how long. I really pray that with the AP treatment, you'll be able to achieve a pg on your own
Taurean78, jasminstar & mitf, GL in your TWW girls
As for taking the days off after the transfer, I had no sick leave or annual leave accumulated, as between taking 8 weeks off last year after my late m/c and 6 weeks off this year for my myomectomy op, I only had long service leave left. Normally, work only lets you take a month off at a time of LSL, but b/c I had no leave to use apart from the LSL, they allowed me to take a couple of days out of the LSL. I think the important thing is to take it really easy.
Airline, I have noticed a similar sharp pain both left and right when I stretch since EPU but it is getting better - not sure if that could be related to what you're describing. Also been very pre-menstrual physically and emotionally last two days and rang clinic today as my next BT was Mon and I wanted to move to tomoro and they said not to worry about the pre-mentrual feeling due to all the hormones in my system (also said my BT should have been tommorow anyway though they didn't listen when I said that at EPU on Monday). HTH.
JayeJaye, so sorry to hear your bad news. Try to look after yourself. I don't have any words to comfort you as I can only imagine how you must be feeling.
Kittycat27, very sorry to hear your news. Good luck with the herbal remedies and natural methods. Maybe enjoying your DD and having the pressure off will pay dividends. FX for you.
Mitf and Taurean, hope you guys are hanging tough. Any news to report? Hope all is moving along smoothly
Taurean - re DTD I wasn't really told much other than Progesterone test next Monday and PBT Monday after. I rang today as I'm feeling quite pre-menstrual and they moved Progesterone test to tommorow saying it should have been tommorow all along - which is what I said on Monday when they gave me the Monday BT timeframe. Going to ask tommorow to also move the final BT to next Friday too.
AFM: Trying not to panic but feeling crampy and hot and bothered - very pre-menstrual for me; also a bit down in the dumps. Hoping it's nothing just changing hormones.
Jasminstar & Taurean - I don't know how you guys are going but it's only 2 days post ET and I am already a nut case.... I am driving myself crazy. I found myself looking at HPT's in the supermarket last night. I was tempted to buy one and ask DH to hide it till I begged him to give it to me but I left it on the shelf. Are you guys going to POAS or refrain?
Airline - I was having some discomfort & pain on my right side, particularly when my bladder was full and pushing against my insides. When I had my ET Wednesday the ultrasound showed that they were swollen follicles on my ovaries which were not mature at EPU. The clinic said they will gradually disappear.... sure enough the pain is gradually subsiding. I am not sure if you are doing IVF or if it sounds similar but I hope the pain is subsiding for you also.
Kittycat - so sorry hun But yes at least you have one little darling miracle and you are being a wonderful mum for her. I know it gets annoying people saying this after a while but you never know, you will probably fall pg naturally because you wont be stressing. I really will be hoping and keeping an eye out for that. All the very best with wherever life takes you xoxo
JayeJaye - Im sorry about your BFN too - all the best for future tries. Hugs
Thanks ladies once again for your words of comfort and support and Taureen for putting the BT issue into perspective. Perhaps they may be able to tell me if it didnt implant and then we may know where to go from here.
I have an appointment with our FS on Sept 10 so hopefully we will be able to get something happening after that.
Mitf - thanks for responding, it's not a constant pain,only occurring when I stretch fully in bed .... strange, but I'm trying to not stretch...which is harder than you'd think
Keep your chin up...the days are counting down! I was thinking of doing a HPT every day to see what happened, but my head's back in a good space so I think just waiting and hoping might be a better idea...oh decisions!
jaejae- your message melted my heart when I read it...I'm so sorry
Taurean - thanks for your response, I am back on an even keel again..it was like a 24hour funk. Poor DH was sure the 'black hole' had set in for a while, but I'm back to normal... well as normal as you can be on this journey
Jaminstar - isn't it frustrating that hormones control so much and can indicate AF, pregnancy, pre AF, menopause etc! My waxing lady told me your pain threshold varies depending on time of cycle!...is there anything hormones don't control! Hope you're feeling a little better today - my mood's improved tenfold, so I'm just trying to stay relaxed and not obsess- ha ha ha ha!
Loops12- I'm so sorry to hear what you're experiencing. I started bleeding heavily just before my blood test, and the clinic told me the results indicated that my body hadn't rejected the embryo immediately, which now I can see as a positive. Of course at the time I was just lost in misery, tears and pain. They kept saying, you were soo close, so now I'm hoping I'm close enough this time.
Good luck to anyone in this 2ww of frustration...BT 20th - results 21st.
Thanks airline - I hope they tell me that on the 10th. It gives me some hope anyway and makes me less miserable so thanks heaps.
All the very best to you, i'll be thinking of you. Hugs
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But yes at least you have one little darling miracle and you are being a wonderful mum for her. I know it gets annoying people saying this after a while but you never know, you will probably fall pg naturally because you wont be stressing. I really will be hoping and keeping an eye out for that. All the very best with wherever life takes you xoxo
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