Hi everyone,

Thanks Kahlan for your well wishes. I wish too but I got my BT results this afternoon. A very definite BFN, as I expected, either it hasn't really hit me yet or my crying and wailing over the past two days have totally drained me and I have nothing left. I have an appointment to see FS on Monday to discuss the next cycle, which will be a stim cycle as no frosties left. I am hoping that he agrees to do a short cycle and start right away as I am dreading going on the pill.

I am devastated, and trying to keep my hopes up for next time, next month, next cycle, praying already that it will be the one. And back to freaking out about my embryo quality, I hope this next stim cycle is more controlled and I don't get over stimulated so they can be the best eggs possible. I hope it was just the OHSS that resulted in slow growing and fragmented embies. And DH is now on a diet to make sure his contributions are in the best possible shape too. I did consider a comiserating bottle of champers, but can't bring myself to do and would hate to regret it later.

At least I am sort of excited to be doing a new stim cycle, and hope a fresh transfer will be what makes the difference for me.

Sara, like Kahlan said, it might not be AF. Did you get an earlier BT date from your FS. I hope its not AF and that you are still in with a chance.

Bel, I hope I can join you again next cycle, and will start now that it will be the one for both of us that we get that BFP.

I am off to Noosa on Friday afternoon to do the Mayan Uterine Massage, this might make a difference too, or am I grasping at straws. I guess every step, no matter how hard it is, is one step closer to my dream.

Sending love and prays to all of us in our TTC journeys.