Hey Moonflower - hope you're doing ok - thoughts are still with you and your DH...

Murraycod - hope you're not too anxious about tomorrow...

BJ - Hope you're relaxing and that your little embie is settling in just nicely.

AFM... ****WHHHHHHHHYYYYYYY***

Ok.. I am seriously losing the plot... when I first started this 2ww and I was reading posts from you guys MF and MC... I just didn't get why it was so bad.

I GET IT NOW... I really do... and I am over it.. going CRAZY... I just want to POAS so I KNOW it's over with - instead of wondering... why the hell does it have to be a 2ww anyway???? Thats a LONG time to have your whole rest-of-your-life on hold! I don't know how anyone can say that you just need to get on with you life as normal in the 2ww... LIES LIES LIES!!!

I was actually feeling positive and ok about the whole thing until that STUPID letter from my FS yesterday... and it happened at the WORST time... too early to POAS and today is my RDO - so I am googling all sorts of things to help me find my answer... sitting here like a crazy psycho woman stressing...

I called Repromed this morning and one of the embryologists called me back to explain what had happened. I had my little bean tferred at 4 days... she said all 6 were looking really good at 4 days and were doing exactly what they were supposed to...

She then said next time they had checked - which would have been either the next day (sunday) or Monday when they wrote the letter... 4 of them had stayed at day 4 stage and didn't develop any further - and the last one reached blastocyst stage - but was too poor quality to freeze...

I then asked her about the one they transferred... did this one just 'stop' too..? and she said "It's a real possibility - but you need to stay positive that we chose the best looking one to implant"

Not much consolation I tell you.

I am over this... sooooooo done... I don't know if I could even do this again
- I am 100% convinced that this is not going to happen for me - and it hurts like hell... whoever came up with PUPO anyway? aaaarrrggghhh....

I am so sorry for the negative post - hopefully MC, your BFP will turn everyones luck right around!

L