Hope you don't mind if I jump in here, I'm just back from holidays and have been catching up on the news.
MC - I'm soooo so sorry babe that you didn't get the result you deserve. Its just so damn unfair, isn't it? You don't know it, but you've been an inspiration for me, and your positive attitude is infectious. Keep your chin up sweetie.
Moonflower - sending big hugs to you reading your posts over the last week made me so sad. I hope that you and DH are enjoying your weekend away, I have found that a change of scenery works wonders for the soul (perhaps the biggest thing for me its getting away from the BBT charting program!). Know that you are not alone in your heartbreak, you have the support of all of us crazy chicks :-)
FGS - am waiting with bated breath for your news, and have everything crossed for you! Your little embie is in the safest and best place it can be... (especially being away from that Negative Nelly embryologist can't believe she said that!)
Sharee - Welcome! I too had a giggle about the title of your old post - at least the words have SOME sort of meaning - unlike "eggplant umbrella" or the like!
BJ81 - Hi! Hope your 2WW is going OK.
Hi to anyone that I've missed!
AFM - I'm coming towards the end of my 2WW, and I must say, its been the best one I've had, coz I JUST HAVEN'T CARED this time!! Its crazy!! After the last failed IUI, I said to myself "stuff it all to hell" (after I'd stopped crying uncontrollably). We were going away on holidays so couldn't book in for another IUI until next month, and I decided I wasn't going to count days (too much), or take my temperature (too regularly) on this natural cycle. And DEFINITELY no BBT charting. God, it was bliss! Back from holidays today, and realised it must be getting towards the pointy end of things. I think I'm due on Tuesday? Or Wednesday? That's only if my cycle behaves itself, which it undoubtedly WON'T! I'm resisting the urge to POAS, but I can already feel my resolve fading.... noooo... Hehe! I'm sure I'll get a goodly amount of stressing in before this cycle is done
Sorry for raving on! Hope you are all well and hanging in there!
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MC - I'm so sorry about your result but it sounds like you are handling it in an absolutely inspirational way! I'm so glad that you are excited to go again. Loving your never give up attitude honey. Big big 's xxx
MF - I hope that you and DH had a good (as can be expected), therapeutic weekend away. Sometimes its good to just get out of the house and recoup. Hopefully you will feel a little better with each day that passes.
FGS - How are you going?? Hope you are feeling a bit more positive and things aren't dragging by too slowly for you.
Sharee - Are you hanging in there with me? How are you feeling? This is going to be the longest 2ww ever I swear!
Leabie - Hi! that you won't even have to do an IUI next month, how good would that be!
AFM - I HATE I repeat HATE crinone gel, I had forgotten how hideous it it Have been having some dull cramping over the past few days which I'm guessing is from the gel and my BB's are still really tender but otherwise am feeling pretty good. You know sometimes I hate knowing so much about what is going on in there. Knowing that if everything goes according to plan my little 'lone ranger' (emby as nicknamed by my DH) should implant in the next few days....Sub-consciously watching everything I do and eat and every twinge. The truth is if it wasn't IVF I wouldn't have the foggiest idea what was going on and would have downed my favourite Margarita's at Mexican last night. This 2ww is never going to end.....
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Girls, just popping by to wish you all the best, and let you all know i will be lurking away to see how you all are coping XXX
Get some BFP's cracken in here girls!!!!
Oh yeah, the Crinone is just soooo delightfull.....
Thank you for all the well wishes, you are all a great inspiration to me too
Well... maybe not 'proud' - but... I have put a lot of thought into it and have decided to POAS through my 2ww.. and not beat myself up over it.
It all started after the conversation I had with the Embryologist... I was so down about it - and prior to that, I was so elated and hopeful... I feel like I did the right thing by POAS... I was so caught up in the propects of this little bean in my tummy... that if that kind of behaviour went on for 2 weeks... I would have been inconsolable when I got that call after BT...
I tested 5dp4dt... and the 7dp4dt, and 8dp4dt and all have come up flat negative. I know theres a small chance that it's to early, but I have pretty much accepted the fact that my little bean, like his/her embie-siblings didn't make it. I am not going to say that I am happy, or ok... but I am going to be able to deal better than what I would be if I was entertaining the idea that I was pg all along...
I've been thinking long and hard - and I am wondering why you choose not to POAS? I am really wondering what you all think the pro's and con's are...???
I figure.. if I have to pay 3k for an ICSI cycle this year - whats $100 more in HPTs?? lol... next time - I am going to test right from the beginning so I can see the trigger leave my system - and follow it along... I think.
It's been quite tough the last few days... hearing about Moonflower and Murraycod's BFN... devastating... it's just so unfair...
I am really worried about none of my 6 embies reaching viable blast stage... very concerning - does anyone know if that can change cycle to cycle??
MOONFLOWER - if you're around - hope you're doing ok...
MURRAYCOD - I am sooooo sorry to hear about your result hun... it just seems so, so unfair. I hope that your snowbaby is wonderful and strong... and that you dont have to do another cycle for a looooong time.
BJ - I hate the crinone gel also... I am actually more over just having to *do* it every night... I can't wait til next week when I can just stop... and these stupid estrogen patches are irritating my skin..!
LEABIE - wow! you've done well! Haha... I can't wait to finally see some BFP in here! It's about due!!!
Sorry to anyone I've missed!
Be really interested to hear your thoughts about my POAS theory!
MC - I am really sorry you didn't get a BFP this month, I had everything crossed for you. DH was looking at me very strangely when I kept checking the computer to see if there was any word from murraycod, he thinks I have lost totally lost it.
Leabie - Hi! Glad I gave everyone a giggle with my strange post title I'm glad the 2ww hasn't been too unbearable for you this time.
MF - I hope you had a delightful weekend away and that you were able to focus on something else for a little while ! No illegal shennanigans for me (well none I want to share)
FGS - I hpe time hasnt stalled to a crawl for you and I hope you are feeling a little more positive. I really think (for what its worth) your little one has every chance now his back where he belongs!
BJ - How are you doing? All going according to plan our little ones should be implanting any day now! The crinone really is crap isn't it!
The first two days flew by and I actually thought I would breeze through the two weeks. I don't know what has happened today but I am suddenly really really sad about the prospect of my little embie not making it, I feel horrible I can't do anything to help!
And you're right it sux wathcing every little move you make, thing you eat, analysing every little cramp or twinge. All in all I think I have gone loopy and I am only 4 days in on my first ever cycle
FGS - I kind of agree with your decision actually. I read your post a couple of times. I think the only reason that POAS is so discouraged is because it is all so early for us in IVF land and getting a neg result that may not be correct would get you down and not staying positive for your body.....but then, on the other hand if the neg result is correct then at least you are somewhat prepared. Honey I think you should do whatever you have to do and really we shouldn't let anyone tell us otherwise. If your tests are neg but then get a positive result at BT then what a way to be picked up again hey. But if they are right I was very glad to see you write...."next time" This is my 3rd and I'm sorry to say it doesn't get easier, right now I am having 100 emotions in a day. Convinced that this is the one, then convinced that it hasn't worked just like the others.....but no matter how hard it is and no matter how I can't imagine picking myself up from another disappointment....I can't give up. And obviously neither can you. Don't rule this one out just yet though ok, it's good to be prepared but you have to keep a little bit of hope.
I also wanted to know about your estrogen patch? Obviously estrogen is a problem for me leading up to EPU, and effects my egg numbers, do you think it could also be a reason why my embies don't stick (yet)? My FS has never given me estrogen support and now I'm kind of wondering why??
Sharee - I know what you mean, I just went from having the most awesome day and feeling so positive to bursting into tears. But I guess you hit the nail on the head....we can't do anything to help. I guess we just have to wait. xxx
Hey FGS, I have every intention of poas as well. For me it is too emotionally dangerous to hang everything on one phone call where as if I poas like you have done over a series of days maybe I can gradually accept a negative.
Having said that you are still 4 days out from testing and as cliched as it sounds it may well just be too early - I see keep peeing for the next four days you just may see that second line start to appear!!!!
reading your posts over the last week made me so sad. I hope that you and DH are enjoying your weekend away, I have found that a change of scenery works wonders for the soul (perhaps the biggest thing for me its getting away from the BBT charting program!). Know that you are not alone in your heartbreak, you have the support of all of us crazy chicks :-)
Your little embie is in the safest and best place it can be... (especially being away from that Negative Nelly embryologist
can't believe she said that!)
I too had a giggle about the title of your old post - at least the words have SOME sort of meaning - unlike "eggplant umbrella" or the like!
I'm resisting the urge to POAS, but I can already feel my resolve fading.... noooo... Hehe! I'm sure I'll get a goodly amount of stressing in before this cycle is done
Have been having some dull cramping over the past few days which I'm guessing is from the gel and my BB's are still really tender but otherwise am feeling pretty good. You know sometimes I hate knowing so much about what is going on in there. Knowing that if everything goes according to plan my little 'lone ranger' (emby as nicknamed by my DH) should implant in the next few days....Sub-consciously watching everything I do and eat and every twinge. The truth is if it wasn't IVF I wouldn't have the foggiest idea what was going on and would have downed my favourite Margarita's at Mexican last night. This 2ww is never going to end.....
I'm glad the 2ww hasn't been too unbearable for you this time. 
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