i totally understand Mollygirl... you would not wish a MC on anyone, but it would be good to know that something was actually working.
i went for my BT with my IVF last august. i actually thought i was UTD, but only a reading of 7HCG. this was classed as an "unviable pregnancy". i was shattered and cried for 4 days straight. this is hard on my daughter(3.5yrs) at the time as she doesn't understand why mummy is sick and visit's the doctors all the time.
either way you are let down. not getting the BFP, getting it then having a MC or being so close when they tell you that something had started to work and then stopped.
i find it hard to know what to do next. i try and have a break between try's. not only to save for it! but to gather my thoughts and health. i am going to try a new acupuncturist this month as well. maybe she will do the trick as she specialises in IVF.
i will be trying a newish drug this month called Femara or Letrozole.
i am hoping it will work and speed this horrible evil nightmare along....
take care,
will be thinking of you tomorrow.
michelle
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I think that a few of us might be in the same camp at the moment. Mollygirl, I totally know what you mean about that feeling that you just can't get there. I joke that I have never seen so much as two lines on an opk, let alone a poas but it does get you down after many attempts. I've been with DH for 15 years and never come close to missing af or having a scare. God we welcomed a scare, we never used protection! I had all my tests, laperoscopy, endoscopy and something else done 8 years ago and was told everything was perfectly healthy and not to worry about it. "If you get to 35 and still havent' fallen pregnant, then you can start to worry". Well yeah thanks, I'm 35 now and I've been on the IVF trail for 2 and a half years! Something tells me I could have been advised to start exploring problems earlier. Now I just have no hope that it will ever happen.
That's hardly a cheery thought but in some ways it would be a relief to stop trying, to stop thinking about it and wanting it. I'm having an off day...probably AF around the corner and no chocolate in the house.
Good luck with your BT Mollygirl. Greenslw Loula, I hope you are wrong, but we know these damn bodies so well. I'm sure I'm out too.
Kittycat, goodluck on the new treatment drugs. Aleenta, hang in there.
I haven't mentioned you all but am following everyone when I can and wish you all lots of sticky vibes.
I have 1 embie on board. BT on 13/3 (Friday the 13th!!!) My FS wanted to put 2 in but of the 4 eggs they collected, only 1 made it. Ive only produced 2 embies from 10 eggs. So Im really hoping this is the one! Im feeling alot more positive and relaxed this time as Ive been doing acupuncture so have felt that has helped me alot.
Greenslw - Good luck for today. Await your news.
Mollygirl - sorry to hear your news. I can totally understand where you are coming from.
Lots of Look forward to spending the next 2 weeks with everyone here.
Well i got the official BFN today from the clinic.
DH and i are both feeling very flat at the moment - i know we will find the strength to continue but sometimes it just seems so unfair.
Hope there has been some good news today. Murph wasn't your BT today?
Loula, i know you feel you are out too but i will think positive thoughts anyway until Bt is confirmed
Everyone else in TWW hope you can bring some better news to the forum this month.
enjoy every moment as it will go so fast.
document everything and keep things, even if you don't think they are important at the time.
they will be later on.
this is a very special and truly wonderful time.
enjoy every second of it.
michelle
Molly - hun, sometimes i think ill write im sorry, but words are so hard to put together after this kind of disapointment. You know i will be thinking of you.
this is my second time in the 2WW, I am now day 20 of my cycle, had a FET (5 day embryo) on day 17, big test next Wednesday, but af may come sooner (I have short cycles) so am fighting the urge to POAS, how many of you are tempted to test before the day? And would you reccomend it? I bought 2 hpt yesterday, but have not broken either open yet!
Had some minor spotting on day of implantation and mild cramps for a few days. I feel amazingly upbeat, but as this is only my second try I am trying to be realistic about another possible failure. Its sad to hear some of you girls have not been successful and feel for you all, this is not easy for us is it? I am happy to hear of some success stories though as it gives you hope that you one day you may be one of them. Good luck to all those still waiting!!
CONGRATULATIONS GREENSLW!!!!! Hope you have a H & H 9 months
Mollygirl - take care of yourself, am thinking of you.
Buggirl - this is my 2nd time in TWW as well. I did test the first time even though I was adviced not to but I was too impatient! Not sure what I'll do this time as AF is due the day after my BT. I think the decision is purely up to yourself. Good luck with whatever you decide.
AFM, feeling quite relaxed at the moment although I do have a head cold so not physically feeling the best. Very headachy and am all congested. Im hoping this doesnt affect my embie or implantation.
Greenslw...you are a quiet achiever, excellent news. I got goosebumps at 3am when I read your news.
What was I doing up at 3am...stressing about my BT today and telling myself I just wanted to do some study...yeah right, I took so much in!!
So I had my BT today and now have the long wait of hearing form my clinic late this afternoon (or even tomorrow!). On my way home, I started consoling by demolishing half a block of chocky (having lost 5 kilos lately, there was no way I could be pregnant). I sneaked a poas (single test into the basket at the shops) and sneaked both the chocolate and the test past my DH when I got home and went straight to the bathroom. I poas and after one minute...dadadadada TWO PINK LINES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Loula, I hope you are wrong, but we know these damn bodies so well. I'm sure I'm out too.
Look forward to spending the next 2 weeks with everyone here.
Thanks for all the good vibes
to everyone else TTC!
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