I know that this happiness can so easily be taken away but please forgive me this indulgence even when others of you are hurting. My gorgeous best friend lost her little miracle today at 9 1/2 weeks and yet she cried with happiness for me while I cried for sadness with her.

Life is so uncertain and tonight I'm just gonna feel happy for me and my beautiful husband. I chose to go through with this transfer despite missing my Mum's partner's funeral so this is really a double celebration of life following death and he would be so happy for us. He was the most wonderful person, truly one of a kind. I kind of suck at this being happy business don't I