hi seph, i feel exactly the same. BT is tomorrow but AF since Sunday. I didnt get my hopes up, but that doesnt stop the emotions when it doesnt work. Even though you dont want to hope, you do.....hard to explain to others.

I am looking into acupuncture as well, anything to improve the chances, but still feel a bit like you....this may never work for us.

Anyway, i think if i learned anything the last time, it't to just get through the first week after a BFN and things will seem a bit better after that.

best wishes to all.
jane.