LTTTC Two Week Wait - March 2008 #1

Saph and Waiting...Im so sorry..its so hard on the old head and body isnt it.....
Miss C..thankyou so much for you kind words.
Im not really sure what is going on at the moment. AF stillhasnt arrived. On Friday night I had a spot of a small amount of brown (TMI SORY) only when I wiped so was devastated....POAS Saturday morning and got negative..had another spot of brown only when I wiped this morning. But AF was due Saturday. Spoke to my nurse and she said that it might have been too early to test but didnt want to give me hope. Feels like AF is trying to break through but nothing. I am regular so I should have seen AF yesterday or would have thought this morning but nothing. i dont want to get my hopes up as brown spotting this far down the track usnt a good sign but where is AF? I am still going in for my BT Tuesday but not looking like it will be good news.
We only have one egg left and am scared tog o again as going for anothe Stim cycle and an EPU scares me and to tell you the truth, we dont have the money to do so. Might have an appointment with my FS on Tuesday afternoon to discuss the next step whether to have a break or touse the last embie. Im not sure and Im so confused.
Im wondering whether AF is tryng to arrive I have the worst lower back pain which is usually a sign of the wicked witch.
Spent the whole day yesterday in tears..this one has really affected me...tried to go shopping but had to run abck to the car as I was in KMart buying a bean bag and burst into tears...what a freak...Im sure thats what the sales assistant thought of me...we had to go out for dinner last night for my DH's family that were here from Melbourne and was in the worst mood....theymust think Im such a lovely person being that way all night..they dont know anything..OH WELL.....we all have bad days.

My girlfriend from the Sunshine coast is about to arrive to stay the night and visit with hre kids and cant wait..the poor thing will arrive to a friend in tears..but luckily she is close to me and I can do that.....has been on this jouorney with us from day dot.

Well Im sorry to here AF arrived for some of you.

Bec D...good luck today sweetie..........BFP coming your way!
:hug:

Carla it is so hard to keep all your emotions in check. Sometimes it all just gets to much. I was like that this cycle put it this way, even I though I was nuts and had to ask the murse if this was normal. Your family will understand that this is a very difficult time for you.

We are going to have a break after this cycle if BFN just to get our heads together again.

Glad AF hasn't arrived, When i fell Preg with my son I had Af symptoms for three weeks and Brown spotting (at six weeks) before i found out i was preg at seven weeks so i have my fingers crossed for you. ( We had just started the 12 months of TTC after being told we would not fall preg naturally but had to try for 12 months anyway, oops how wrong they were) I tell you what tues cant come quick enough.

waiting - I'm sorry, hun :hug: You are such a trooper, I tell you. We always see you with your chin up. I hope you're doing ok, and I will keep hoping that the next one is the one, for you and me both :pray:

carla, saph - you two have been so strong with all the confusing and difficult signs and symptoms you have been going through, both of you. Carla, it's completely normal to be emotional right now - we all understand - the TWW puts us under a great deal of pressure and stress.

Hang in there, both of you. I will have everything crossed for your BTs tomorrow and will look forward to hearing *lots* of good news. Everything is so promising for you both!

Many hugs! :hug:

THanks Miss C
Im not too confident with the BT tomorrow. Although AF still hasnt arrived but I have brown spotting every now and then..not alot at all but sometimes when I go to the toilet it is there, this started Friday night...still no Af when she was supposed to come Saturday so Im kinda confused. i feel like I have a bit of pain down there but not really AF pains....who knows. Was going to POAS today but Im pretty sure its a BFN so am tired of spending sooooo much money on HPT....just thought I would wait for the BFN tomorrow!!!
Hope everyone is doing ok...its such a tough time.....i guess it makes us stronger.

hey lovely carla, i hope you have the biggest surprise of all tomorrow :hug: hun, are you on pessaries/crinone gel as that can cause brown discharge and cramping that confuses us girls no end.

hi all, i hope to join you in here in a couple of days if we get any fertilisations of my 2 eggs from EPU today. wishing you all the best.
xx

Hey Dusty
Long time no speak...HOW ARE YOU??????
I am on pessaries. I didnt need to go on them but was so anxious about it all this time that my FS said I could and it would hurt. BUT...I stopped taking them on Friday night when I spotted....didnt think I would be needing to anymore...
Still no AF...do you really think I still could be? Why am I spotting brownish stuff then.....I havent taken a pessarie since Thursday night. The cramps are kinda like wanting to pee and holding it...full bladder type...everywhere not just down low...across each side too.
Im still not getting my hopes up though.....I love the way you always make me feel better Dusty.
My boobs feel like they are about to explode.....I think AF is trying to break through actually!! Well only time will tell I gues..
Hope your doing ok Dust...It was great to hear from you.

Carla
I have got my fingers crossed for us today. Best of luck (people keep saying that to me but there is no luck involved today it either is or it isn't) I am sure we are going to both get BFP. Well going to have breakfast and go off for the blood test will eep you informekd.:bluedust: to us both.

Hey Saph...
GL to you too darlink!!!! I have been for mine but not looking great.....I keep getting positive vibes because AF isnt here yet but then I think of the brownish spotting I got every now and then so then all that positive goes back to a negative.....who knows....I cant stop thinking about it....It driving me nuts..
Cant wait to hear from you with the BFP news!!!

Saph, looking forward to hearing your news. To me it's sounds like you are quietly confident, and I believe you are right to trust your instinct - everyone has instincts for a reason. I hope the wait for BT results today is quick! :pray:

Carla, if you haven't taken the pessaries since Thursday night and it is now Tuesday and AF hasn't arrived, I would think this was very encouraging! :D I got AF on the third day after stopping the pessaries on my last BFN cycle (i.e. stopped pessaries on a Sunday night, light AF started on Wednesday). I believe it normally only takes a couple of days for AF to arrive after stopping pessaries if you've had a BFN - you haven't got AF yet, so this is really good! The brown spotting can happen when you miss a dose/stop taking the pessaries. I think some doctors refer to it as breakthrough bleeding. I hope you have a wonderful phone call soon, hun! I'm feeling very hopeful and positive for you! :pray:

Good luck today Carla & Saph can't wait to hear your BFP's!!!

Thanks Shannon.......Im not feeling too positve about it..but wishing the phone call would happen!

Hey Miss C
My last pessarie was Thursday night..I got my first spot on Friday night but i usually take them before I go to be so i dont think the spot was from not taking one...
Can you spot like that and still be pregnant....at the moment I am sooo hot...flushed....is this a sign..........
Im worried that because I have spotted..(nothing today or since late Sunday) that that is AF......
God I wish the phone would ring

Best of luck today ladies.. Cant wait to hear some great news!

Carla
I know how you feel you read every little sign your body is making to the extreme. My ovaries are aching something terrible. Can you leave the house? I am going to take my son to the park for a picnic to keep my mind off the wait. I have had a terrible back ache for days now but no AF cramps. I keep trying to think back to how i felt with my son but this is all different not assisted conception with him. Arghhh! Everytime the phone rings i jump even though it is far to early for the call yet. will keep you informed.

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I got my first spot on Friday night but i usually take them before I go to be so i dont think the spot was from not taking one...

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Carla, I had a small amount of spotting that started a day after stopping the pessaries before AF arrived another day or so later. I do think the spotting you had is because of stopping the pessaries - a day after stopping would make sense. If you've stopped spotting on Sunday, then that's sounds very encouraging still, hun! Hang in there, I know you're going nuts, and time has slowed down, but I'm sure it can't be too much longer - the morning is over, so you've got that far now! Try to keep breathing and stay relaxed, hun :hug:

ETA: Saph, that's a brilliant idea. Getting out of the house, without a clock hopefully time won't seem to go so slow. Hope you're doing ok and that the picnic helps you get through the time better. :hug:

Carla, can you get out of the house for some air for a bit as saph has suggested? I know I've just responded to your questions above and I'm speculating for you too because I feel so hopeful and encouraged by what you're saying, but I hope I'm not working you up any more than you're feeling - sorry if I am hun :hugs:
I think the best thing you can do is try not to worry about any signs any more or analyse all the little things anymore - I can imagine how difficult that is (I was in that position only a week or so ago), but are you able to try and distract yourself for the time being - concentrate on other things, get out of the house etc.?

I have so much hope for both of you and look forward to hearing your news.

:hug:

Saph and Carla, best of luck today. I have everything crossed for you.

Janie xxx

Thanks everyone......
Yes I am going insane but I am at work and wish I could go for a walk...I guess its better being here than at home going even more crazy....
Look..I think I am reading into too many things...like I said before...I think I am going to get a BFN...not trying to be negative but I have a feeling...will hold on I promise and will tell you as soon as I know...good luck to everyone......arrggg

Hi Carla and Saph, trying to catch up on every1 after coming back from my hols!
Praying with all my might its a BFP! I am going mental with the not knowing!
Carla, i hope the spotting is nothing to worry about ... I think its a good sign if anything!
Saph good idea going for a walk!
Miss C you are wonderful I just want to add!
Waiting - I am so sorry that things havent gone to plan for you this month!
Shan - glad to see you in the 2WW with 2 wonderful embies
Dusty - cant wait to have you here as well!
Will post more a bit later, but am praying for some good news in here today for you gals!
Mon :)

Hi girls Im waiting to see how you went . I keep checking my computer every 5 mins........ :pray::pray::pray:

No news from me yet....

Hey Carla,

I'm still here lurking too... :) Wanted to give you some space, but I'm thinking of you lots, hope you're ok and I'm just a PM away if you want to chat or anything :)

Still no news, picnic was no help as everyone there kept asking have I heard yet.
Everytime the phone rings I nearly have a heart attack.:pray: I hope it is our time at least for one of us.

Oh Saph Carla and Mon- I am so hopeful for you all - have been lurking for the last few days watching everyone's progress -
Congrats to Nik:clap:
So Sorry Kyles and Waiting and everyone else with BFNs, I know how that goes and all the very best for the next attempt - much much love to you all.
I had my transfer last Sunday and have to POAS on Thursday. I have been so quiet this time and really keeping it to myself - it was all too hard with everyone knowing last time.

I am going out of my mind and all the computers are down at work so instead of keeping myself busy am just looking at a million websites to see if my symptoms mean anything!

Hugs to you all
Adele

Well got my call with a BFN. I am going to have a break for a while. Carla I only hope that this i your time. Best of luck. Now just wait for AF to arrive.

Oh saph, I'm sorry :hugs: I hope you are ok. I'm sure that you and DH will be able to console each other, and I really hope whenever you next chose to try that success is waiting for you. My heart is hurting for you too, and I'm sending you lots of hugs :hugs:

Saph Darling - so so sorry darling.
All the very best - take as much time as you need to heal sweetheart.
Adele
xx

Oh Saph Im so sorry...... I really am....

I heard back from my clinic just before...BFP!! Im in shock. Levels are great but because I was spotting htey need another BT Thursday to make sure all the levels are still rising!!!!

I feel awful giving my good new Saph when you feel so horrible. I hope you do get your BFP next round.

ladies....thankyou ever so much for all the support you have given me....Im not outta here yet....will keep posting and making sure youare all OK.....let you know my results on Thursday too..............

Love to you all..........

Oh Saph Im so sorry...... I really am....

I heard back from my clinic just before...BFP!! Im in shock. Levels are great but because I was spotting htey need another BT Thursday to make sure all the levels are still rising!!!!

I feel awful giving my good new Saph when you feel so horrible. I hope you do get your BFP next round.

ladies....thankyou ever so much for all the support you have given me....Im not outta here yet....will keep posting and making sure youare all OK.....let you know my results on Thursday too..............

Love to you all..........

Oh Saph so sorry hun :doh: Look after yourself and DH :hugs:

Carla - Congrats hun!! Good luck Thurs! And stay sticky little emby!

Saph, I am so sorry. I know nothing we can say can make it any easier, but know that I am thinking about you. :hug:

Carla... I am so very excited for you!!!! That is wonderful news and I send you much love and lots of :bellyrubs:

I will write in the other thread what has happened with my OI this month. Not good I'm afraid.

Best wishes Janie xxx

Carla
I am so happy for you, I hope you have a healthy pregnancy. Going to take a little break for a while but just wanted to see how you went. Congrats to you and you hubbie.

Congratulations Carla! Great news! :confetti: Very happy for you! I'm sure you're levels will be nice and high on Thursday - I hope the wait goes quickly for the next BT.

Adele - good luck with your TWW, hun! When is your BT due?

Mon, welcome back! :D Hope the time passed quickly whilst you were away - you're getting there, hun!

saph - just another quick note to say I hope that the break does you good, hun. And I wish there was more that I could offer you to say. Take care :hugs:

dusty, shannon and everyone who may be just in the TWW or about to be, I wish you lots and lots of luck and I hope the time goes quickly for you all.

See you in a couple of weeks, assuming my current cycle goes to plan!

Hugs to you all, and warm wishes,

Miss C :)

Saph - I am so sorry about your BFN!!! I know how awful that feels! Take all the time you need - know that we are here for you!!!

Carla - I had a good feeling -Woo hoo! A BFP! That is awesome news!!! GL for Thurs! I am sure your levels will rise nicely!

Dellydoo - Sending you tonnes of sticky vibes and that you get your well deserved BFP on Thurs! How are you feeling??

Incredibly my Crinone cramps have seemed to disappear. Even this morning when I woke up had no swollen BBs like the past few days. What I have noticed is that feel tired more - could be that I was getting used to the holiday siesta's, and have a bit more of an appetite / feel hungry and some nausea, but its weird cause it comes and goes and don?t know if it is anxiety related and then I feel hungry! I don't know! I am just glad that no AF as last time around I was knocked out of the race at this point in the cycle! I also feel like a bit of a scatter brain - and don't know if that is cause I am still in holiday mode! Am praying that these are all PG symptoms! 3 more sleeps and I will know! I am betting these will be the longest 3 days!!! AHHHHHH!

Sending sticky vibes to everyone else in 2WW!
Mon :)

Saph Im so sorry honey that this wasnt your turn. I wish you all the best of luck for the next time.:cry:

Carla How fantastic Im very excited for you im sure your levels will continue to rise.:clap::dance::clap::dance:

Looks like I am out this month. Woke up this morning and AF has visited! Am totally gutted! And in shock! Esp cause was so positive this month! Its a lightish pink (sorry if TMI) but at this late stage I am not confident at all. Gutted :(

Mon so sorry Af has arrived. I know how devestating it can be. My AF hasn't arrived yet.Still having thoughts of the test could be wrong, maybe "I am a late implanter. But the truth is I am sure it will come soon and I am wondering if this is all worth it. The mass doses of hormones that make you feel like crap only for the devestating news at the end. Having a break with plan to start again maybe in may, but to be honest I am not sure I will go there again if it was my first time I would keep going but is the powers at be telling us that we are only supposed to have one child. "in A bad space at the moment need a break.Good luck to all those still waiting. Will lurk for a while to see you results.

Carla - Weeping with happiness at your news darling:clap::clap:

Mon darling I am so so sorry, it feels like 2008 really needs a kick in the pants for some of us!

Am feeling OK and POAS is due tomorrow. I have no symptoms at all no sore BBs and occasional AF type feelings - they feel a bit high though - I think I slept for about 3 hours last night. One more sleep though!
Axx

Saph honey I know that bad place - have you ever had Reiki or Acupuncture, you need some space to heal darling.
Axx

Thanks Delly Thanks Collo and everyone that has supported me

Saph huni, Im so sorry.....Delly is 100% right........you need to heal sweetheart.

Oh Mon I am so sorry hun :hug: Look after yourself and DH. I was really hoping this was the one for you.

Oh Mon my Sweet...
I'm so sorry to hear this for you.. Is there any chance it's not AF but a bit of implantation bleeding.. I could feel your vibes.. :hugs: Damn AF.. I'm thinking of you sweetie.. Hang in there.. We're all here for you...
Dee