I know that I'm bad, evil, jumping the gun...but after feeling not so good today at work, I just POAS and got a !
Told DH who automatically went into emotion control...will not belive it till we get the BT, and besides there is a good chance it could be another chem or we lose it early...but two lines!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG i might be having a baby (or two )
I have to keep looking at it to make sure this is real...I just hope it is not a false positive...
Still lurking around seeing how everyone was going.
FG: Congrats on a BFP so early before your scheduled BT. You must be so excited. Hopefully you have 2 snuggling nicely. It all looks good with the new protocol, are you able to pm me what they diagnosed for you and the treatment options as I really think I need some help turning my embies into sticky ones like you and don't want to use all of my frosties up without having other options...
Everyone else: Hope you are all surviving the TWW.
AFM: Still feeling really yucky. I would have thought that AF would be really heavy and long, but I have been getting horrible cramps about 4am in the morning with bright red flow, but by the afternoon the flow decreases and is a horrible brown. This has happened everyday since I came home on Tuesday. My tummy is very bloated, tender and I have a rash where they put the plaster over the stiches.... I'm back to work on Monday (my last week of my 4 weeks notice) and then become a lady of leisure... Seeing the Dr next Wednesday for my follow up, I'm a bit concerned as if AF has not gone away, I think I will then need to have a D & C and I still probably won't be recovered properly from surgery. This transfer has been the cycle from hell and that I never have to go through this much again.
Thanks to everyone for the hugs, kisses and best wishes. You girls just don't know how much it means to me to have people who understand all the emotions and dissappointments. DH and family only feel so much, but now I've been home a few days it is almost like I should be back to normal physically & mentally.
Hi everyone. I just posted on the LTAC forum but I just found this thread and noticed so many of you going through the same thing as me at the moment!
My DH and I have been on the IVF journey for almost two years now, and for the first time one of our frozen embryo thawed successfully and we were so happy to have our first FET last Thursday (at Blastocyst).
I have been trying to think positive thoughts all week (I figure if it survived the thaw, this one must be a winner!) and even started getting some standard pregnancy symptoms (metallic taste in my mouth, sore boobs). Then, on Wednesday I started spotting dark brown blood which lasted a couple of days so the clinic organised for me to have a blood test today. I got a call this afternoon and the nurse told me that I registered a very small amount of HCG (about 8) so they are doing another test on Monday to see if my levels rise. I figure I am about 13 DPO and my HCG level seems very low to me. Has anyone had levels this low and gone on to have a successful pregnancy? I am hoping for a miracle.
HI ladies, need to vent tonight as feeling bit flat. Found out today that none of our embies made it to freeze. Couldn't get much more detail other than that they had started to degenerate by today. Not sure if they grew on past day4 but I guess maybe they did given they kept them going until today (day 6). I had told myself I souldn't expect any frosties but did really think we would at least get the 1 that looked good on day 4. NOw I am really worried about the ones that were transferred as they were about the same quality as that 1. Maybe they are already gone?
Trying to stay positive in the hope they they were the only good ones but its hard when so many supposedly "good" ones have just failed to develop
There is SOOOOO much more to this baby making than just "normal" embies!!
My one consolation at this point is our decision to transfer at day4. Maybe they will fair better in me... Hoping so! Sorry about the whinge. I know I should be very grateful we even got any to put back but having a frostie or two was my saftey blanket
JBM - hoping this is YOUR time. When is FET?
Hayley - so sorry for your BFN and such a horrible AF. Praying she leaves very rapidly. 2009 HAS to be a better year!
FG - you are pg girl!! A BFP is a BFP. stick little bubba, stick!!
Wouldlovabubba - so hoping AF stays away. We need some more BFPs in here
Rach - oooh, all sounds very hopeful for you
Kelld 0 I am so sorry for all that you have been through these last few weeks. I have been through 4 m/c's myself, always with complcations and I really think that it would have been easier to not have fallen pg in the first place. I hope you recover quickly and that 2009 brings happier times
Mon - An HCG of 8 is very low but I am sure there are women out there who could give ou a positive story
Kelly - so sorry you have to go through such an awful cycle - I hope you don't need the D&C - not because the procedure is that bad but because you've been through enough
Mon - I don't know much about HCG levels so I can't help you there but I do know that they don't consider 8 to be a negative...I think it needs to be below a 2 or 3 to be considered negative
First thing - Oh my god FG that is such good news!!! I know you still have your beta to come but just seeing that positive on the stick - you must be so thrilled
Mon - 8 does seem quite low, there is a beta database somewhere on the net that I read about - (Found it, not sure if Im allowed to post the link, mods please remove if not) BETABASE - this might be able to help you, looks like 8 is okay for 13dpo.
AFM, I tested today (7dp5dt) and got a BFN. DH is distraught and I just don't know what else I can do. I know that there is a slight chance it could still be + but since when have I fallen on that side of the percentage - things dont go right for me. I dont know how much more I can put myself through.
kelly: just relax, don't put so much pressure on yourself. you know us women just don't seem to talk about this enough. but after a mc everyone expects you to go back to normal but it takes time. have some me time and don't push yourself too hard .. i hope all goes ok and no d & c for you is needed. sending you some cyber hugs xxoo
mon: welcome and hoping for a miracle for you. hope the levels keep rising. good luck
meredith: praying your embies are doing well and snuggling in.
bec: probably too early for testing. remember the saying, pregnant until proven otherwise.
afm: well it looks like lh surge will be sunday as got a faint line today. so that means that FET should be on wed 10th of dec. which makes testing day boxing day.
but i am sure i can convince them to let me do my test on 24th ( my birthday) as they'll be closed on 26th and then theres the weekend after that.
no more af for a long time for me. about 9 months time.
hi girls - just popping my head in here (I triggered last night and am having a FET on Tuesday so will be officially back in the TWW forum by then )
meredith - I'm so sorry about your freezing results. but on the positive side, the clinic always says to me that the best place for the embies is in the womb. they can only do so much in the lab - embies that might not survive in the lab, may do in the womb, so don't give up hope on the embie transferred. i hope you're ok.
farm girl - congrats!
bec d - hang in there - hope you're ok.
mon - 8 is low, but the important thing is that it doubles every few days. hang in there.
hi to everyone else I will catch up on personals and be back here on Tuesday - yippee!
FG - OMG that is fantastic news and just what i needed to pull me out of my slump - CONGRATULATIONS!!!!
KellyD - You are so strong to survive what you have been through - hopefully 2009 will be your year!!!
Mon - for your BT on monday
BecD - I am pretty sure that a HPT 7 days after a day 5 transfer is too early to tell so hopefully you will still receive some good news
Meredith - I am sure the one little sticky winner is already inside you!!!
AFM - well i recovered from my mini meltdown the other day and decided that AF like pain does NOT have to mean that I am not pregnant so I am back to my positive thoughts again. Only 6 days to go till my BT I am going to try very hard not to POAS
Merideth: Try and stay positive - our embryologist is always telling us that the embys fair better in their natural environment.
Bec - I'm sorry to hear about your BFN. Maybe it's too early to tell on a HPT? My fingers are still crossed for you! Thanks so much for the link to the beta chart - looks like a good reference to have.
JBM: I love how positive you are - hope that this FET is the one for you.
Mels: Good luck with your FET!
Mollygirl - Stay positive - I know so many people who have AF like cramps and go on to have healthy pregnancies.
I am not feeling too confident today - symptoms have almost all gone and I took a HPT this morning, and while there was still a second line, it was lighter than yesterday (I really should stop torturing myself with these tests!). I want to go to the gym to try and take my mind of things but the nurses are always saying not to exercise too much during the tww. Anyone heard otherwise? I think for my own sanity I'm going to try and put this cycle behind me now, and look forward to a new start in the new year. At least we got to do a FET - things are certainly moving in the right direction!
to everyone!!
Last edited by *Mon*; December 6th, 2008 at 09:28 AM.
Hello all sorry no personals today as I am not feeling up to it, so all day yesterday I was still getting what I thought was CM however it had become dark brown and at times I found I was spotting but only whenever I wiped so I thought that maybe AF was gonna show up. Well turns out I was right as she reared her ugly head this morning
Now I guess it is back to jabbing for me DP was just as dissapointed as I am but all we can do is stay strong and hope we are back in here is two weeks hope to see most of you gone with BFP's by then. Good luck to all.
Congrates to FG hope this is the sticky one for you.
Im sorry AF arrived wishingbaby That sucks, hope youa re okay xxx
Mon - Do whatever you need to to keep your sanity, but I dont think it matters if the line is lighter or not - it still means that the hcg is in your system and it could just be something to do with the test itself. Sending you my love xxx
Mollygirl - well done for keeping away from evil pee sticks - trust me they are trouble!
Mon - wishing you luck!
JBM - all systems go and things are looking good!
AFM - pretty sure it hasn't worked this time! I have that horrible feeling! I just don't think this is it! Just want to feel like it will never happen for us...
I hate my body for giving me false hope. I feel the same as last time I was PG but I just know this one hasn't worked! I am so so over AC! Kelly - I understand how you are feeling 100%.
FG - I'm so thrilled for you. How exciting and wonderful - especially at this time of year.
Mollygirl - You sounded like me yesterday! I went to work and was in just a foul mood. I came home only to pick silly fights with DH. I'm feeling slightly more normal today - but I just feel like I'm living on edge.
Rach - I've been having the same thoughts today. I just want to stay in bed until Tuesday's BT. I'm so sick of the waiting and watching! I feel completely normal today - nothing. Who knows! I guess we just have to try to remain sane and wait this out. Who knows - we might get lucky. I even thought I would put myself out of my misery and buy a hpt to use tomorrow morning. The two stores I went to were closed (even though they are supposed to be open until 9pm!) so I figured that was a sign not to do it. Good/Bad - again, who knows!
WLBubba - You are allowed to rant and vent to us! No one else could possibly understand except for us - so feel free to vent anytime you want.
Meredith - Good Luck - I'm sending lots of your way.
JBM - Good Luck with your FET - You only need 1 to work and I'm hoping this little embie is your lucky one!
Hayley - I feel so frustrated and disappointed for you. Try to relax and enjoy christmas and then you can start again positively in the new year.
Nixon - Thanks for sharing your information. It's really lovely to hear other people's success stories.
Smithy - Thanks for the positivity!
Mon - Welcome to our little group. I would have thought 8 would be a good number only a week in - so hopefully that number keeps rising for you!
BecD - So many factors come into those stupid hpt's - so try to keep away from them and fingers crossed, you get a different answer next week.
WishingBaby - I'm so sorry AF has arrived for you. Bloody *****.
Rach - pls dont give up hope yet, this cycle still may be the one...just remember that the drugs like playing tricks on our body so dont give up hope yet, maybe this is just being a double agent!
wishingbaby - so sorry that AF arrived, bad witch! Hope you can have a doona day - you deserve it, and could be the start of recharging for 2009.
Mon - a second line is a second line, and still a BFP...dont give up hope as it is not over till the next BT! Maybe this is just a embie that started snuggling late. Wishing you all the best for Monday.
MG - I admire your willpower...good luck with the resolve, and hold on to that positive thinking - who knows what is happening inside, maybe it is just a little one snuggling in nice and deep.
Mels - good luck with your transfer on Tuesday, and hope that it is the start of a great TWW that ends with a BFP!
JBM - good luck with your BT negotiations - a test on the 24th would be a great birthday and xmas present in one. hope all goes well with the transfer.
BecD - you will find the strenght to keep going and bring a beautiful baby into the world, and it still may come from this transfer! Dont hang all your hopes on one test...there is still the big one to come.
Meredith - dont give yourself a hard time for feeling dissapointed or upset at not having frosties - we all pin our hopes on having some in the freezer and the loss of those embies we are trying to put in there is hard and we cant pretend that its not. I really hope that you dont need any more - that this day 4 tranfer does it for you.
AFM - I tested again this afternoon, but with a cheap brand that is not meant to be used till the first day of your missed period (AF due tomorrow if I was not on progesterone) I only got a faint line, but at least there is a second line. However feeling nothing except tired today - no sore BB, no twinges and no indigestion, so who knows what tricks my body is playing on my heart...I guess I just have to wait till Tuesday and the BT. I just hope we dont end up losing one early...
To everyone - including anyone that I've missed in the personals
FG
Hey all,
I feel like running across the screen, saying "I'm back!!!" I've missed you all. No time to chat now - have just been catching up on all your amazing trials and triumphs in the TWW.
My computer died (as I was writing a post on this thread) back in October and I've only just got it back from the shop! Sorry to have missed all your well wishes but I look forward to catching up soon.
Just a quick update on my TWW. Well after my AF like pains I was experiencing on Thursday & Friday, things have been very quiet for the last 1-2 days. Not really feeling anything at the moment and I am taking that as a good sign. I had some very minor (and i mean very very minor) twinges on my left side yesteday, so hopefully that means something good is going on in there.
I tell you what would be great though - some unmistakable, unquestionable, good old fashion pregnancy symptoms.............. here's hoping!!!
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that I never have to go through this much again.
. i hope all goes ok and no d & c for you is needed. sending you some cyber hugs xxoo
no more af for a long time for me. about 9 months time.
this will be me in about 8 months time.
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I will catch up on personals and be back here on Tuesday - yippee!
for your BT on monday
to everyone!!
That sucks, hope youa re okay xxx
well done hun!
feel like it will never happen for us...
your way.
so sorry that AF arrived, bad witch! Hope you can have a doona day - you deserve it, and could be the start of recharging for 2009.
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