Hi,
I had a few complications with my last IVF cycle in Aug/Sept 08 and google led me to this forum. Reading all of your posts gave me so much insight and also made me realise that I certainly wasn't going through this alone. My ET was late August and I was hospitalised a few times with hyperstimulation and chest pains (although no one could ever seem to diagnose me) - I was so ill. In all my previous attempts, I only ever took 1-2 days of work, but this time I was forced to take almost 10 days off.
Always trying not to constantly look at signs and trying to determine if its the damn drugs or real pregnancy signs. I had my hopes up and was convinced that not only 1 would stick, but they both would and finally, I would get my happy little family I've been fighting so hard to have. Well, my count was 7 - so a BFN (altthough it took me a while to work out what those initials meant!) and I was devastated. I'm not one to cry, but this time tore my heart out. I had been so good and took it easy and well, it still didn't work. I couldn't even verbalise my heartache.
Reading this site helped and 3 weeks later and I'm on day 21. DH and I couldn't book in to see ouf FS for our FET this month, but thought we would try again this month naturally. I've re-read Better Babies and have cut out caffeine, white bread and all those processed yummy things to see what happens.
I guess, my main reason for joining and posting this is - well, 3 weeks later and I'm hopeful again. After such devasting news, I'm amazed that we are able to pick ourselves up and try again. I just wanted to express this for any of the unlucky ladies who haven't been successful this month to understand and appreciate how strong we all are in going through this. I hope "Hope" quickly returns for you.