Another thing, not falling pregnant easily is in no way an indicator of your parenting ability... Don't ever think that. I know people who were unable to have kids and became foster parents and they are the most beautiful parents around. You sound like an intelligent, caring woman and I bet you will make a great Mum. Keep your chin up and remember you have alot of friends here you can debrief to! We are all in the same boat, just on different journeys....