sounds like you have been through a massive ordeal in the last 5 years, no wonder you need a break. I have only been trying for just over 2 years and it feels like a lifetime!

I do know someone who was ttc for almost 10 years (ivf) and now has a beautiful baby girl, so while I'm not saying I hope it takes you that long, there is hope that it can work. Miscarriages are very traumatic but my FS also seems to think that its a good sign you can get pregnant and will eventually get a sticky one.

I hope you period comes back ( have you spoken to a DR about it?) and you begin to feel your body is getting back on track, maybe have a go at acupuncture? It seems to be able to sort peroids out, for me anyway.

Coming from a medical perspective (midwife) you would be surprised what your body can do, people get pregnant agianst all the odds, babies grow despite all sorts of things and people bounce back from all sorts of medical problems. I really hope you can get nice and rested on your break and enjoy your holiday.

Its so hard seeing people get pregnant easily ( how do they do it?!?) and they will never understand what we have been through. I hope you get your forever baby soon sweetie xxxx