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Its hard when the world can go on around you and all you want to scream is "hey I am having a really crappy time" Work seems so irrelevant. Take care of you first.
Glad the DH and you are on the same page it makes life alot easier.
Always here to listen just at the irrelevant place saving my pennies for future cycles lol
Bec
I hear you! It's bizarre to think we just paid $5000 out of pocket for this 'fantastic' experience...I know it's terrible to think about the money but it's the reality of it all...at least if we do another cycle this year the medicare rebate will kick in...can't believe I'm even thinking about it...one thing I have been thinking about..is next time I'm not doing all these bloods once I'm pregnant...I found watching the levels doubling really stressful...they can do the tests I just don't need to know the results every 3 days...drove me nuts...I'd rather take it easy till 7 weeks and then a scan to check for ectopic...ahhh..getting so far ahead of myself...just have all this stuff going through me head about how I'd do things differently next time...and I will not be working that's for sure!!! The stress of that joint is not helpful! My FS has offered to write a letter to my boss which I thought was really nice...I'll be getting him to do that to attach to my 'leave without pay' application for next year...now I'm just dribbbling...have been getting lots of cramps this morning...keep going to the loo expecting it all to have started but nothing yet...anyways...better have a shower and get the day started ...it is 9.30...oh well...talk later xxx
Ellie, you're so strong honey. I'm sorry you've come to the conclusion that your doctor is right, its not a conclusion any of us wanted. But onwards and upwards right... I think you've got an amazing attitude after everything. I agree to dump the job, after all, you've got to be happy and it doesn't sound like they're helping with that. I'll be hoping with all my might that the next cycle is the ticket and brings you your much longed for baby.
Beibei, how did your scan go on Saturday... any action down below?
Hey Janine
Just hanging out till Wednesday...if we make it...cramping is getting worse so I wouldn't be surprised if something happens tomorrow which would be good in some ways...I'm going to ditch the job...going to do it properly...go out with my head held high not lower myself to the bosses level...so I figure I'll have to finish the 4 weeks of this term to allow them time to replace me...who knows maybe they'll let me have 2 days a week or something...will have a go at negotiating what's best for me when I get back...gosh...I'm doing ot again...planning...I'm such a control freak...
So...any symptoms yet???
BeiBei...where are things at for you???
Bec...didn't spend a cent today...saving saving saving for the next round!!!!
Hi Janine, thanks for thinking of me...Scan and b/t all went fine on Saturday, but not much to report as yet...its only my day 11 today, so b/t tomorrow and I normally O on D14...so transfer won't be until next Tuesday ...
How are you? Feeling any symptoms yet? I hope you had a relaxing weekend...Did you end it up having another b/t or HPT? Hope all is going well...
Ellie, how are you hun? Hope Wed comes and gone quickly and you soon will be feeling better...and good luck with the work situation as well...
Morning ladies...
Hope you all have a great day...I am so stupid...stumbled across this thread in miscariage section about scar tissue after D&C and all the dramas it can cause..why do I do this to myself????? Ahhhh...anyways...he's a great FS all will be fine! The we can talk FET...how exciting...can't believe I'm feeling so much better already...hope is a wonderful thing!
Ellie, stay away from those googling those things... they are poisonous (I should know he he).
BB, not long now then til you have your little snowbubs on board!!! I can't wait!
I'm actually feeling very worried and stressed today. My boobs don't feel as swollen as they did yesterday. I phoned the nurse in tears and went for another test. I'll have the results after lunch. In the meantime POAS and its still very positive (darker than the control) but I'm still scared. This is the same time I lost the baby last time. I did have extreme hunger, thirst, peeing alot, yawning alot and swollen boobs etc but now I'm wondering whether I still feel any of that. Sheesh, its so stressful.
Bokkie...oh sweetie...it's so hard...there is nothing anyone can say or do to stop the worry...the fact you where in tears is a good sign...hormones!@?! (Trying to be helpful) Why not ask for an early scan? I got scanned early coz I was soooo stressed about having another ectopic...I found the clinic were more worried about keeping me calm than sticking to the rules as such. One step at a time lovey...just think how good you're going to feel when they ring and tell you your lgreat, really high levels...then you'll be worried about twins...or triplets again!!! Imagine a triple baby bonus....cool!!!! I can't imagine how long a pregnancy must be when the first few weeks take FOREVER...I'm praying for you and sending lots of sticky vibes your way...I'll keep checking in for an update xxx
Ok...must be after lunch Melbourne time...waiting...waiting...:pray:
Yes, hope is a wonderful thing like you said Ellie...and sometime we surprise ourselves how resilient we are! Solute to that!
I am waiting for your result too Janine, I am sure all will be ok...seems you got all the symptoms, try to relax honey, I know its easier said than done...
Whew, thanks so much for the pep talk, I really needed it!
Finally heard, and the level is now 6091! Thank Goodness! I've probably pooed about 12times today with worry. According to betabase, the doubling time on that is 38.14 hours so I guess thats fine. Phew. What a scary stressful day. But I'm going to try and relax now for another two weeks when I'll hopefully see the beating heart (s) (?!?!) Nooooooo. It won't be twins. C'mon... Nooooooo...????
Fantastic news...I've been pooing too...lol...think it's from the cramping...still no sign of any else though...what a sh***y day we've had hehehe!!! Seriously...very happy and relieved that all is on track!!!
hello your poo buddies, sounds like lots of happening today...:cryinglaugh:
I know it will be ok Janine...so try to relax and enjoy the journey, it sure will go faster later on...you should get a ticker so I can see you are growing nicely...:dance:
Yeah...get a ticker...then we can keep up!
Well girls...I'll see you on the other side of my first D&C...what a milestone...not...thanks heaps for your love and support...you are a really special bunch xxx
Ellie wishimg you all the best for tomorrow hun and just wanted to ask tell me if im steping over the line but i thought it was normal pratice to do a d&c after an ectopic so you have already had one but just didnt know it
Hope that helps you to understand tomorrow how you may feel with recovery?
Sorry its such a horrid subject but wanting to reasure you that youll be ok?
Good Luck Ellie, thinking of you. Don't poo pn the table okay x
Hi Ellie
Hope all went well for you today. Will check in later to see how you are going.
Cheryl
Hahaha...I hope I didn't poo on the table???? How would you know????
Gosh...a D&C is sooooo much easier than EPU...no pain...just a bit of cramping and bloating but heaps better than what I was expecting. I didn't know that they send 'the product' off for testing...that shocked me a bit...but I guess it may provide some helpful information...so I see FS in 4 to 6 weeks to make the next plan...he doesn't think I'll see AF for about 6 weeks then I need to wait a cycle...so that's at least 10 weeks...one whole school term...seems like a really long time! Anways...off to cuddle DH ...he's found today really tough...talk tomorrow xxx
Hugs for you Ellie. Its not easy I know. Take care of the two of you. The ten weeks will fly by hopefully x
Thanks Bokkie...where's the ticker????
Owww, yeh bokkie, you can have one of the new BB pg tickers.
I want one!!!
Ellie - really glad that the procedure went OK today. 10 weeks seems a long time, but you have just been through a huge huge upheaval, and i'm sure your body will be so much stronger for the break.
OK, I've put it up... Yikes, nail biting stuff... I thought I was 5 weeks 2 days today, but it says I'm only 5w1d. Confusion Reigns.
How you feeling today Ellie? Sore? Hope you resting nicely.
Hi Bokkie
I don't know how I am...it feels like a lifetime ago that I was trying to work out my ticker and it was only a few weeks ago...I just feel weird...physically great...but emotionally...weird...I'm guessing my levels are dropping so that's got to be having an effect...I feel like I'm in a bubble today and everything is happenening around me...I'm so stressed out about work I just don't know what to do...the thought of sitting at my desk dealing with everyone's dramas...I don't want to do it...but at the same time I don't want to put DH under pressure to earn all the $$$...and to add to it all my parents are moving 5 hours away as of this weekend..so then they'll be coming to stay whenever they come to town...which will be the very next weekend after they've moved...they came and saw me at the hospital yesterday and Dad says..."Oh well love this is the first one you've really lost"...WTF does that mean...because I had a D&C this is the only one that counts...they soooooo don't get it and now I'm going to have them staying here...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! And then the MIL phones last night to say they'd like to come and see me on Saturday and perhaps we could take them for a drive to Lancelin for the afternoon...which is like an hour north of our place...and it's a long weekend so imagine the traffic...I tell you..it doesn't rain it pours!!!! Gosh...that was a big vent...thanks for listening...and ....I love the ticker...I'm so glad you got one...I found it really hard...like...if I do this it's like admitting this might really be happening...and if I do that it means it's going to hurt like hell if it doesn't....so keep that ticker and believe this is your turn...your levels are amazing...I'm starting to think FET is the way to go...less trauma on the body and all...anyway...enough of the novel...will chat soon xxxx
Ellie hun, I'm sorry you're feeling so kukky. Its such a huge ordeal you've just been through. People will never understand, I don't know why they think miscarriges are nothing. They are unspoken about and people have to suffer in silence. All your babies were your babies, not matter how long they were with you for. And so was this little one. Of course you're gonna hurt for a long time I'm sure. It took me over a year to even start to feel normal after I lost mine, and that was only one. Look at the amount you've been through. I hope you didn't go to work today??? You should be relaxing and lying down, eating chocolate and watching DVD's and looking after yourself. I'm sure your hubby understands. I hope you feel better soon sweetie. Your snowbubs are waiting for you x
Thanks Bokkie...I've just got to make a decision about the job...I'm driving myself mad...big talk with DH tonight I think...we have to make a decision!
I'm off on holiday to sunny north QLD for the next few weeks, so if you don't hear from me... Good luck with all the FET's happening, and Ellie, I hope you start to feel better really soon. Bye for now girls xxx
Oh lucky you! Have a wonderful time...hope to catch up when you get back...my email address is on my profile if the thread is closed xxx
Hello ladies, I think we have been keep this thread for a record long time...here is my 5 cents...
Love the ticker Janine, and hope you are now enjoying the QLD sun and growing a nice belly...
Ellie, how are you going sweetie? Glad to hear that at least you have put the D&C behind you and waiting for a new start....Have the work situation sorted it out yet?
For me, today is the T (transfer) day...2 hours to go...for some reason, I am getting a bit nervous even more so than the 1st time, I guess that's the downside to take the day off...no distractions...
Hope everyone else is keep well and travelling fantastically...
BeiBei...well done! How many did you have transfered? How did it go? Ohhh soooo exciting...I have everything crossed for you!!!!
Today was my first day back at work...went in...said hello to the witch...sat at my desk...eventually got called in for the chat...which I kept professional...she was very to the point and obviously aware she has stuffed up BIG TIME...so I have my big meeting tomorrow afternoon which will determine whether I resign or take leave...whatever happens I am not working with her ever again...evil thing that she is!!!!
Oh, evil female boss could be sth...glad you are moving away from her...last thing you need right now is negative energy around you Ellie...so stick with your ground...hope all works out for you...
Yeah, transfer went well...and now I feel absolutely nothing though...I know its too early to feel anything but that worries me...I hope this time at least I will make to the b/t ....
Hi BeiBei
Congrats on the transfer. Sooo exciting ... lots of sticky vibes and positive thoughts coming your way and you are DEFINITELY going to make it to the b/t!! Yay!
Cheryl
Oh thank you Cheryl..hope your cycle will be a smooth ride too, what stage are you in?
BeiBei I have butterflies for you!!! It's so exciting to think you have your little one on board...your both in my prayers!!!!
As for me...BIG meeting went soooo well I am in shock!!! Will tell you all about it when I know what's going to happen but the options they presented to me are all better than I'd ever dreamed!!!! My FS has been amazing...he phoned me late the other night for me to listen as he dictated the letter for me into his dictaphone thing...he was sooo supportive! Anyways...I'll have more to tell soon..soooo exciting!!!!
Oh, thanks Ellie...I have been trying to take my mind off this...but gees man, that's hard work...
So happy for you about the good news on job front, its sounds like exceeding your expectations! That's great, after all, we bloody have to spend more than half of our day at work, so it makes tremendous difference if you are happy! You go girl, don't be afraid to ask for more, you totally deserve it! Tell me more when you have more news....xx
Hi BeiBei
Congratulations on your transfer. wishing you all the best.
Hi everyone
Thought I better post to keep this thread going until we find out BeiBei's news and catch up with Janine when she gets back from her holiday...all VERY important!!!!
As for me...had a total melt down at work on Friday...walked in the door to find a poxy pot plant and card on my desk from my boss...after all I've been put through and she's been horrible to me since I got back on Tuesday she waits till Friday and thinks that is going to fix everything....sooooo upset went home at 8.30am and I'm not going back...ever...big boss has said he will move me and he would only need 48 hrs to get things sorted so I should hear from him tomorrow...so once this is sorted I might then have some time to grieve for our lost bubby...all too hard...and to add to it all...my cousin phoned yesterday to tell me she's pregnant and my brother's girlfriend had her baby shower yesterday too...I didn't go...I am at breaking point...can't sleep, eat...have infection post d&c...all too hard!!!!
Ellie - i really feel for you hun! i hope things start to get more positive for you again soon. life can be so cruel!
Bei Bei - congrats on Transfer. im hoping to have mine by the end of the month! did you do Natural FET? when is the big BT!!! how many did you have put in? questions questions questions!!!!!!
Yay Son...how exciting...I'm doing FET next too,,,got to wait for AF then a cycle...then FET...seems a lifetime away...gives me time to work out all the other stuff and de stress...can't wait to follow your journey xxx
oh Ellie - i really hope your next journey is THE one.then we can take our bellies and one day babies to meet ups and compare stories! i know you have such a long wait, but when it finally comes time im sure it will fly. im just scared the drugs stuffed my body and its going to take FOREVER to get AF. no sign or symptoms as yet... i even wore white briefs and dress pants today when i went out to try tempt AF to come and be a witch. silly hey?
Hey Ellie, sorry things are being so tough for you right now. Your boss sounds really insensitive... quite strange. Hmm, whats with the dodge pot plant?? Where are you moving to?? I know FET seems ages away, but time does go quite quickly, and for us, well, the time is something you need, to be able to get over your lost baby. For ages after i didnt think i would be ok, i just kept thinking what if. Now i feel better, sad still for the baby we wont ever hold, but positive for our future, and the maybe's...I hope things start to get better :hug: