Nervous after 1st transfer

Don't give up hope Ellie...I agree that if the baby is fighting then you should too...it surely is an eventful start but hang in there...2 more days to go...

Janine, how are you going? Almost finish the TWW? Any symptoms yet? thinking of you...

Thanks for your support girls...you must be getting as tired of all this as I am...I'll keep you posted :pray:

We aren't getting sick of it, we're here for you okay!!!

AF would be due tomorrow, I'm actually losing my mind at the moment. So far the only real symptom (or non-symptom) I have is that it doesn't FEEL like AF is on her way. My boobs aren't sore and didn't get their usual pre-af lumpiness. Maybe the nips were a teeny bit sensitive thats all. Oh and my temp is still nice and high at 37 deg. Usually drops to around 36.7 before AF, but sometimes only on the day it comes. Sigh. I'm much too scared to pee on a stick. Its our anniversary today and I'd love to have a BFP for my hubby but I'm too scared as it just doesn't seem possible. Its torture isn't it!

Oh Janine...what a day for you!!!! I have everything crossed for you...are you going to do a test???? You must be going crazy...hang in there hun...I was just reading Smudge's great news...so it's feeling like it could be a good week around here :) More importantly is there anything I can do...I'm home so I can chat all day if you need a distraction????

Do you reckon not feeling AF on her way is a good thing? I won't test, all I have is a digital and thats WAY too black and white for me... I need to be able to imagine I see a line there even if I dont, hee hee! I'll wait it out, and if my temp is still high tomorrow, and no sign of the witch, then I might start getting hopeful... Did I tell you I had some pink spotting at 9dpo? Thats never happened before, so it could go either way. Yikes, make it stop!

Oh Ellie - I do know how you feel. I don't have all the background on your story but do hang in until it is absolute. We had a fill in FS and she told DH & I straight to our faces that this pg was 99% doomed and we (she) are 'hoping to see my levels plummet by the next bloodtest' Then the next time I spoke to her she was frantic because she thought I had stopped taking the progesterone..that was 2 mornings later!! Hang in there sweet x :hugs:

Smudge
Thank hun...how many weeks are you? I'm really hoping that my 'glitch' is still because there were two...but I have to face the fact that they couldn't see anything at 6.5 weeks...when they should...I'll give you quick run down on my levels...

28/4 P4 315 HcG 235
1/5 P4 315 HcG 650
5/5 P4 385 HcG 1600
8/5 P4 375 HcG 3000
11/5 P4 445 HcG 3500??? Scan same day showed sac of correct size
14/5 P4 395 HcG 5000 - FS said happy with that
17/5 P4 340 HcG 6900 - Scan showed sac a bit bigger but no HB or fetal pole told to go home and wait for MC!
21/5 P4 295 HcG 12000

So I see the FS on Thursday and he has said for me to have a light breaky at 7am so he obviously thinks I'm going to surgery...I'll be 7 weeks 5 days on Thursday....so that's it in a nutshell!!!! I'd love to know what you think???

Hey Ellie, just read the news about Smudge, what a wonderful news! Proves you can never give up hope...sometimes even the professionals can be wrong!

Janine, that is sounding really hopeful...aren't you a good girl for not testing! When is the b/t? I will be counting down with you!! Happy annerversary too!

Hi Ellie

OMG - surely the blood test results can't be wrong! There is something going on in there and my fingers and toes are all crossed for you for your visit with the FS tomorrow morning. I think you are right in thinking that if your baby is fighting then you should too. If there is no hurry for the D&C then my conscience would tell me not to do it. I have checked up on a molar pregnancy and it sounds to me like you would have some pretty severe symptoms with the vomiting and nausea and the size of your uterus being abnormally large. This site also said that a heartbeat couldn't be guaranteed to be seen on u/s until week 12! So, given this (small) bit of information, I reckon the b/t is the only thing you can go on at the moment plus any symptoms you may be feeling. Even the experts can get it wrong sometimes!

Good luck and all of the :stickyvibesgirl::stickyvibesboy: & :bluedust: that I can muster is being sent your way!!

Cheryl xx :hugs:

How you feeling today Ellie? Those numbers still look good to me so I'll just be hoping you see something really promising tomorrow.

BB, my b/t is tomorrow. AF is due today and so far no sign of her. My temp also went up to 37.1 from 37... I'm so scared to test though, I'll just wait it out I think and live in denial for a day longer... It doesn't feel possible...

I know what you mean about being scared...good luck with your b/t tomorrow Janine and I have everything crossed for you...drop a line as soon as you know...

Just popped in to say good luck hun.

Oh Janine...what a day for us hey!@?! Great that AF hasn't turned up...looking good...how great will it be if we both get good news tomorrow!!! I have everything crossed for you! I'm swinging from hope to despair today...there's just nothing I can do...just keep busy and try not to think about it...when I think that tomorrow really could be the end I feel sick...I think my hopes are higher that I can even admit to myself...oh well...we wait!

Hi Ellie and Janine,

Just checking in to see how you two went about b/t or scan? Anxiously waiting for your good news!!

Oh my goodness, its positive! Hcg 688!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats high?!?!?!? I just can't believe this is happening to me after all this time. ****zen!!!!

Ellie, I hope you're okay, I'm so sorry to have this good news when I know you're going through such a tough time. I hope everythings okay!!

Awww congrats hun. All the best :)

Janine....CONGRATULATIONS!!!! That is the best news...bet it hasn't sunk in yet....YIPPEE!!!! Wishing you a healthy and happy pregnancy!

As for me...diagnosed Blighted Ovum...was too upset today for D&C....as I was waiting to go in for the scan...you wouldn't believe it....the one other girl from work that goes to the same clinic came bouncing out of the scan room announcing to the world that her twins where jumping around etc etc...so at that point I kept it together but as soon as the door closed I lost it...poor DH had no idea what was wrong...then had the scan...more devastation...then back to the FS who was wonderful...not that he could understand anything I was saying through the sobs and snot...(hehehe - can actually laugh about that already!@?!)... he suggested I try and wait another few days to see if my body will deal with things naturally and if that hasn't happened by Tuesday he'll do a D&C Wednesday....

Janine...please don't apologize for your wonderful news... I'm actually ok...I've been through alot worse than this...this is preg 5 for us we know how to do this...when things go right is when I won't know what to do!!!! I am truely happy for you and thankful that something has gone right for someone today...and even better coz it's you...you have been such a wonderful support to me over this entire cycle...I hope I can do the same for you xxx

Ellie, I'm so damn sorry! I was so hoping for good news from your side too. Its been such a long time for both of us and really wanted this to be it for you. You're so brave and strong and I'll pray that you're blessed very soon with a healthy strong pregnancy. I'm thinking about you alot xxx

Bok - congratulations sweetie.

Ellie - honey it just isnt fair - not one single bit.

OMG, Janine, that's wonderful news!!!! Gee, 688, how many did they put it back? Would be interesting to know how many are in there? What's the next step? B/t or scan...I am so happy for you...give me some hope about FET, I am actually feel a bit depressed about my FET even before the transfer 'cause I don't think it will work...

Ellie, my sweet, I am so sorry to hear your news though...you are such a strong women, I actually had tears in my eyes while I was readling your post..you handled it so well...take your time to heal and hope D&C will go well

Hi ladies

Ellie - Very sad news for you; I was thinking about you today and was hoping that it was going to be good news. I have my fingers crossed for you that you don't have to go through the D&C. Don't lose hope - maybe next time it will be a BFP!

Bok - congratulations! Your result really gives me hope for my first IVF/ICSI cycle that we have just started! We worked out today that if my EPU goes ahead on the planned date then we will know that I am pregnant by my 40th (gulp - sounds surreal just typing it!) birthday!

Good luck and sticky vibes to everyone else!

Cheryl xx

Thanks guys, I really didn't have much hope for myself. I didn't have any of the "symptoms" you hear about except the pink spotting on 9dpo. Even now, I feel pretty fine. I can't wait to puke my guts out, he he. Next step is a scan on the 12th June or so... I hope I make it that far, I'm so scared as last time I lost the pg at 5 weeks. But this time the beta is nice and high so I hope its safe. I only put back one BeiBei, but we also tried naturally, so wouldn't it be funny if there WERE two after all...

I'm really hoping that your cycles work out for you guys, if it worked for me it cn work for you too. Hang in there!!

Ellie, still here for you and thinking of you all the time. Hope you're okay xxx

Hi Girls
Well I'm still here and the world has kept turning as I predicted...I feel really relieved that the rollercoaster is pretty much over...I never thought I'd be praying to bleed...really want to avoid the D&C if I can...that could me about a 3 month wait until we can try again probably longer...blah...knowing we have our two little snowbubs is really comforting and there blasties which we've never done before either...they could be the ones? Anyway...living in hope through you Janine...I think there's two...those levels are really high...how funny would that be!!!! Hope you all have a great day...I have my favourite 'support' girlfriend coming over with her 12 month old twins and then we're going out to lunch...she's driving so bring on the wine!!!!

Yahoo, bring on the wine!!! Hope you have a nice lunch today! I really hope the little blasties are going to be the ones. And anything different is good!

If there WERE two, that either means we conceived by ourselves as well as the FET, or the FET split. Wouldn't that be odd...?! Murphys law eh?

It is soooo going to happen...hehehehe!!!! Double baby bonus will help pay for a nanny?@!?

Seriously? if you are having twins, you get twice as much baby bonus??? that would be a nice recovery for the IVF cost...haha..I am working towards that!!

Ellie, I hope you will soon get over this little glitch and the two snowie bubs will turn out to be the special one(s) for you...oh babe, enjoy the wine...I have been lately...its wicked!

Janine, its so amazing that you did it...still remember the time we were cycling last month....god, I am so thrill this is it!!! hmm, spotting at DPO9...I know now what I will be looking for this time after the transfer...are you 4 weekish pregnant? Hope time flies till your next scan...let us know how you go...lots of hugs...

BeiBei...how great is it to have a drink again! Although it didn't take much to get a bit tiddly...hehehe...DH kept encouraging me...I'm a happy drunk and I think he just really needed to hear me laugh after the 'outbursts' earlier in the day!

Still deciding on the post mc purchase..always do something crazy so should keep to tradition...but what to buy???? Any ideas girls???? Have previously bought a new house, car, plasma, diamond ring...crazy huh?!?

Oh...and get this...just got a lovely letter from FS for 'the procedure'...in big letters at the top it says..."Evacuation of the contents of the gravid uterus by cure"...how gross does that sound...don't think I'll leave that lying around on the kitchen bench!!!!!:doh:

Geez Ellie, that sounds a bit rough. Don't you wonder where doctors make these horrible terms up??? Oooh, what to buy... what to buy ... How about a nice spa for your garden?? With a nice pergola and island bar within easy reaching distance?

BB, yes its 4weeks 3 days, how pathetic, I'm counting the days till I make it past 5 weeks 1 day. Not long to go but the days stretch out don't they? I can't wait for your FET now either, I so hope yours stick like glue. Its renewed my faith in the procedure, thats for sure.

Have a lovely weekend girls!

Isn't it amazing what a difference a day can make...have had a lovely afternoon with my girllfiend then my BIL dropped in...which is a rare event when you live out of town! Nice to know people care :)

Janine...just curious...do you have to go back for bloods or do they leave you to it until your scan?

I like your tradition Ellie, How about renovate your kitchen or replace your stairwell? Those are the things on my 'to do list' during my break last month but somehow resist the temptation...enjoy your wine and company...I always said to my husband, life is still beautiful just two of us even one day we know we can't have children...you got to be happy with the life as it is...and everything comes along is a bonus...let alone that Im pretty sure all of us here will have children, its just the matter of 'sooner or later' anyway...

Janine, I am sure you will be cruising with the number is that high, he must be a super strong bub...enjoy every moment and happy postiive thoughts sending your way...

I am having my 1st b/t and scan this Saturday but its only day 9, I don't feel any anxious or any feeling, as if its someone else is doing this cycle...very weird...well, at least I won't have a high expectation like last cycle so won't be too dissapointed if it doesn't work..

Alright girls, leaving work now and have a great weekend! Janine, your 1st pregnant weekend, pamper yourself! x

Ok...don't want anyone to think I'm totally mad...but I don't think I want the D&C...Dr said he would rather I do things naturally but yesterday I didn't think I could cope...but if I wait...even if it takes a few weeks...then I can do FET within 8 weeks rather than a minimum of 3 months...what do you think?

Sorry Ellie :hugs: I've left a msg in my hcg hell thread x

Hi Ellie,

I can understand that you don't want D&C, 3 months is a long time to wait...I only had one month break after my stim cycle, but it seems eternity...

On the other hand, do check with Dr. what the implications are if you wait it to happen naturally, as long as a few weeks...just make sure that it doesn't harm your body in anyway...but again, I never had any experience in this, just my thoughts...

whichever way you decide, we will be here with you to go through it together...good luck hun! x

Ellie, I agree, if your doctor says its okay, then do it naturally if thats what you want. Its always helpful to feel like you have a plan isn't it. 8 weeks is a lot better than 12. As BB says, we're here for you whatever you decide... x

BB, I just love your attitude! Surely you will have lots of babies with that ;-) I'll be thinking of you this week during the scans etc, this will be the one! You'll see!!! I was also fairly detached so maybe that helped. Who knows, pure fluke I guess.

No more blood tests for me :-( I'm kinda tempted to go to a GP tomorrow for another one, but I just have to try and relax and have faith that everythings going as it should.

OK, now I really am going x

Ellie,
Hun I have been following but had no wise words to offer unlike the other wonderful women in here. I have had more D&C's than I care to admit, alot of them from retained products (lovely). If it was me I prefered to have the D&C, one cycle I waited and waited trying to pass products that never happened and ended up having it done anyway. It was a waste of months and very depressing for me. But like the other girls it is a decision you have to be happy with. Huggs sweety its not fair
Bec

Janet: You clever little cookie, you take it easy and enjoy

Thanks Bec...I'm swinging from one extreme to the other at the moment...I'm so sick of feeling sick and all the preg symptoms...I just want to feel 'normal' again...but I'm thinking that could take a while anyway? How much pain were you in after D&C...I have no idea what to expect...any info would be helpful?

Hi Ellie, I've had a D&C before too and it wasn't very sore. My tummy just felt a bit tender afterwards, and weeing was hard (not sore though). So you're still feeling all the symptoms etc? Are you going in for another scan or anything? I guess your levels are probably still pretty high?

Ellie,
I was a little tender for a few days but nothing that required any pain killers. I suppose waiting around and taking it easy recovering is similar to waiting around for someting to happen. I had a situation where I delievered one of my girls and had to have D&C to get the retained placenta, I had it done at 10am and was home and being cared by my family by 1pm. Waiting is such a horrible thing and I suppose the medical intervention that we subject ourselves too with the IVF it made it easy for me to think I want to know it is all gone and nothing will hinder my chances next cycle. Hun I feel for you to make a decision like this is tough in a sence it is the end of a cycle that should of worked, I often felt quite empty after it iykwim.
But in saying this I had an Obst tell me that he wouldnt do anything until I delievered the baby even thou she had no chance of life because I would always wonder "What if" and although it was hard at the time to accept I know that I would of thought that now.
But dont give up hope... believe me good things eventually happen to good people :)
Bec

Thanks Bec...I had an appointment to see me GP this morning...was going to get a second opinion and see if she would get me scanned...but on talking with DH last night...we decided it's time to accept that we might not like what the FS has said but he's never let us down before...and he did literally save my life (ruptured ectopic)...so I've cancelled the appointment and I'm going ahead with Wednesday...there is just no way a 2mm yolk sac at 7 weeks 6 days is viable...I've searched the internet all week and all the sites say pretty much the same thing...so time to move on...my next big drama is what to do about work...I just don't want to go back...will deal with that one after wednesday...thanks so much for listening xxx