Hello all

I am a member of a few forums like this, after nearly 6 yrs TTC i need all the support i can get LOL

A bit about me .... DH and I will be married 6 yrs July and since being married ive never been on birth control, i had a lot of issues with my cycles and then we were living overseas so i wasn't too bothered about not having children as i thought it would happen sometime anyway, but guess i was wrong

My 1st BFP was a non tubal ectopic , 2nd and 3rd Chemical Pregnancies between the ectopic & the chem preg i did IVF that wasnt successful

we returned to Australia last Aug and since then i was on Sharkeys herbs but my cycles seem to progressively get worse so i have stopped that and am looking into IVF now

It been a hard and long journey for me esp as DH works away (so 2/3 weeks he is not here with me) .... i feel like i am going thru things along and am usually left to do huge things on my own, like move countries! and recently move from the Gold Coast to Brissie so i get frustrated and esp as him hardly ever being around when i O

I feel like I have failed as a woman and a wife and everyday i wonder why ... i do try and keep positive but everyone around me has had a child or children, my SIL got preg exactly the same time i had my ectopic and now she has a wonderful baby girl and i love my niece but inside me i am crying every time i see her and hold her

I have given up on friendships because I have nothing in common with my old friends now, they have their kids etc and I have not, they lead a different life

Well i wont bore you all anymore just hope my roller coaster ride will end soon and i wonder at what point does one decide thats it and its not going to happen, because i dont feel i will ever ever get to that point, i dont want to give up on the one thing i have dreamt of my whole life